I brought my pictures to the photographer, and he said he liked my body but I looked a little stiff.

"I think I just need some practice," I said.

"Well, stand up. Let me see you pose."

I didn't want to ask what to do, but I couldn't imagine what he wanted. Or maybe I could imagine: "Well, like what?"

"For starters, you have nice legs, but if you stand on your toes, your legs look better." I stood on my toes. "See," he said, "you're just standing there. You're too inhibited."

I left and I was totally pissed. I couldn't believe I was too fucking inhibited; I thought I'd never be able to turn on a man for real if I couldn't even do it for money.

I went back to my apartment and practiced naked, in front of the mirror, opening my mouth, and arching my back, and putting my hands in my hair. Then I fantasized that I was posing for the "Playboy" centerfold, and there were forty men standing around telling me what to do. I was doing it better than they ever imagined; They all jerked off while they watched me. And I had the most literate, written interview in the history of the "Playboy" centerfold.

In this texts it plays a crucial part the opposed terms of “inhibition” and the “exhibition”. The character starts working as a model in erotic photography sessions and finds herself too stiff and uncomfortable with the pose, so she blames herself for not being able to “turn on a man”, almost a duty to all women.

The body is in contrast with the intellect, not even mentioned because the former is the sole product that interests in the environment she has chosen to work (and even in society itself the body has extended its control and essentialness, it is the dominant word).

When she reflects after the session she practices with a mirror the erotical poses that she is supposed to adopt, fantasizes naturally about her sexuality and overcomes the repression that tied her in the studio, thinking about being showed up in a Playboy number. This fantasy is the acceptance of the role of her body as an erotic instrument, and the hidden desire of being scrutinized and taken as an object. Back into her life, she cannot act driven by these impulses, so she assumes the role of a normal and “healthy” woman, being shameful and inhibited, not natural.

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