Where
Angels Fear to Tread
by E.
M. Forster
Chapter 1
They were
all at
Harriet,
Irma, Mrs. Herriton herself. Even Mrs. Theobald,
squired by
Mr. Kingcroft, had braved the journey from
was
likewise attended by numerous relatives, and the sight
of so many
people talking at once and saying such different
things
caused Lilia to break into ungovernable peals of laughter.
"Quite
an ovation," she cried, sprawling out of her
first-class
carriage. "They'll take us for
royalty. Oh,
Mr. Kingcroft, get us foot-warmers."
The
good-natured young man hurried away, and Philip,
taking his
place, flooded her with a final stream of advice
and
injunctions--where to stop, how to learn Italian, when to
use
mosquito-nets, what pictures to look at.
"Remember," he
concluded,
"that it is only by going off the track that you
get to know
the country. See the little towns--Gubbio,
Pienza, Cortona, San Gemignano,
Monteriano. And don't, let
me beg you,
go with that awful tourist idea that
only a
museum of antiquities and art. Love and
understand
the
Italians, for the people are more marvellous than the land."
"How I
wish you were coming, Philip," she said,
flattered
at the unwonted notice her brother-in-law was
giving her.
"I
wish I were." He could have managed
it without great
difficulty,
for his career at the Bar was not so intense as
to prevent
occasional holidays. But his family
disliked his
continual
visits to the Continent, and he himself often
found
pleasure in the idea that he was too busy to leave town.
"Good-bye,
dear every one. What a whirl!" She caught
sight of
her little daughter Irma, and felt that a touch of
maternal
solemnity was required. "Good-bye,
darling. Mind
you're
always good, and do what Granny tells you."
She
referred not to her own mother, but to her
mother-in-law,
Mrs. Herriton, who hated the title of Granny.
Irma lifted
a serious face to be kissed, and said
cautiously,
"I'll do my best."
"She
is sure to be good," said Mrs. Herriton, who was
standing
pensively a little out of the hubbub.
But Lilia
was already
calling to Miss Abbott, a tall, grave, rather
nice-looking
young lady who was conducting her adieus in a
more
decorous manner on the platform.
"Caroline,
my Caroline! Jump in, or your chaperon
will
go off
without you."
And Philip,
whom the idea of
had started
again, telling her of the supreme moments of her
coming
journey--the Campanile of Airolo, which would burst
on
her when
she emerged from the St. Gothard tunnel, presaging
the future;
the view of the
train
climbed the slopes of Monte Cenere; the view of
Lugano,
the view of
now--the arrival
at her first resting-place, when, after long
driving
through dark and dirty streets, she should at last
behold,
amid the roar of trams and the glare of arc lamps,
the
buttresses of the cathedral of
"Handkerchiefs
and collars," screamed Harriet, "in my
inlaid
box! I've lent you my inlaid box."
"Good
old Harry!" She kissed every one
again, and there
was a
moment's silence. They all smiled
steadily, excepting
Philip, who
was choking in the fog, and old Mrs. Theobald,
who had
begun to cry. Miss Abbott got into the
carriage.
The guard
himself shut the door, and told Lilia that she
would be
all right. Then the train moved, and
they all
moved with
it a couple of steps, and waved their
handkerchiefs,
and uttered cheerful little cries. At
that
moment Mr. Kingcroft reappeared, carrying a footwarmer
by
both ends,
as if it was a tea-tray. He was sorry
that he
was too
late, and called out in a quivering voice,
"Good-bye,
Mrs. Charles. May you enjoy yourself,
and may
God bless
you."
Lilia
smiled and nodded, and then the absurd position of
the
foot-warmer overcame her, and she began to laugh again.
"Oh, I
am so sorry," she cried back, "but you do look so
funny. Oh, you all look so funny waving! Oh, pray!" And
laughing
helplessly, she was carried out into the fog.
"High
spirits to begin so long a journey," said Mrs.
Theobald,
dabbing her eyes.
Mr. Kingcroft solemnly moved his head in token of
agreement. "I wish," said he, "that Mrs.
Charles had gotten
the footwarmer. These
country
chap."
"But
you did your best," said Mrs. Herriton. "And I
think it
simply noble of you to have brought Mrs. Theobald
all the way
here on such a day as this." Then,
rather
hastily,
she shook hands, and left him to take Mrs. Theobald
all the way
back.
Sawston,
her own home, was within easy reach of
and they
were not late for tea. Tea was in the
dining-room,
with an egg
for Irma, to keep up the child's spirits.
The
house
seemed strangely quiet after a fortnight's bustle, and
their
conversation was spasmodic and subdued.
They wondered
whether the
travellers had got to Folkestone, whether it
would be at
all rough, and if so what would happen to poor
Miss
Abbott.
"And,
Granny, when will the old ship get to
asked Irma.
"'Grandmother,'
dear; not 'Granny,'" said Mrs. Herriton,
giving her
a kiss. "And we say 'a boat' or 'a
steamer,' not
'a ship.'
Ships have sails. And mother won't go
all the way
by
sea. You look at the map of
Harriet,
take her. Go with Aunt Harriet, and
she'll show
you the
map."
"Righto!" said the little girl, and dragged the
reluctant
Harriet into the library. Mrs. Herriton and her
son were
left alone. There was immediately
confidence
between
them.
"Here beginneth the New Life," said Philip.
"Poor
child, how vulgar!" murmured Mrs. Herriton. "It's
surprising
that she isn't worse. But she has got a
look of
poor
Charles about her."
"And--alas,
alas!--a look of old Mrs. Theobald. What
appalling
apparition was that! I did think the
lady was
bedridden
as well as imbecile. Why ever did she
come?"
"Mr. Kingcroft made her.
I am certain of it. He wanted
to see
Lilia again, and this was the only way."
"I
hope he is satisfied. I did not think my
sister-in-law
distinguished herself in her farewells."
Mrs. Herriton shuddered.
"I mind nothing, so long as
she has
gone--and gone with Miss Abbott. It is
mortifying to
think that
a widow of thirty-three requires a girl ten years
younger to
look after her."
"I
pity Miss Abbott. Fortunately one
admirer is chained
to
climate or
something. I don't think, either, he
improved
his chances
today. He, as well as Lilia, has the
knack of
being
absurd in public."
Mrs. Herriton replied, "When a man is neither well bred,
nor well
connected, nor handsome, nor clever, nor rich, even
Lilia may
discard him in time."
"No. I believe she would take any one. Right up to the
last, when
her boxes were packed, she was 'playing' the
chinless curate. Both the curates are chinless, but hers
had the
dampest hands. I came on them in the
Park. They
were
speaking of the Pentateuch."
"My
dear boy! If possible, she has got worse
and
worse. It was your idea of Italian travel that saved
us!"
Philip
brightened at the little compliment.
"The odd
part is
that she was quite eager--always asking me for
information;
and of course I was very glad to give it.
I
admit she
is a Philistine, appallingly ignorant, and her
taste in
art is false. Still, to have any taste
at all is
something. And I do believe that
ennobles
all who visit her. She is the school as
well as
the
playground of the world. It is really to
Lilia's credit
that she
wants to go there."
"She
would go anywhere," said his mother, who had heard
enough of
the praises of
the
greatest difficulty in dissuading her from the
"No,
Mother; no. She was really keen on
travel is
quite a crisis for her." He found
the situation
full of
whimsical romance: there was something half
attractive,
half repellent in the thought of this vulgar
woman
journeying to places he loved and revered.
Why should
she not be
transfigured? The same had happened to
the Goths.
Mrs. Herriton did not believe in romance nor in
transfiguration,
nor in parallels from history, nor in
anything
else that may disturb domestic life. She
adroitly
changed the
subject before Philip got excited. Soon
Harriet
returned,
having given her lesson in geography.
Irma went
to bed
early, and was tucked up by her grandmother.
Then
the two
ladies worked and played cards. Philip
read a
book. And so they all settled down to their quiet,
profitable
existence, and continued it without interruption
through the
winter.
It was now
nearly ten years since Charles had fallen in
love with
Lilia Theobald because she was pretty, and during
that time
Mrs. Herriton had hardly known a moment's rest.
For six
months she schemed to prevent the match, and when it
had taken
place she turned to another task--the supervision
of her
daughter-in-law. Lilia must be pushed
through life
without
bringing discredit on the family into which she had
married. She was aided by Charles, by her daughter
Harriet,
and, as
soon as he was old enough, by the clever one of the
family,
Philip. The birth of Irma made things
still more
difficult. But fortunately old Mrs. Theobald,
who had
attempted
interference, began to break up. It was
an effort
to her to
leave
effort as
far as possible. That curious duel which
is
fought over
every baby was fought and decided early. Irma
belonged to
her father's family, not to her mother's.
Charles
died, and the struggle recommenced.
Lilia tried
to assert
herself, and said that she should go to take care
of Mrs. Theobald. It
required all Mrs. Herriton's kindness
to prevent
her. A house was finally taken for her
at
Sawston,
and there for three years she lived with Irma,
continually
subject to the refining influences of her late
husband's
family.
During one
of her rare
again. Lilia confided to a friend that she liked a
Mr.
Kingcroft
extremely, but that she was not exactly engaged to
him. The news came round to Mrs. Herriton, who at once
wrote,
begging for information, and pointing out that Lilia
must either
be engaged or not, since no intermediate state
existed. It was a good letter, and flurried Lilia
extremely. She left Mr. Kingcroft
without even the pressure
of a
rescue-party. She cried a great deal on
her return to
Sawston,
and said she was very sorry. Mrs. Herriton took
the
opportunity of speaking more seriously about the duties
of
widowhood and motherhood than she had ever done before.
But somehow
things never went easily after. Lilia
would not
settle down
in her place among Sawston matrons. She was a
bad
housekeeper, always in the throes of some domestic
crisis,
which Mrs. Herriton, who kept her servants for
years, had
to step across and adjust. She let Irma
stop
away from
school for insufficient reasons, and she allowed
her to wear
rings. She learnt to bicycle, for the
purpose
of waking
the place up, and coasted down the High Street one
Sunday
evening, falling off at the turn by the church.
If
she had not
been a relative, it would have been
entertaining. But even Philip, who in theory loved
outraging
English conventions, rose to the occasion, and
gave her a
talking which she remembered to her dying day.
It was just
then, too, that they discovered that she still
allowed Mr.
Kingcroft to write to her "as a gentleman
friend,"
and to send presents to Irma.
Philip
thought of
Caroline,
charming, sober, Caroline Abbott, who lived two
turnings
away, was seeking a companion for a year's travel.
Lilia gave
up her house, sold half her furniture, left the
other half
and Irma with Mrs. Herriton, and had now
departed,
amid universal approval, for a change of scene.
She wrote
to them frequently during the winter--more
frequently
than she wrote to her mother. Her
letters were
always
prosperous.
sit still
and feel. Philip, however, declared that
she was
improving. He was particularly gratified when in the early
spring she
began to visit the smaller towns that he had
recommended. "In a place like this," she wrote,
"one really
does feel
in the heart of things, and off the beaten track.
Looking out
of a Gothic window every morning, it seems
impossible
that the middle ages have passed away."
The
letter was
from Monteriano, and concluded with a not
unsuccessful
description of the wonderful little town.
"It is
something that she is contented," said Mrs.
Herriton. "But no one could live three months with
Caroline
Abbott and
not be the better for it."
Just then
Irma came in from school, and she read her
mother's
letter to her, carefully correcting any grammatical
errors, for
she was a loyal supporter of parental
authority--Irma
listened politely, but soon changed the
subject to
hockey, in which her whole being was absorbed.
They were
to vote for colours that afternoon--yellow and
white or
yellow and green. What did her
grandmother think?
Of course
Mrs. Herriton had an opinion, which she
sedately
expounded, in spite of Harriet, who said that
colours
were unnecessary for children, and of Philip, who
said that
they were ugly. She was getting proud of
Irma,
who had
certainly greatly improved, and could no longer be
called that
most appalling of things--a vulgar child.
She
was anxious
to form her before her mother returned.
So she
had no
objection to the leisurely movements of the
travellers,
and even suggested that they should overstay
their year
if it suited them.
Lilia's
next letter was also from Monteriano, and Philip
grew quite
enthusiastic.
"They've
stopped there over a week!" he cried.
"Why! I
shouldn't
have done as much myself. They must be
really
keen, for
the hotel's none too comfortable."
"I
cannot understand people," said Harriet.
"What can
they be
doing all day? And there is no church
there, I suppose."
"There
is Santa Deodata, one of the most beautiful
churches in
"Of
course I mean an English church," said Harriet
stiffly. "Lilia promised me that she would always
be in a
large town
on Sundays."
"If
she goes to a service at Santa Deodata's, she will
find more
beauty and sincerity than there is in all the Back
Kitchens of
The Back
Kitchen was his nickname for St. James's, a
small
depressing edifice much patronized by his sister. She
always
resented any slight on it, and Mrs. Herriton had to
intervene.
"Now,
dears, don't. Listen to Lilia's
letter. 'We love
this place,
and I do not know how I shall ever thank Philip
for telling
me it. It is not only so quaint, but one
sees
the
Italians unspoiled in all their simplicity and charm
here. The frescoes are wonderful. Caroline, who grows
sweeter
every day, is very busy sketching.' "
"Every
one to his taste!" said Harriet, who always
delivered a
platitude as if it was an epigram. She
was
curiously
virulent about
her only
experience of the Continent being an occasional six
weeks in
the Protestant parts of
"Oh,
Harriet is a bad lot!" said Philip as soon as she
left the
room. His mother laughed, and told him
not to be
naughty;
and the appearance of Irma, just off to school,
prevented
further discussion. Not only in Tracts
is a child
a
peacemaker.
"One
moment, Irma," said her uncle.
"I'm going to the
station. I'll give you the pleasure of my
company."
They
started together. Irma was gratified;
but
conversation
flagged, for Philip had not the art of talking
to the
young. Mrs. Herriton
sat a little longer at the
breakfast
table, re-reading Lilia's letter. Then
she helped
the cook to
clear, ordered dinner, and started the housemaid
turning out
the drawing-room, Tuesday being its day.
The
weather was
lovely, and she thought she would do a little
gardening,
as it was quite early. She called
Harriet, who
had
recovered from the insult to St.
James's, and together
they went
to the kitchen garden and began to sow some early
vegetables.
"We
will save the peas to the last; they are the
greatest
fun," said Mrs. Herriton, who had the gift of
making work
a treat. She and her elderly daughter
always
got on very
well, though they had not a great deal in
common. Harriet's education had been almost too
successful. As Philip once said, she had "bolted all
the
cardinal
virtues and couldn't digest them."
Though pious
and
patriotic, and a great moral asset for the house, she
lacked that
pliancy and tact which her mother so much
valued, and
had expected her to pick up for herself.
Harriet, if
she had been allowed, would have driven Lilia to
an open
rupture, and, what was worse, she would have done
the same to
Philip two years before, when he returned full
of passion
for
"It's
a shame, Mother!" she had cried.
"Philip laughs
at
everything--the Book Club, the Debating Society, the
Progressive
Whist, the bazaars. People won't like
it. We
have our
reputation. A house divided against
itself cannot stand."
Mrs. Herriton replied in the memorable words, "Let
Philip say
what he likes, and he will let us do what we
like." And Harriet had acquiesced.
They sowed
the duller vegetables first, and a pleasant
feeling of
righteous fatigue stole over them as they
addressed
themselves to the peas. Harriet
stretched a
string to
guide the row straight, and Mrs. Herriton
scratched a
furrow with a pointed stick. At the end
of it
she looked
at her watch.
"It's
twelve! The second post's in. Run and see if
there are
any letters."
Harriet did
not want to go. "Let's finish the
peas.
There won't
be any letters."
"No,
dear; please go. I'll sow the peas, but
you shall
cover them
up--and mind the birds don't see 'em!"
Mrs. Herriton was very careful to let those peas trickle
evenly from
her hand, and at the end of the row she was
conscious
that she had never sown better. They
were
expensive
too.
"Actually
old Mrs. Theobald!" said Harriet, returning.
"Read
me the letter. My hands are dirty. How
intolerable
the crested paper is."
Harriet
opened the envelope.
"I
don't understand," she said; "it doesn't make sense."
"Her
letters never did."
"But
it must be sillier than usual," said Harriet, and
her voice
began to quaver. "Look here, read
it, Mother; I
can't make
head or tail."
Mrs. Herriton took the letter indulgently. "What is the
difficulty?"
she said after a long pause. "What
is it that
puzzles you
in this letter?"
"The
meaning--" faltered Harriet. The
sparrows hopped
nearer and
began to eye the peas.
"The
meaning is quite clear--Lilia is engaged to be
married. Don't cry, dear; please me by not
crying--don't
talk at
all. It's more than I could bear. She is going to
marry some
one she has met in a hotel. Take the
letter and
read for
yourself." Suddenly she broke down
over what might
seem a
small point. "How dare she not tell
me direct! How
dare she
write first to
through Mrs.
Theobald--a patronizing, insolent letter like
this? Have I no claim at all? Bear witness, dear"--she
choked with
passion--"bear witness that for this I'll never
forgive
her!"
"Oh,
what is to be done?" moaned Harriet.
"What is to
be
done?"
"This
first!" She tore the letter into
little pieces
and
scattered it over the mould. "Next,
a telegram for
Lilia! No! a
telegram for Miss Caroline Abbott. She,
too,
has
something to explain."
"Oh,
what is to be done?" repeated Harriet, as she
followed
her mother to the house. She was
helpless before
such
effrontery. What awful thing--what awful
person had
come to
Lilia? "Some one in the
hotel." The letter only
said
that. What kind of person? A gentleman?
An
Englishman? The letter did not say.
"Wire
reason of stay at Monteriano. Strange rumours,"
read Mrs. Herriton, and addressed the telegram to Abbott,
Stella d'Italia,
there,"
she added, "we might get an answer this evening.
Since
Philip is back at seven, and the eight-fifteen catches
the
midnight boat at
get
"Go,
dear, at once; do not talk. I see Irma
coming back;
go
quickly.... Well, Irma dear, and whose team are you in
this afternoon--Miss
Edith's or Miss May's?"
But as soon
as she had behaved as usual to her
grand-daughter,
she went to the library and took out the
large
atlas, for she wanted to know about Monteriano. The
name was in
the smallest print, in the midst of a
woolly-brown
tangle of hills which were called the
"Sub-Apennines." It was not so very far from
she had
learnt at school. Past it there wandered
a thin
black line,
notched at intervals like a saw, and she knew
that this
was a railway. But the map left a good
deal to
imagination,
and she had not got any. She looked up
the
place in
"Childe Harold," but Byron had not been there. Nor
did Mark
Twain visit it in the "Tramp Abroad."
The
resources
of literature were exhausted: she must wait till
Philip came
home. And the thought of Philip made her
try
Philip's
room, and there she found "
Baedeker,
and opened it for the first time in her life and
read in it
as follows:--
MONTERIANO
(pop. 4800). Hotels: Stella d'Italia,
moderate only;
Globo, dirty. * Caffe
Garibaldi. Post and
Telegraph
office in Corso Vittorio Emmanuele, next to
theatre. Photographs at Seghena's
(cheaper in
Chief
attractions (2-3 hours): Santa Deodata, Palazzo
Pubblico, Sant' Agostino, Santa Caterina, Sant' Ambrogio,
Palazzo Capocchi. Guide (2
lire) unnecessary. A walk
round the
Walls should on no account be omitted.
The
view from
the Rocca (small gratuity) is finest at sunset.
History: Monteriano, the
whose Ghibelline tendencies are noted by Dante (Purg.
xx.),
definitely emancipated itself from Poggibonsi in
1261. Hence the distich, "POGGIBONIZZI, FAUI
IN LA, CHE
MONTERIANO
SI FA CITTA!" till recently enscribed over
the
it was
sacked by the Papal troops and became part of the
Grand Duchy
of
and seat of
the district prison. The inhabitants are
still noted
for their agreeable manners.
- - - - -
The
traveller will proceed direct from the
the
Collegiate Church of Santa Deodata, and inspect (5th
chapel on
right) the charming * Frescoes....
Mrs. Herriton did not proceed.
She was not one to
detect the
hidden charms of Baedeker. Some of the
information
seemed to her unnecessary, all of it was dull.
Whereas
Philip could never read "The view from the Rocca
(small
gratuity) is finest at sunset" without a catching at
the
heart. Restoring the book to its place,
she went
downstairs,
and looked up and down the asphalt paths for her
daughter. She saw her at last, two turnings away,
vainly
trying to
shake off Mr. Abbott, Miss Caroline Abbott's
father. Harriet was always unfortunate. At last she
returned,
hot, agitated, crackling with bank-notes, and Irma
bounced to
greet her, and trod heavily on her corn.
"Your
feet grow larger every day," said the agonized
Harriet,
and gave her niece a violent push. Then
Irma
cried, and
Mrs. Herriton was annoyed with Harriet for
betraying
irritation. Lunch was nasty; and during
pudding
news
arrived that the cook, by sheer dexterity, had broken a
very vital
knob off the kitchen-range. "It is
too bad,"
said Mrs. Herriton. Irma said
it was three bad, and was
told not to
be rude. After lunch Harriet would get
out
Baedeker,
and read in injured tones about Monteriano, the
Mons Rianus of Antiquity, till her mother stopped her.
"It's
ridiculous to read, dear. She's not
trying to
marry any
one in the place. Some tourist, obviously,
who's
stopping in
the hotel. The place has nothing to do
with it
at
all."
"But
what a place to go to! What nice person,
too, do
you meet in
a hotel?"
"Nice
or nasty, as I have told you several times before,
is not the
point. Lilia has insulted our family,
and she
shall
suffer for it. And when you speak
against hotels, I
think you
forget that I met your father at Chamounix. You
can
contribute nothing, dear, at present, and I think you
had better
hold your tongue. I am going to the
kitchen, to
speak about
the range."
She spoke
just too much, and the cook said that if she
could not
give satisfaction--she had better leave.
A small
thing at
hand is greater than a great thing remote, and
Lilia, misconducting herself upon a mountain in Central
registry
office, failed; flew to another, failed again; came
home, was
told by the housemaid that things seemed so
unsettled
that she had better leave as well; had tea, wrote
six
letters, was interrupted by cook and housemaid, both
weeping,
asking her pardon, and imploring to be taken back.
In the
flush of victory the door-bell rang, and there was
the
telegram: "Lilia engaged to Italian nobility. Writing.
Abbott."
"No
answer," said Mrs. Herriton. "Get down Mr. Philip's
She would
not allow herself to be frightened by the
unknown. Indeed she knew a little now. The man was not an
Italian
noble, otherwise the telegram would have said so.
It must
have been written by Lilia. None but she
would have
been guilty
of the fatuous vulgarity of "Italian nobility."
She
recalled phrases of this morning's letter: "We love this
place--Caroline
is sweeter than ever, and busy
sketching--Italians
full of simplicity and charm." And
the
remark of
Baedeker, "The inhabitants are still noted for
their
agreeable manners," had a baleful meaning now. If
Mrs. Herriton had no imagination, she had intuition, a more
useful
quality, and the picture she made to herself of
Lilia's
FIANCE did not prove altogether wrong.
So Philip
was received with the news that he must start
in half an
hour for Monteriano.
He was in a painful
position. For three years he had sung the praises of
the
Italians,
but he had never contemplated having one as a
relative. He tried to soften the thing down to his
mother,
but in his
heart of hearts he agreed with her when she said,
"The
man may be a duke or he may be an organ-grinder. That
is not the
point. If Lilia marries him she insults
the
memory of
Charles, she insults Irma, she insults us.
Therefore I
forbid her, and if she disobeys we have done
with her
for ever."
"I
will do all I can," said Philip in a low voice. It
was the
first time he had had anything to do. He
kissed his
mother and
sister and puzzled Irma. The hall was
warm and
attractive
as he looked back into it from the cold March
night, and
he departed for
something
commonplace and dull.
Before Mrs.
Herriton went to bed she wrote to Mrs.
Theobald,
using plain language about Lilia's conduct, and
hinting
that it was a question on which every one must
definitely
choose sides. She added, as if it was an
afterthought,
that Mrs. Theobald's letter had arrived that
morning.
Just as she
was going upstairs she remembered that she
never
covered up those peas. It upset her more
than
anything,
and again and again she struck the banisters with
vexation. Late as it was, she got a lantern from the
tool-shed
and went down the garden to rake the earth over
them. The sparrows had taken every one. But countless
fragments
of the letter remained, disfiguring the tidy
ground.
Chapter 2
When the
bewildered tourist alights at the station of
Monteriano,
he finds himself in the middle of the country.
There are a
few houses round the railway, and many more
dotted over
the plain and the slopes of the hills, but of a
town,
mediaeval or otherwise, not the slightest sign.
He
must take
what is suitably termed a "legno"--a piece
of
wood--and
drive up eight miles of excellent road into the
middle
ages. For it is impossible, as well as
sacrilegious,
to be as
quick as Baedeker.
It was
three in the afternoon when Philip left the
realms of
commonsense. He was so weary with
travelling that
he had
fallen asleep in the train. His
fellow-passengers
had the
usual Italian gift of divination, and when
Monteriano
came they knew he wanted to go there, and dropped
him
out. His feet sank into the hot asphalt
of the
platform,
and in a dream he watched the train depart, while
the porter
who ought to have been carrying his bag, ran up
the line
playing touch-you-last with the guard.
Alas! he
was in no
humour for
him
unutterably. The man asked six lire; and
though Philip
knew that
for eight miles it should scarcely be more than
four, yet
he was about to give what he was asked, and so
make the
man discontented and unhappy for the rest of the
day. He was saved from this social blunder by loud
shouts,
and looking
up the road saw one cracking his whip and waving
his reins
and driving two horses furiously, and behind him
there
appeared the swaying figure of a woman, holding
star-fish
fashion on to anything she could touch.
It was
Miss
Abbott, who had just received his letter from
announcing
the time of his arrival, and had hurried down to
meet him.
He had
known Miss Abbott for years, and had never had
much
opinion about her one way or the other.
She was good,
quiet,
dull, and amiable, and young only because she was
twenty-three:
there was nothing in her appearance or manner
to suggest
the fire of youth. All her life had been
spent
at Sawston with a dull and amiable father, and her pleasant,
pallid
face, bent on some respectable charity, was a
familiar
object of the Sawston streets. Why she had ever
wished to
leave them was surprising; but as she truly said,
"I am
John Bull to the backbone, yet I do want to see
just
once. Everybody says it is marvellous,
and that one
gets no
idea of it from books at all." The
curate suggested
that a year
was a long time; and Miss Abbott, with decorous
playfulness,
answered him, "Oh, but you must let me have my
fling! I promise to have it once, and once
only. It will
give me
things to think about and talk about for the rest of
my
life." The curate had consented; so
had Mr. Abbott. And
here she was
in a legno, solitary, dusty, frightened, with
as much to
answer and to answer for as the most dashing
adventuress
could desire.
They shook
hands without speaking. She made room
for
Philip and
his luggage amidst the loud indignation of the
unsuccessful
driver, whom it required the combined eloquence
of the
station-master and the station beggar to confute.
The silence
was prolonged until they started. For
three
days he had
been considering what he should do, and still
more what
he should say. He had invented a dozen
imaginary
conversations,
in all of which his logic and eloquence
procured
him certain victory. But how to
begin? He was in
the enemy's
country, and everything--the hot sun, the cold
air behind
the heat, the endless rows of olive-trees,
regular yet
mysterious--seemed hostile to the placid
atmosphere
of Sawston in which his thoughts took birth. At
the outset
he made one great concession. If the
match was
really
suitable, and Lilia were bent on it, he would give
in, and
trust to his influence with his mother to set things
right. He would not have made the concession in
England;
but here in
Italy, Lilia, however wilful and silly, was at
all events
growing to be a human being.
"Are
we to talk it over now?" he asked.
"Certainly,
please," said Miss Abbott, in great
agitation. "If you will be so very kind."
"Then
how long has she been engaged?"
Her face
was that of a perfect fool--a fool in terror.
"A
short time--quite a short time," she stammered, as if
the
shortness of the time would reassure him.
"I
should like to know how long, if you can remember."
She entered
into elaborate calculations on her fingers.
"Exactly
eleven days," she said at last.
"How
long have you been here?"
More
calculations, while he tapped irritably with his
foot. "Close on three weeks."
"Did
you know him before you came?"
"No."
"Oh! Who is he?"
"A
native of the place."
The second
silence took place. They had left the
plain
now and
were climbing up the outposts of the hills, the
olive-trees
still accompanying. The driver, a jolly
fat
man, had
got out to ease the horses, and was walking by the
side of the
carriage.
"I
understood they met at the hotel."
"It
was a mistake of Mrs. Theobald's."
"I
also understand that he is a member of the Italian nobility."
She did not
reply.
"May I
be told his name?"
Miss Abbott
whispered, "Carella." But the driver heard
her, and a
grin split over his face. The engagement
must be
known
already.
"Carella? Conte or Marchese, or what?"
"Signor,"
said Miss Abbott, and looked helplessly aside.
"Perhaps
I bore you with these questions. If so,
I will
stop."
"Oh,
no, please; not at all. I am here--my
own idea--to
give all
information which you very naturally--and to see if
somehow--please
ask anything you like."
"Then
how old is he?"
"Oh,
quite young. Twenty-one, I
believe."
There burst
from Philip the exclamation, "Good Lord!"
"One
would never believe it," said Miss Abbott,
flushing. "He looks much older."
"And
is he good-looking?" he asked, with gathering sarcasm.
She became
decisive. "Very good-looking. All his
features
are good, and he is well built--though I dare say
English
standards would find him too short."
Philip,
whose one physical advantage was his height,
felt
annoyed at her implied indifference to it.
"May I
conclude that you like him?"
She replied
decisively again, "As far as I have seen
him, I
do."
At that
moment the carriage entered a little wood, which
lay brown
and sombre across the cultivated hill.
The trees
of the wood
were small and leafless, but noticeable for
this--that
their stems stood in violets as rocks stand in the
summer
sea. There are such violets in England,
but not so
many. Nor are there so many in Art, for no painter
has the
courage. The cart-ruts were channels, the hollow lagoons;
even the
dry white margin of the road was splashed, like a
causeway
soon to be submerged under the advancing tide of
spring. Philip paid no attention at the time: he was
thinking
what to say next. But his eyes had
registered the
beauty, and
next March he did not forget that the road to
Monteriano
must traverse innumerable flowers.
"As
far as I have seen him, I do like him," repeated
Miss
Abbott, after a pause.
He thought
she sounded a little defiant, and crushed her
at once.
"What
is he, please? You haven't told me
that. What's
his
position?"
She opened
her mouth to speak, and no sound came from
it. Philip waited patiently. She tried to be audacious,
and failed
pitiably.
"No
position at all. He is kicking his
heels, as my
father
would say. You see, he has only just
finished his
military
service."
"As a
private?"
"I
suppose so. There is general
conscription. He was
in the Bersaglieri, I think.
Isn't that the crack regiment?"
"The
men in it must be short and broad. They
must also
be able to
walk six miles an hour."
She looked
at him wildly, not understanding all that he
said, but
feeling that he was very clever. Then
she
continued
her defence of Signor Carella.
"And
now, like most young men, he is looking out for
something
to do."
"Meanwhile?"
"Meanwhile,
like most young men, he lives with his
people--father,
mother, two sisters, and a tiny tot of a brother."
There was a
grating sprightliness about her that drove
him nearly
mad. He determined to silence her at
last.
"One
more question, and only one more. What
is his father?"
"His
father," said Miss Abbott.
"Well, I don't suppose
you'll
think it a good match. But that's not
the point. I
mean the
point is not--I mean that social differences--love,
after
all--not but what--I--"
Philip
ground his teeth together and said nothing.
"Gentlemen
sometimes judge hardly. But I feel that
you,
and at all
events your mother--so really good in every sense,
so really
unworldly--after all, love-marriages are made in heaven."
"Yes,
Miss Abbott, I know. But I am anxious to
hear
heaven's
choice. You arouse my curiosity. Is my
sister-in-law
to marry an angel?"
"Mr. Herriton, don't--please, Mr. Herriton--a
dentist.
His
father's a dentist."
Philip gave
a cry of personal disgust and pain. He
shuddered
all over, and edged away from his companion.
A
dentist! A dentist at Monteriano. A dentist in fairyland!
False teeth
and laughing gas and the tilting chair at a
place which
knew the Etruscan League, and the Pax Romana,
and Alaric
himself, and the Countess Matilda, and the Middle
Ages, all
fighting and holiness, and the Renaissance, all
fighting
and beauty! He thought of Lilia no
longer. He was
anxious for
himself: he feared that Romance might die.
Romance
only dies with life. No pair of pincers
will
ever pull
it out of us. But there is a spurious
sentiment
which
cannot resist the unexpected and the incongruous and
the
grotesque. A touch will loosen it, and
the sooner it
goes from
us the better. It was going from Philip
now, and
therefore
he gave the cry of pain.
"I
cannot think what is in the air," he began. "If
Lilia was
determined to disgrace us, she might have found a
less
repulsive way. A boy of medium height
with a pretty
face, the
son of a dentist at Monteriano. Have I put it
correctly? May I surmise that he has not got one penny?
May I also
surmise that his social position is nil?
Furthermore--"
"Stop! I'll tell you no more."
"Really,
Miss Abbott, it is a little late for
reticence. You have equipped me admirably!"
"I'll
tell you not another word!" she cried, with a
spasm of
terror. Then she got out her
handkerchief, and
seemed as
if she would shed tears. After a
silence, which
he intended
to symbolize to her the dropping of a curtain on
the scene,
he began to talk of other subjects.
They were
among olives again, and the wood with its
beauty and
wildness had passed away. But as they
climbed
higher the
country opened out, and there appeared, high on a
hill to the
right, Monteriano.
The hazy green of the olives
rose up to
its walls, and it seemed to float in isolation
between
trees and sky, like some fantastic ship city of a
dream. Its colour was brown, and it revealed not a
single
house--nothing
but the narrow circle of the walls, and behind
them
seventeen towers--all that was left of the fifty-two
that had
filled the city in her prime. Some were
only
stumps,
some were inclining stiffly to their fall, some were
still
erect, piercing like masts into the blue.
It was
impossible
to praise it as beautiful, but it was also
impossible
to damn it as quaint.
Meanwhile
Philip talked continually, thinking this to be
great
evidence of resource and tact. It showed
Miss Abbott
that he had
probed her to the bottom, but was able to
conquer his
disgust, and by sheer force of intellect
continue to
be as agreeable and amusing as ever. He
did not
know that
he talked a good deal of nonsense, and that the
sheer force
of his intellect was weakened by the sight of
Monteriano,
and by the thought of dentistry within those walls.
The town above
them swung to the left, to the right, to
the left
again, as the road wound upward through the trees,
and the
towers began to glow in the descending sun.
As they
drew near,
Philip saw the heads of people gathering black
upon the
walls, and he knew well what was happening--how the
news was
spreading that a stranger was in sight, and the
beggars
were aroused from their content and bid to adjust
their
deformities; how the alabaster man was running for his
wares, and
the Authorized Guide running for his peaked cap
and his two
cards of recommendation--one from Miss M'Gee,
Maida Vale,
the other, less valuable, from an Equerry to the
Queen of
Peru; how some one else was running to tell the
landlady of
the Stella d'Italia to put on her pearl necklace
and brown boots
and empty the slops from the spare bedroom;
and how the
landlady was running to tell Lilia and her boy
that their
fate was at hand.
Perhaps it
was a pity Philip had talked so profusely.
He had
driven Miss Abbott half demented, but he had given
himself no
time to concert a plan. The end came so
suddenly. They emerged from the trees on to the terrace
before the
walk, with the vision of half Tuscany radiant in
the sun
behind them, and then they turned in through the
Siena gate,
and their journey was over. The Dogana men
admitted
them with an air of gracious welcome, and they
clattered
up the narrow dark street, greeted by that mixture
of
curiosity and kindness which makes each Italian arrival
so
wonderful.
He was
stunned and knew not what to do. At the
hotel he
received no
ordinary reception. The landlady wrung
him by
the hand;
one person snatched his umbrella, another his bag;
people
pushed each other out of his way. The
entrance
seemed
blocked with a crowd. Dogs were barking,
bladder
whistles being
blown, women waving their handkerchiefs,
excited
children screaming on the stairs, and at the top of
the stairs
was Lilia herself, very radiant, with her best
blouse on.
"Welcome!"
she cried. "Welcome to Monteriano!" He
greeted
her, for he did not know what else to do, and a
sympathetic
murmur rose from the crowd below.
"You
told me to come here," she continued, "and I don't
forget it.
Let me introduce Signor Carella!"
Philip
discerned in the corner behind her a young man who
might
eventually prove handsome and well-made, but certainly
did not
seem so then. He was half enveloped in
the drapery
of a cold
dirty curtain, and nervously stuck out a hand,
which
Philip took and found thick and damp.
There were more
murmurs of
approval from the stairs.
"Well,
din-din's nearly ready," said Lilia.
"Your
room's down
the passage, Philip. You needn't go
changing."
He stumbled
away to wash his hands, utterly crushed by
her
effrontery.
"Dear
Caroline!" whispered Lilia as soon as he had
gone. "What an angel you've been to tell
him! He takes it
so
well. But you must have had a MAUVAIS
QUART D'HEURE."
Miss
Abbott's long terror suddenly turned into acidity.
"I've
told nothing," she snapped.
"It's all for you--and if
it only
takes a quarter of an hour you'll be lucky!"
Dinner was
a nightmare. They had the smelly
dining-room
to
themselves. Lilia, very smart and
vociferous, was at the
head of the
table; Miss Abbott, also in her best, sat by
Philip,
looking, to his irritated nerves, more like the
tragedy confidante
every moment. That scion of the Italian
nobility,
Signor Carella, sat opposite. Behind him loomed a
bowl of
goldfish, who swam round and round, gaping at the guests.
The face of
Signor Carella was twitching too much for
Philip to
study it. But he could see the hands,
which were
not
particularly clean, and did not get cleaner by fidgeting
amongst the
shining slabs of hair. His starched
cuffs were
not clean
either, and as for his suit, it had obviously been
bought for
the occasion as something really English--a
gigantic
check, which did not even fit. His
handkerchief he
had
forgotten, but never missed it.
Altogether, he was
quite unpresentable, and very lucky to have a father who was
a dentist
in Monteriano.
And why, even Lilia--But as soon as
the meal
began it furnished Philip with an explanation.
For the
youth was hungry, and his lady filled his plate
with
spaghetti, and when those delicious slippery worms were
flying down
his throat, his face relaxed and became for a
moment
unconscious and calm. And Philip had
seen that face
before in
Italy a hundred times--seen it and loved it, for it
was not
merely beautiful, but had the charm which is the
rightful
heritage of all who are born on that soil.
But he
did not
want to see it opposite him at dinner.
It was not
the face of
a gentleman.
Conversation,
to give it that name, was carried on in a
mixture of
English and Italian. Lilia had picked up
hardly
any of the
latter language, and Signor Carella had not yet
learnt any
of the former. Occasionally Miss Abbott
had to
act as
interpreter between the lovers, and the situation
became
uncouth and revolting in the extreme.
Yet Philip was
too
cowardly to break forth and denounce the engagement. He
thought he
should be more effective with Lilia if he had her
alone, and
pretended to himself that he must hear her
defence
before giving judgment.
Signor Carella, heartened by the spaghetti and the
throat-rasping
wine, attempted to talk, and, looking
politely
towards Philip, said, "England is a great country.
The
Italians love England and the English."
Philip, in
no mood for international amenities, merely bowed.
"Italy
too," the other continued a little resentfully,
"is a
great country. She has produced many
famous men--for
example
Garibaldi and Dante. The latter wrote
the
'Inferno,'
the 'Purgatorio,' the 'Paradiso.'
The 'Inferno'
is the most
beautiful." And with the complacent
tone of one
who has
received a solid education, he quoted the opening
lines--
Nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita
Mi ritrovai per una selva oscura
Che la diritta via era smarrita--
a quotation
which was more apt than he supposed.
Lilia
glanced at Philip to see whether he noticed that
she was
marrying no ignoramus. Anxious to
exhibit all the
good
qualities of her betrothed, she abruptly introduced the
subject of pallone, in which, it appeared, he was a
proficient
player. He suddenly became shy and
developed a
conceited
grin--the grin of the village yokel whose cricket
score is
mentioned before a stranger. Philip
himself had
loved to
watch pallone, that entrancing combination of
lawn-tennis
and fives. But he did not expect to love
it
quite so
much again.
"Oh,
look!" exclaimed Lilia, "the poor wee fish!"
A starved
cat had been worrying them all for pieces of
the purple
quivering beef they were trying to swallow.
Signor Carella, with the brutality so common in Italians,
had caught
her by the paw and flung her away from him.
Now
she had
climbed up to the bowl and was trying to hook out
the
fish. He got up, drove her off, and
finding a large
glass
stopper by the bowl, entirely plugged up the aperture
with it.
"But
may not the fish die?" said Miss Abbott.
"They
have no
air."
"Fish
live on water, not on air," he replied in a
knowing
voice, and sat down. Apparently he was at
his ease
again, for
he took to spitting on the floor. Philip
glanced
at Lilia
but did not detect her wincing. She
talked bravely
till the
end of the disgusting meal, and then got up saying,
"Well,
Philip, I am sure you are ready for by-bye.
We shall
meet at
twelve o'clock lunch tomorrow, if we don't meet
before. They give us caffe
later in our rooms."
It was a
little too impudent. Philip replied,
"I should
like to see
you now, please, in my room, as I have come all
the way on
business." He heard Miss Abbott
gasp. Signor
Carella,
who was lighting a rank cigar, had not understood.
It was as
he expected. When he was alone with
Lilia he
lost all
nervousness. The remembrance of his long
intellectual
supremacy strengthened him, and he began volubly--
"My
dear Lilia, don't let's have a scene.
Before I
arrived I
thought I might have to question you. It
is
unnecessary. I know everything. Miss Abbott has told me a
certain
amount, and the rest I see for myself."
"See
for yourself?" she exclaimed, and he remembered
afterwards
that she had flushed crimson.
"That
he is probably a ruffian and certainly a cad."
"There
are no cads in Italy," she said quickly.
He was
taken aback. It was one of his own
remarks. And
she further
upset him by adding, "He is the son of a
dentist. Why not?"
"Thank
you for the information. I know
everything, as I
told you
before. I am also aware of the social
position of
an Italian
who pulls teeth in a minute provincial town."
He was not
aware of it, but he ventured to conclude that
it was
pretty, low. Nor did Lilia contradict
him. But she
was sharp
enough to say, "Indeed, Philip, you surprise me.
I
understood you went in for equality and so on."
"And I
understood that Signor Carella was a member of
the Italian
nobility."
"Well,
we put it like that in the telegram so as not to
shock dear
Mrs. Herriton.
But it is true. He is a younger
branch. Of course families ramify--just as in yours
there is
your cousin
Joseph." She adroitly picked out
the only
undesirable
member of the Herriton clan. "Gino's father is
courtesy
itself, and rising rapidly in his profession.
This
very month
he leaves Monteriano, and sets up at Poggibonsi.
And for my
own poor part, I think what people are is what
matters,
but I don't suppose you'll agree. And I
should
like you to
know that Gino's uncle is a priest--the same as a
clergyman
at home."
Philip was
aware of the social position of an Italian
priest, and
said so much about it that Lilia interrupted him
with,
"Well, his cousin's a lawyer at Rome."
"What
kind of 'lawyer'?"
"Why,
a lawyer just like you are--except that he has lots
to do and
can never get away."
The remark
hurt more than he cared to show. He
changed
his method,
and in a gentle, conciliating tone delivered the
following
speech:--
"The
whole thing is like a bad dream--so bad that it
cannot go
on. If there was one redeeming feature
about the
man I might
be uneasy. As it is I can trust to
time. For
the moment,
Lilia, he has taken you in, but you will find
him out
soon. It is not possible that you, a
lady,
accustomed
to ladies and gentlemen, will tolerate a man
whose
position is--well, not equal to the son of the
servants'
dentist in Coronation Place. I am not
blaming you
now. But I blame the glamour of Italy--I have felt
it
myself, you
know--and I greatly blame Miss Abbott."
"Caroline! Why blame her? What's all this to do with Caroline?"
"Because
we expected her to--" He saw that
the answer
would
involve him in difficulties, and, waving his hand,
continued,
"So I am confident, and you in your heart agree,
that this
engagement will not last. Think of your
life at
home--think
of Irma! And I'll also say think of us;
for you
know,
Lilia, that we count you more than a relation.
I
should feel
I was losing my own sister if you did this, and
my mother
would lose a daughter."
She seemed
touched at last, for she turned away her face
and said,
"I can't break it off now!"
"Poor
Lilia," said he, genuinely moved.
"I know it may
be
painful. But I have come to rescue you,
and, book-worm
though I
may be, I am not frightened to stand up to a
bully. He's merely an insolent boy. He thinks he can keep
you to your
word by threats. He will be different
when he
sees he has
a man to deal with."
What
follows should be prefaced with some simile--the
simile of a
powder-mine, a thunderbolt, an earthquake--for it
blew Philip
up in the air and flattened him on the ground
and
swallowed him up in the depths. Lilia
turned on her
gallant
defender and said--
"For
once in my life I'll thank you to leave me alone.
I'll thank
your mother too. For twelve years you've
trained
me and
tortured me, and I'll stand it no more.
Do you think
I'm a
fool? Do you think I never felt? Ah!
when I came to
your house
a poor young bride, how you all looked me
over--never
a kind word--and discussed me, and thought I might
just do;
and your mother corrected me, and your sister
snubbed me,
and you said funny things about me to show how
clever you
were! And when Charles died I was still
to run
in strings
for the honour of your beastly family, and I was
to be
cooped up at Sawston and learn to keep house, and all
my chances
spoilt of marrying again. No, thank
you! No,
thank
you! 'Bully?' 'Insolent boy?' Who's
that, pray, but
you? But, thank goodness, I can stand up against
the world
now, for
I've found Gino, and this time I marry for love!"
The
coarseness and truth of her attack alike overwhelmed
him. But her supreme insolence found him words,
and he too
burst
forth.
"Yes! and I forbid you to do it! You despise me,
perhaps,
and think I'm feeble. But you're
mistaken. You
are
ungrateful and impertinent and contemptible, but I will
save you in
order to save Irma and our name. There
is going
to be such
a row in this town that you and he'll be sorry
you came to
it. I shall shrink from nothing, for my
blood
is up. It
is unwise of you to laugh. I forbid you
to marry
Carella,
and I shall tell him so now."
"Do,"
she cried. "Tell him so now. Have it out with
him. Gino!
Gino! Come in! Avanti!
Fra Filippo forbids
the
banns!"
Gino
appeared so quickly that he must have been
listening
outside the door.
"Fra Filippo's blood's up. He shrinks from nothing.
Oh, take
care he doesn't hurt you!" She
swayed about in
vulgar
imitation of Philip's walk, and then, with a proud
glance at
the square shoulders of her betrothed, flounced
out of the
room.
Did she
intend them to fight? Philip had no
intention
of doing
so; and no more, it seemed, had Gino, who stood
nervously
in the middle of the room with twitching lips and eyes.
"Please
sit down, Signor Carella," said Philip in
Italian. "Mrs. Herriton
is rather agitated, but there is no
reason we
should not be calm. Might I offer you a
cigarette? Please sit down."
He refused
the cigarette and the chair, and remained
standing in
the full glare of the lamp. Philip, not
averse
to such
assistance, got his own face into shadow.
For a long
time he was silent. It might impress
Gino,
and it also
gave him time to collect himself. He
would not
this time
fall into the error of blustering, which he had
caught so
unaccountably from Lilia. He would make
his power
felt by
restraint.
Why, when
he looked up to begin, was Gino convulsed with
silent
laughter? It vanished immediately; but
he became
nervous,
and was even more pompous than he intended.
"Signor
Carella, I will be frank with you. I have come
to prevent
you marrying Mrs. Herriton, because I see you
will both
be unhappy together. She is English, you
are
Italian;
she is accustomed to one thing, you to another.
And--pardon
me if I say it--she is rich and you are poor."
"I am
not marrying her because she is rich," was the
sulky
reply.
"I
never suggested that for a moment," said Philip
courteously. "You are honourable, I am sure; but are
you
wise? And let me remind you that we want her with
us at
home. Her little daughter will be motherless, our
home will
be broken
up. If you grant my request you will
earn our
thanks--and
you will not be without a reward for your
disappointment."
"Reward--what
reward?" He bent over the back of a
chair
and looked
earnestly at Philip. They were coming to
terms
pretty
quickly. Poor Lilia!
Philip said
slowly, "What about a thousand lire?"
His soul
went forth into one exclamation, and then he
was silent,
with gaping lips. Philip would have
given
double: he
had expected a bargain.
"You
can have them tonight."
He found
words, and said, "It is too late."
"But
why?"
"Because--" His voice broke. Philip watched his face,--a
face
without refinement perhaps, but not without
expression,--watched
it quiver and re-form and dissolve from
emotion
into emotion. There was avarice at one
moment, and
insolence,
and politeness, and stupidity, and cunning--and
let us hope
that sometimes there was love. But
gradually
one emotion
dominated, the most unexpected of all; for his
chest began
to heave and his eyes to wink and his mouth to
twitch, and
suddenly he stood erect and roared forth his
whole being
in one tremendous laugh.
Philip
sprang up, and Gino, who had flung wide his arms
to let the
glorious creature go, took him by the shoulders
and shook
him, and said, "Because we are
married--married--married
as soon as I knew you were, coming.
There was
no time to tell you. Oh. oh! You have come all
the way for
nothing. Oh! And oh, your generosity!"
Suddenly he
became grave, and said, "Please pardon me; I am
rude. I am no better than a peasant, and
I--" Here he saw
Philip's
face, and it was too much for him. He
gasped and
exploded
and crammed his hands into his mouth and spat them
out in
another explosion, and gave Philip an aimless push,
which
toppled him on to the bed. He uttered a
horrified
Oh! and then gave up, and bolted away down the
passage,
shrieking
like a child, to tell the joke to his wife.
For a time
Philip lay on the bed, pretending to himself
that he was
hurt grievously. He could scarcely see
for
temper, and
in the passage he ran against Miss Abbott, who
promptly
burst into tears.
"I
sleep at the Globo," he told her, "and
start for
Sawston
tomorrow morning early. He has assaulted
me. I
could
prosecute him. But shall not."
"I
can't stop here," she sobbed.
"I daren't stop here.
You will
have to take me with you!"
Chapter 3
Opposite
the Volterra gate of Monteriano,
outside the city,
is a very
respectable white-washed mud wall, with a coping
of red
crinkled tiles to keep it from dissolution.
It would
suggest a
gentleman's garden if there was not in its middle
a large
hole, which grows larger with every rain-storm.
Through the
hole is visible, firstly, the iron gate that is
intended to
close it; secondly, a square piece of ground
which,
though not quite, mud, is at the same time not
exactly
grass; and finally, another wall, stone this time,
which has a
wooden door in the middle and two
wooden-shuttered
windows each side, and apparently forms the
facade of a
one-storey house.
This house
is bigger than it looks, for it slides for
two storeys
down the hill behind, and the wooden door, which
is always
locked, really leads into the attic. The
knowing
person
prefers to follow the precipitous mule-track round
the turn of
the mud wall till he can take the edifice in the
rear. Then--being now on a level with the
cellars--he lifts
up his head
and shouts. If his voice sounds like
something
light--a
letter, for example, or some vegetables, or a bunch
of
flowers--a basket is let out of the first-floor windows by
a string,
into which he puts his burdens and departs.
But
if he
sounds like something heavy, such as a log of wood, or
a piece of
meat, or a visitor, he is interrogated, and then
bidden or
forbidden to ascend. The ground floor
and the
upper floor
of that battered house are alike deserted, and
the inmates
keep the central portion, just as in a dying
body all
life retires to the heart. There is a
door at the
top of the
first flight of stairs, and if the visitor is
admitted he
will find a welcome which is not necessarily
cold. There are several rooms, some dark and mostly
stuffy--a
reception-room adorned with horsehair chairs,
wool-work
stools, and a stove that is never lit--German bad
taste
without German domesticity broods over that room; also
a
living-room, which insensibly glides into a bedroom when
the
refining influence of hospitality is absent, and real
bedrooms;
and last, but not least, the loggia, where you can
live day
and night if you feel inclined, drinking vermouth
and smoking
cigarettes, with leagues of olive-trees and
vineyards
and blue-green hills to watch you.
It was in
this house that the brief and inevitable
tragedy of
Lilia's married life took place. She
made Gino
buy it for
her, because it was there she had first seen him
sitting on
the mud wall that faced the Volterra gate. She
remembered
how the evening sun had struck his hair, and how
he had
smiled down at her, and being both sentimental and
unrefined,
was determined to have the man and the place
together. Things in Italy are cheap for an Italian,
and,
though he
would have preferred a house in the piazza, or
better
still a house at Siena, or, bliss above bliss, a
house at
Leghorn, he did as she asked, thinking that perhaps
she showed
her good taste in preferring so retired an abode.
The house
was far too big for them, and there was a
general
concourse of his relatives to fill it up.
His
father
wished to make it a patriarchal concern, where all
the family
should have their rooms and meet together for
meals, and
was perfectly willing to give up the new practice
at Poggibonsi and preside.
Gino was quite willing too, for
he was an
affectionate youth who liked a large home-circle,
and he told
it as a pleasant bit of news to Lilia, who did
not attempt
to conceal her horror.
At once he
was horrified too; saw that the idea was
monstrous;
abused himself to her for having suggested it;
rushed off
to tell his father that it was impossible.
His
father
complained that prosperity was already corrupting him
and making
him unsympathetic and hard; his mother cried; his
sisters
accused him of blocking their social advance.
He
was
apologetic, and even cringing, until they turned on
Lilia. Then he turned on them, saying that they
could not
understand,
much less associate with, the English lady who
was his
wife; that there should be one master in that house--
himself.
Lilia
praised and petted him on his return, calling him
brave and a
hero and other endearing epithets. But
he was
rather blue
when his clan left Monteriano in much dignity--a
dignity
which was not at all impaired by the acceptance of a
cheque. They took the cheque not to Poggibonsi, after all,
but to Empoli--a lively, dusty town some twenty miles off.
There they settled
down in comfort, and the sisters said
they had
been driven to it by Gino.
The cheque
was, of course, Lilia's, who was extremely
generous,
and was quite willing to know anybody so long as
she had not
to live with them, relations-in-law being on her
nerves. She liked nothing better than finding out
some
obscure and
distant connection--there were several of
them--and
acting the lady bountiful, leaving behind her
bewilderment,
and too often discontent. Gino wondered
how
it was that
all his people, who had formerly seemed so
pleasant,
had suddenly become plaintive and disagreeable.
He put it
down to his lady wife's magnificence, in
comparison
with which all seemed common. Her money
flew
apace, in
spite of the cheap living. She was even
richer
than he
expected; and he remembered with shame how he had
once
regretted his inability to accept the thousand lire
that Philip
Herriton offered him in exchange for her. It
would have
been a shortsighted bargain.
Lilia
enjoyed settling into the house, with nothing to
do except
give orders to smiling workpeople, and a devoted
husband as
interpreter. She wrote a jaunty account
of her
happiness
to Mrs. Herriton, and Harriet answered the letter,
saying (1)
that all future communications should be
addressed
to the solicitors; (2) would Lilia return an
inlaid box
which Harriet had lent her--but not given--to keep
handkerchiefs
and collars in?
"Look
what I am giving up to live with you!" she said to
Gino, never
omitting to lay stress on her condescension.
He
took her to
mean the inlaid box, and said that she need not
give it up
at all.
"Silly
fellow, no! I mean the life. Those Herritons
are very
well connected. They lead Sawston society. But
what do I
care, so long as I have my silly fellow!"
She
always
treated him as a boy, which he was, and as a fool,
which he
was not, thinking herself so immeasurably superior
to him that
she neglected opportunity after opportunity of
establishing
her rule. He was good-looking and
indolent;
therefore
he must be stupid. He was poor;
therefore he
would never
dare to criticize his benefactress. He
was
passionately
in love with her; therefore she could do
exactly as
she liked.
"It
mayn't be heaven below," she thought, "but it's
better than
Charles."
And all the
time the boy was watching her, and growing up.
She was
reminded of Charles by a disagreeable letter
from the
solicitors, bidding her disgorge a large sum of
money for
Irma, in accordance with her late husband's will.
It was just
like Charles's suspicious nature to have
provided
against a second marriage. Gino was
equally
indignant,
and between them they composed a stinging reply,
which had
no effect. He then said that Irma had
better come
out and
live with them. "The air is good,
so is the food;
she will be
happy here, and we shall not have to part with
the
money." But Lilia had not the
courage even to suggest
this to the
Herritons, and an unexpected terror seized her
at the
thought of Irma or any English child being educated
at Monteriano.
Gino became
terribly depressed over the solicitors'
letter,
more depressed than she thought necessary.
There
was no more
to do in the house, and he spent whole days in
the loggia
leaning over the parapet or sitting astride it
disconsolately.
"Oh,
you idle boy!" she cried, pinching his muscles.
"Go
and play pallone."
"I am
a married man," he answered, without raising his
head. "I do not play games any more."
"Go
and see your friends then."
"I
have no friends now."
"Silly,
silly, silly! You can't stop indoors all
day!"
"I want
to see no one but you." He spat on
to an olive-tree.
"Now,
Gino, don't be silly. Go and see your
friends,
and bring
them to see me. We both of us like
society."
He looked
puzzled, but allowed himself to be persuaded,
went out,
found that he was not as friendless as he
supposed,
and returned after several hours in altered
spirits. Lilia congratulated herself on her good
management.
"I'm
ready, too, for people now," she said.
"I mean to
wake you
all up, just as I woke up Sawston. Let's have
plenty of
men--and make them bring their womenkind. I mean
to have
real English tea-parties."
"There
is my aunt and her husband; but I thought you did
not want to
receive my relatives."
"I
never said such a--"
"But
you would be right," he said earnestly.
"They are
not for
you. Many of them are in trade, and even
we are
little
more; you should have gentlefolk and nobility for
your
friends."
"Poor
fellow," thought Lilia. "It is
sad for him to
discover
that his people are vulgar." She
began to tell him
that she
loved him just for his silly self, and he flushed
and began
tugging at his moustache.
"But
besides your relatives I must have other people
here. Your friends have wives and sisters, haven't
they?"
"Oh,
yes; but of course I scarcely know them."
"Not
know your friends' people?"
"Why,
no. If they are poor and have to work
for their
living I
may see them--but not otherwise.
Except--" He
stopped. The chief exception was a young lady, to whom
he
had once
been introduced for matrimonial purposes.
But the
dowry had
proved inadequate, and the acquaintance terminated.
"How
funny! But I mean to change all
that. Bring your
friends to
see me, and I will make them bring their people."
He looked
at her rather hopelessly.
"Well,
who are the principal people here? Who
leads society?"
The
governor of the prison, he supposed, and the
officers
who assisted him.
"Well,
are they married?"
"Yes."
"There
we are. Do you know them?"
"Yes--in
a way."
"I
see," she exclaimed angrily.
"They look down on you,
do they,
poor boy? Wait!" He assented.
"Wait! I'll soon
stop
that. Now, who else is there?"
"The marchese, sometimes, and the canons of the
Collegiate
Church."
"Married?"
"The
canons--" he began with twinkling eyes.
"Oh, I
forgot your horrid celibacy. In England
they
would be
the centre of everything. But why
shouldn't I know
them? Would it make it easier if I called all
round? Isn't
that your
foreign way?"
He did not
think it would make it easier.
"But I
must know some one! Who were the men you
were
talking to
this afternoon?"
Low-class
men. He could scarcely recollect their
names.
"But,
Gino dear, if they're low class, why did you talk
to
them? Don't you care about your
position?"
All Gino
cared about at present was idleness and
pocket-money,
and his way of expressing it was to exclaim,
"Ouf-pouf! How hot it
is in here. No air; I sweat all
over. I expire.
I must cool myself, or I shall never get
to
sleep." In his funny abrupt way he
ran out on to the
loggia,
where he lay full length on the parapet, and began
to smoke
and spit under the silence of the stars.
Lilia
gathered somehow from this conversation that
Continental
society was not the go-as-you-please thing she
had
expected. Indeed she could not see where
Continental
society was. Italy is such a delightful place to live in
if
you happen
to be a man. There one may enjoy that
exquisite
luxury of
Socialism--that true Socialism which is based not
on equality
of income or character, but on the equality of
manners. In the democracy of the caffe
or the street the
great
question of our life has been solved, and the
brotherhood
of man is a reality. But is accomplished
at the
expense of
the sisterhood of women. Why should you
not make
friends
with your neighbour at the theatre or in the train,
when you
know and he knows that feminine criticism and
feminine
insight and feminine prejudice will never come
between
you? Though you become as David and
Jonathan, you
need never
enter his home, nor he yours. All your
lives you
will meet
under the open air, the only roof-tree of the
South,
under which he will spit and swear, and you will drop
your h's, and nobody will think the worse of either.
Meanwhile
the women--they have, of course, their house
and their
church, with its admirable and frequent services,
to which
they are escorted by the maid. Otherwise
they do
not go out
much, for it is not genteel to walk, and you are
too poor to
keep a carriage. Occasionally you will
take
them to the
caffe or theatre, and immediately all your
wonted acquaintance
there desert you, except those few who
are
expecting and expected to marry into your family. It is
all very
sad. But one consolation emerges--life
is very
pleasant in
Italy if you are a man.
Hitherto
Gino had not interfered with Lilia. She
was so
much older
than he was, and so much richer, that he regarded
her as a
superior being who answered to other laws.
He was
not wholly
surprised, for strange rumours were always
blowing
over the Alps of lands where men and women had the
same
amusements and interests, and he had often met that
privileged
maniac, the lady tourist, on her solitary walks.
Lilia took
solitary walks too, and only that week a tramp
had grabbed
at her watch--an episode which is supposed to be
indigenous
in Italy, though really less frequent there than
in Bond
Street. Now that he knew her better, he
was
inevitably
losing his awe: no one could live with her and
keep it,
especially when she had been so silly as to lose a
gold watch
and chain. As he lay thoughtful along
the
parapet, he
realized for the first time the responsibilities
of monied life. He must
save her from dangers, physical and
social, for
after all she was a woman. "And
I," he
reflected,
"though I am young, am at all events a man, and
know what
is right."
He found
her still in the living-room, combing her hair,
for she had
something of the slattern in her nature, and
there was
no need to keep up appearances.
"You
must not go out alone," he said gently.
"It is not
safe. If you want to walk, Perfetta
shall accompany you."
Perfetta
was a widowed cousin, too humble for social
aspirations,
who was living with them as factotum.
"Very
well," smiled Lilia, "very well"--as if she were
addressing
a solicitous kitten. But for all that
she never
took a
solitary walk again, with one exception, till the day
of her
death.
Days
passed, and no one called except poor relatives.
She began
to feel dull. Didn't he know the Sindaco or the
bank
manager? Even the landlady of the Stella
d'Italia
would be
better than no one. She, when she went
into the
town, was
pleasantly received; but people naturally found a
difficulty
in getting on with a lady who could not learn
their
language. And the tea-party, under
Gino's adroit
management,
receded ever and ever before her.
He had a
good deal of anxiety over her welfare, for she
did not
settle down in the house at all. But he
was
comforted
by a welcome and unexpected visitor. As
he was
going one
afternoon for the letters--they were delivered at
the door,
but it took longer to get them at the office--some
one
humorously threw a cloak over his head, and when he
disengaged
himself he saw his very dear friend Spiridione
Tesi of
the custom-house at Chiasso, whom he had not met for
two
years. What joy! what salutations! so that all the
passersby
smiled with approval on the amiable scene.
Spiridione's brother was now station-master at Bologna, and
thus he
himself could spend his holiday travelling over
Italy at
the public expense. Hearing of Gino's
marriage, he
had come to
see him on his way to Siena, where lived his own
uncle,
lately monied too.
"They
all do it," he exclaimed, "myself excepted." He
was not
quite twenty-three. "But tell me
more. She is
English. That is good, very good. An English wife is very
good
indeed. And she is rich?"
"Immensely
rich."
"Blonde
or dark?"
"Blonde."
"Is it
possible!"
"It
pleases me very much," said Gino simply.
"If you
remember, I
always desired a blonde." Three or
four men had
collected,
and were listening.
"We
all desire one," said Spiridione. "But you, Gino,
deserve
your good fortune, for you are a good son, a brave
man, and a
true friend, and from the very first moment I saw
you I
wished you well."
"No
compliments, I beg," said Gino, standing with his
hands
crossed on his chest and a smile of pleasure on his face.
Spiridione
addressed the other men, none of whom he had
ever seen
before. "Is it not true? Does not he deserve
this
wealthy blonde?"
"He
does deserve her," said all the men.
It is a
marvellous land, where you love it or hate it.
There were
no letters, and of course they sat down at
the Caffe Garibaldi, by the Collegiate Church--quite a good
caffe
that for so small a city. There were
marble-topped
tables, and
pillars terra-cotta below and gold above, and on
the ceiling
was a fresco of the battle of Solferino. One
could not
have desired a prettier room. They had
vermouth
and little
cakes with sugar on the top, which they chose
gravely at
the counter, pinching them first to be sure they
were
fresh. And though vermouth is barely
alcoholic,
Spiridione
drenched his with soda-water to be sure that it
should not
get into his head.
They were
in high spirits, and elaborate compliments
alternated
curiously with gentle horseplay. But
soon they
put up
their legs on a pair of chairs and began to smoke.
"Tell
me," said Spiridione--"I forgot to ask--is
she young?"
"Thirty-three."
"Ah,
well, we cannot have everything."
"But
you would be surprised. Had she told me
twenty-eight,
I should not have disbelieved her."
"Is
she SIMPATICA?" (Nothing will translate that word.)
Gino dabbed
at the sugar and said after a silence,
"Sufficiently
so."
"It is
a most important thing."
"She
is rich, she is generous, she is affable, she
addresses
her inferiors without haughtiness."
There was
another silence. "It is not
sufficient," said
the
other. "One does not define it
thus." He lowered his
voice to a
whisper. "Last month a German was
smuggling
cigars. The custom-house was dark. Yet I refused because I
did not
like him. The gifts of such men do not
bring
happiness. NON ERA SIMPATICO. He paid for every one, and
the fine
for deception besides."
"Do
you gain much beyond your pay?" asked Gino, diverted
for an
instant.
"I do
not accept small sums now. It is not
worth the
risk. But the German was another matter. But listen, my
Gino, for I
am older than you and more full of experience.
The person
who understands us at first sight, who never
irritates
us, who never bores, to whom we can pour forth
every
thought and wish, not only in speech but in
silence--that
is what I mean by SIMPATICO."
"There
are such men, I know," said Gino.
"And I have
heard it
said of children. But where will you
find such a woman?"
"That
is true. Here you are wiser than I. SONO
POCO
SIMPATICHE
LE DONNE. And the time we waste over
them is
much." He sighed dolefully, as if he found the
nobility of
his sex a
burden.
"One I
have seen who may be so. She spoke very
little,
but she was
a young lady--different to most. She,
too, was
English,
the companion of my wife here. But Fra Filippo,
the
brother-in-law, took her back with him.
I saw them
start. He was very angry."
Then he
spoke of his exciting and secret marriage, and
they made
fun of the unfortunate Philip, who had travelled
over Europe
to stop it.
"I
regret though," said Gino, when they had finished
laughing,
"that I toppled him on to the bed.
A great tall
man! And when I am really amused I am often
impolite."
"You
will never see him again," said Spiridione, who
carried
plenty of philosophy about him. "And
by now the
scene will
have passed from his mind."
"It
sometimes happens that such things are recollected
longest. I shall never see him again, of course; but
it is
no benefit
to me that he should wish me ill. And
even if he
has
forgotten, I am still sorry that I toppled him on to the
bed."
So their
talk continued, at one moment full of
childishness
and tender wisdom, the next moment scandalously
gross. The shadows of the terra-cotta pillars
lengthened,
and
tourists, flying through the Palazzo Pubblico
opposite,
could
observe how the Italians wasted time.
The sight
of tourists reminded Gino of something he
might
say. "I want to consult you since
you are so kind as
to take an
interest in my affairs. My wife wishes
to take
solitary
walks."
Spiridione
was shocked.
"But I
have forbidden her."
"Naturally."
"She
does not yet understand. She asked me to
accompany
her
sometimes--to walk without object! You
know, she would
like me to
be with her all day."
"I
see. I see." He knitted his brows and tried to
think how
he could help his friend. "She
needs employment.
Is she a
Catholic?"
"No."
"That
is a pity. She must be persuaded. It will be a
great
solace to her when she is alone."
"I am
a Catholic, but of course I never go to church."
"Of
course not. Still, you might take her at
first.
That is
what my brother has done with his wife at Bologna
and he has
joined the Free Thinkers. He took her
once or
twice
himself, and now she has acquired the habit and
continues
to go without him."
"Most
excellent advice, and I thank you for it.
But she
wishes to
give tea-parties--men and women together whom she
has never
seen."
"Oh,
the English! they are always thinking of
tea.
They carry
it by the kilogramme in their trunks, and they
are so
clumsy that they always pack it at the top.
But it
is
absurd!"
"What
am I to do about it?"
"Do
nothing. Or ask me!"
"Come!"
cried Gino, springing up. "She will
be quite pleased."
The dashing
young fellow coloured crimson. "Of
course I
was only
joking."
"I
know. But she wants me to take my
friends. Come
now! Waiter!"
"If I
do come," cried the other, "and take tea with you,
this bill
must be my affair."
"Certainly
not; you are in my country!"
A long
argument ensued, in which the waiter took part,
suggesting various
solutions. At last Gino triumphed. The
bill came
to eightpence-halfpenny, and a halfpenny for the
waiter
brought it up to ninepence. Then there was a shower
of
gratitude on one side and of deprecation on the other,
and when
courtesies were at their height they suddenly
linked arms
and swung down the street, tickling each other
with
lemonade straws as they went.
Lilia was
delighted to see them, and became more
animated
than Gino had known her for a long time.
The tea
tasted of
chopped hay, and they asked to be allowed to drink
it out of a
wine-glass, and refused milk; but, as she
repeatedly
observed, this was something like. Spiridione's
manners
were very agreeable. He kissed her hand
on
introduction,
and as his profession had taught him a little
English,
conversation did not flag.
"Do
you like music?" she asked.
"Passionately,"
he replied. "I have not studied
scientific
music, but the music of the heart, yes."
So she
played on the humming piano very badly, and he
sang, not
so badly. Gino got out a guitar and sang
too,
sitting out
on the loggia. It was a most agreeable
visit.
Gino said
he would just walk his friend back to his
lodgings. As they went he said, without the least trace
of
malice or
satire in his voice, "I think you are quite
right. I shall not bring people to the house any
more. I
do not see
why an English wife should be treated
differently. This is Italy."
"You
are very wise," exclaimed the other; "very wise
indeed. The more precious a possession the more
carefully
it should
be guarded."
They had
reached the lodging, but went on as far as the
Caffe
Garibaldi, where they spent a long and most delightful
evening.
Chapter 4
The advance
of regret can be so gradual that it is
impossible
to say "yesterday I was happy, today I am not."
At no one
moment did Lilia realize that her marriage was a
failure;
yet during the summer and autumn she became as
unhappy as
it was possible for her nature to be.
She had no
unkind
treatment, and few unkind words, from her husband.
He simply
left her alone. In the morning he went
out to do
"business,"
which, as far as she could discover, meant
sitting in
the Farmacia.
He usually returned to lunch,
after which
he retired to another room and slept. In
the
evening he
grew vigorous again, and took the air on the
ramparts,
often having his dinner out, and seldom returning
till
midnight or later. There were, of
course, the times
when he was
away altogether--at Empoli, Siena, Florence,
Bologna--for
he delighted in travel, and seemed to pick up
friends all
over the country. Lilia often heard what
a
favorite
he was.
She began
to see that she must assert herself, but she
could not
see how. Her self-confidence, which had
overthrown
Philip, had gradually oozed away. If she
left
the strange
house there was the strange little town.
If she
were to
disobey her husband and walk in the country, that
would be
stranger still--vast slopes of olives and vineyards,
with
chalk-white farms, and in the distance other slopes,
with more
olives and more farms, and more little towns
outlined
against the cloudless sky. "I don't
call this
country,"
she would say. "Why, it's not as
wild as Sawston
Park!" And, indeed, there was scarcely a touch of
wildness
in it--some
of those slopes had been under cultivation for
two
thousand years. But it was terrible and
mysterious all
the same,
and its continued presence made Lilia so
uncomfortable
that she forgot her nature and began to reflect.
She
reflected chiefly about her marriage.
The ceremony
had been
hasty and expensive, and the rites, whatever they
were, were
not those of the Church of England.
Lilia had no
religion in
her; but for hours at a time she would be seized
with a
vulgar fear that she was not "married properly," and
that her
social position in the next world might be as
obscure as
it was in this. It might be safer to do
the
thing
thoroughly, and one day she took the advice of
Spiridione
and joined the Roman Catholic Church, or as she
called it,
"Santa Deodata's." Gino approved; he, too,
thought it
safer, and it was fun confessing, though the
priest was
a stupid old man, and the whole thing was a good
slap in the
face for the people at home.
The people
at home took the slap very soberly; indeed,
there were
few left for her to give it to. The Herritons
were out of
the question; they would not even let her write
to Irma,
though Irma was occasionally allowed to write to
her. Mrs. Theobald was
rapidly subsiding into dotage, and,
as far as
she could be definite about anything, had
definitely
sided with the Herritons. And Miss Abbott did
likewise. Night after night did Lilia curse this false
friend, who
had agreed with her that the marriage would
"do,"
and that the Herritons would come round to it, and
then, at
the first hint of opposition, had fled back to
England
shrieking and distraught. Miss Abbott
headed the
long list
of those who should never be written to, and who
should
never be forgiven. Almost the only
person who was
not on that
list was Mr. Kingcroft, who had unexpectedly
sent an
affectionate and inquiring letter. He
was quite
sure never
to cross the Channel, and Lilia drew freely on
her fancy
in the reply.
At first
she had seen a few English people, for
Monteriano
was not the end of the earth. One or two
inquisitive
ladies, who had heard at home of her quarrel
with the Herritons, came to call.
She was very sprightly,
and they
thought her quite unconventional, and Gino a
charming
boy, so all that was to the good. But by
May the
season,
such as it was, had finished, and there would be no
one till next
spring. As Mrs. Herriton
had often observed,
Lilia had
no resources. She did not like music, or
reading,
or
work. Her one qualification for life was
rather blowsy
high
spirits, which turned querulous or boisterous according
to
circumstances. She was not obedient, but
she was
cowardly,
and in the most gentle way, which Mrs. Herriton
might have
envied, Gino made her do what he wanted.
At
first it
had been rather fun to let him get the upper hand.
But it was
galling to discover that he could not do
otherwise. He had a good strong will when he chose to
use
it, and
would not have had the least scruple in using bolts
and locks
to put it into effect. There was plenty
of
brutality
deep down in him, and one day Lilia nearly touched
it.
It was the
old question of going out alone.
"I
always do it in England."
"This
is Italy."
"Yes,
but I'm older than you, and I'll settle."
"I am
your husband," he said, smiling. They
had
finished
their mid-day meal, and he wanted to go and sleep.
Nothing
would rouse him up, until at last Lilia, getting
more and
more angry, said, "And I've got the money."
He looked
horrified.
Now was the
moment to assert herself. She made the
statement
again. He got up from his chair.
"And
you'd better mend your manners," she continued,
"for
you'd find it awkward if I stopped drawing cheques."
She was no
reader of character, but she quickly became
alarmed. As she said to Perfetta
afterwards, "None of his
clothes
seemed to fit--too big in one place, too small in
another." His figure rather than his face altered, the
shoulders
falling forward till his coat wrinkled across the
back and
pulled away from his wrists. He seemed
all arms.
He edged
round the table to where she was sitting, and she
sprang away
and held the chair between them, too frightened
to speak or
to move. He looked at her with round,
expressionless
eyes, and slowly stretched out his left hand.
Perfetta
was heard coming up from the kitchen. It
seemed to
wake him up, and he turned away and went to his
room
without a word.
"What
has happened?" cried Lilia, nearly fainting. "He
is
ill--ill."
Perfetta
looked suspicious when she heard the account.
"What
did you say to him?" She crossed
herself.
"Hardly
anything," said Lilia and crossed herself also.
Thus did
the two women pay homage to their outraged male.
It was
clear to Lilia at last that Gino had married her
for
money. But he had frightened her too
much to leave any
place for
contempt. His return was terrifying, for
he was
frightened
too, imploring her pardon, lying at her feet,
embracing
her, murmuring "It was not I," striving to define
things
which he did not understand. He stopped
in the house
for three
days, positively ill with physical collapse.
But
for all his
suffering he had tamed her, and she never
threatened
to cut off supplies again.
Perhaps he
kept her even closer than convention
demanded. But he was very young, and he could not bear
it
to be said
of him that he did not know how to treat a
lady--or to
manage a wife. And his own social
position was
uncertain. Even in England a dentist is a troublesome
creature,
whom careful people find difficult to class.
He
hovers
between the professions and the trades; he may be
only a
little lower than the doctors, or he may be down
among the
chemists, or even beneath them. The son
of the
Italian
dentist felt this too. For himself
nothing
mattered;
he made friends with the people he liked, for he
was that
glorious invariable creature, a man. But
his wife
should
visit nowhere rather than visit wrongly: seclusion
was both
decent and safe. The social ideals of
North and
South had
had their brief contention, and this time the
South had
won.
It would
have been well if he had been as strict over
his own
behaviour as he was over hers. But the
incongruity
never occurred
to him for a moment. His morality was
that
of the
average Latin, and as he was suddenly placed in the
position of
a gentleman, he did not see why he should not
behave as
such. Of course, had Lilia been
different--had she
asserted
herself and got a grip on his character--he might
possibly--though
not probably--have been made a better husband
as well as
a better man, and at all events he could have
adopted the
attitude of the Englishman, whose standard is
higher even
when his practice is the same. But had
Lilia
been
different she might not have married him.
The
discovery of his infidelity--which she made by
accident--destroyed
such remnants of self-satisfaction as her
life might
yet possess. She broke down utterly and
sobbed
and cried
in Perfetta's arms.
Perfetta was kind and even
sympathetic,
but cautioned her on no account to speak to
Gino, who
would be furious if he was suspected. And
Lilia
agreed,
partly because she was afraid of him, partly because
it was,
after all, the best and most dignified thing to do.
She had
given up everything for him--her daughter, her
relatives,
her friends, all the little comforts and luxuries
of a
civilized life--and even if she had the courage to break
away, there
was no one who would receive her now. The
Herritons
had been almost malignant in their efforts against
her, and
all her friends had one by one fallen off.
So it
was better
to live on humbly, trying not to feel,
endeavouring
by a cheerful demeanour to put things right.
"Perhaps,"
she thought, "if I have a child he will be
different. I know he wants a son."
Lilia had
achieved pathos despite herself, for there are
some
situations in which vulgarity counts no longer.
Not
Cordelia
nor Imogen more deserves our tears.
She herself
cried frequently, making herself look plain
and old,
which distressed her husband. He was
particularly
kind to her
when he hardly ever saw her, and she accepted
his
kindness without resentment, even with gratitude, so
docile had
she become. She did not hate him, even
as she
had never
loved him; with her it was only when she was
excited
that the semblance of either passion arose.
People
said she
was headstrong, but really her weak brain left her cold.
Suffering,
however, is more independent of temperament,
and the
wisest of women could hardly have suffered more.
As for
Gino, he was quite as boyish as ever, and carried
his
iniquities like a feather. A favourite
speech of his
was,
"Ah, one ought to marry! Spiridione is wrong; I must
persuade
him. Not till marriage does one realize
the
pleasures
and the possibilities of life." So
saying, he
would take
down his felt hat, strike it in the right place
as
infallibly as a German strikes his in the wrong place,
and leave
her.
One
evening, when he had gone out thus, Lilia could
stand it no
longer. It was September. Sawston would be
just
filling up after the summer holidays. People
would be
running in
and out of each other's houses all along the
road. There were bicycle gymkhanas, and on the 30th
Mrs.
Herriton
would be holding the annual bazaar in her garden
for the
C.M.S. It seemed impossible that such a free, happy
life could
exist. She walked out on to the loggia.
Moonlight
and stars in a soft purple sky. The
walls of
Monteriano
should be glorious on such a night as this.
But
the house
faced away from them.
Perfetta
was banging in the kitchen, and the stairs down
led past
the kitchen door. But the stairs up to
the
attic--the
stairs no one ever used--opened out of the
living-room,
and by unlocking the door at the top one might
slip out to
the square terrace above the house, and thus for
ten minutes
walk in freedom and peace.
The key was
in the pocket of Gino's best suit--the
English
check--which he never wore. The stairs
creaked and
the
key-hole screamed; but Perfetta was growing
deaf. The
walls were
beautiful, but as they faced west they were in
shadow. To see the light upon them she must walk
round the
town a
little, till they were caught by the beams of the
rising
moon. She looked anxiously at the house,
and started.
It was easy
walking, for a little path ran all outside
the
ramparts. The few people she met wished
her a civil
good-night,
taking her, in her hatless condition, for a
peasant. The walls trended round towards the moon; and
presently
she came into its light, and saw all the rough
towers turn
into pillars of silver and black, and the
ramparts
into cliffs of pearl. She had no great
sense of
beauty, but
she was sentimental, and she began to cry; for
here, where
a great cypress interrupted the monotony of the
girdle of
olives, she had sat with Gino one afternoon in
March, her
head upon his shoulder, while Caroline was
looking at
the view and sketching. Round the corner
was the
Siena gate,
from which the road to England started, and she
could hear
the rumble of the diligence which was going down
to catch
the night train to Empoli. The next moment it was
upon her,
for the highroad came towards her a little before
it began
its long zigzag down the hill.
The driver
slackened, and called to her to get in. He
did not
know who she was. He hoped she might be
coming to
the
station.
"Non vengo!" she cried.
He wished
her good-night, and turned his horses down the
corner. As the diligence came round she saw that it
was empty.
"Vengo . . ."
Her voice
was tremulous, and did not carry. The
horses
swung off.
"Vengo! Vengo!"
He had
begun to sing, and heard nothing. She
ran down
the road
screaming to him to stop--that she was coming; while
the
distance grew greater and the noise of the diligence
increased. The man's back was black and square against
the
moon, and
if he would but turn for an instant she would be
saved. She tried to cut off the corner of the
zigzag,
stumbling
over the great clods of earth, large and hard as
rocks,
which lay between the eternal olives. She
was too
late; for,
just before she regained the road, the thing
swept past
her, thunderous, ploughing up choking clouds of
moonlit
dust.
She did not
call any more, for she felt very ill, and
fainted;
and when she revived she was lying in the road,
with dust
in her eyes, and dust in her mouth, and dust down
her
ears. There is something very terrible
in dust at night-time.
"What
shall I do?" she moaned. "He
will be so angry."
And without
further effort she slowly climbed back to
captivity,
shaking her garments as she went.
Ill luck
pursued her to the end. It was one of
the
nights when
Gino happened to come in. He was in the
kitchen,
swearing and smashing plates, while Perfetta, her
apron over
her head, was weeping violently. At the
sight of
Lilia he
turned upon her and poured forth a flood of
miscellaneous
abuse. He was far more angry but much
less
alarming
than he had been that day when he edged after her
round the
table. And Lilia gained more courage
from her bad
conscience
than she ever had from her good one, for as he
spoke she
was seized with indignation and feared him no
longer, and
saw him for a cruel, worthless, hypocritical,
dissolute
upstart, and spoke in return.
Perfetta
screamed for she told him everything--all she
knew and
all she thought. He stood with open
mouth, all the
anger gone
out of him, feeling ashamed, and an utter fool.
He was
fairly and rightfully cornered. When had
a husband
so given
himself away before? She finished; and
he was
dumb, for
she had spoken truly. Then, alas! the absurdity
of his own
position grew upon him, and he laughed--as he
would have
laughed at the same situation on the stage.
"You
laugh?" stammered Lilia.
"Ah!"
he cried, "who could help it? I,
who thought you
knew and
saw nothing--I am tricked--I am conquered.
I give
in. Let us talk of it no more."
He touched
her on the shoulder like a good comrade, half
amused and
half penitent, and then, murmuring and smiling to
himself,
ran quietly out of the room.
Perfetta
burst into congratulations. "What
courage you
have!"
she cried; "and what good fortune! He
is angry no
longer! He has forgiven you!"
Neither Perfetta, nor Gino, nor Lilia herself knew the
true reason
of all the misery that followed. To the
end he
thought
that kindness and a little attention would be enough
to set
things straight. His wife was a very
ordinary woman,
and why
should her ideas differ from his own? No
one
realized
that more than personalities were engaged; that the
struggle
was national; that generations of ancestors, good,
bad, or
indifferent, forbad the Latin man to be chivalrous
to the
northern woman, the northern woman to forgive the
Latin
man. All this might have been foreseen:
Mrs. Herriton
foresaw it
from the first.
Meanwhile
Lilia prided herself on her high personal
standard,
and Gino simply wondered why she did not come
round. He hated discomfort and yearned for sympathy,
but
shrank from
mentioning his difficulties in the town in case
they were
put down to his own incompetence. Spiridione was
told, and
replied in a philosophical but not very helpful
letter. His other great friend, whom he trusted more,
was
still
serving in Eritrea or some other desolate outpost.
And,
besides, what was the good of letters? Friends
cannot
travel
through the post.
Lilia, so
similar to her husband in many ways, yearned
for comfort
and sympathy too. The night he laughed
at her
she wildly
took up paper and pen and wrote page after page,
analysing
his character, enumerating his iniquities,
reporting
whole conversations, tracing all the causes and
the growth
of her misery. She was beside herself
with
passion,
and though she could hardly think or see, she
suddenly
attained to magnificence and pathos which a
practised
stylist might have envied. It was
written like a
diary, and
not till its conclusion did she realize for whom
it was
meant.
"Irma,
darling Irma, this letter is for you. I
almost
forgot I
have a daughter. It will make you
unhappy, but I
want you to
know everything, and you cannot learn things too
soon. God bless you, my dearest, and save you. God bless
your
miserable mother."
Fortunately
Mrs. Herriton was in when the letter
arrived. She seized it and opened it in her bedroom.
Another
moment, and Irma's placid childhood would have been
destroyed
for ever.
Lilia received
a brief note from Harriet, again
forbidding
direct communication between mother and daughter,
and
concluding with formal condolences. It
nearly drove her
mad.
"Gently! gently!" said her husband. They were sitting
together on
the loggia when the letter arrived. He
often
sat with
her now, watching her for hours, puzzled and
anxious,
but not contrite.
"It's
nothing." She went in and tore it
up, and then
began to
write--a very short letter, whose gist was "Come and
save
me."
It is not
good to see your wife crying when she
writes--especially
if you are conscious that, on the whole,
your
treatment of her has been reasonable and kind.
It is
not good,
when you accidentally look over her shoulder, to
see that
she is writing to a man. Nor should she
shake her
fist at you
when she leaves the room, under the impression
that you
are engaged in lighting a cigar and cannot see her.
Lilia went
to the post herself. But in Italy so
many
things can
be arranged. The postman was a friend of
Gino's,
and Mr. Kingcroft never got his letter.
So she gave
up hope, became ill, and all through the
autumn lay
in bed. Gino was distracted. She knew why; he
wanted a
son. He could talk and think of nothing
else. His
one desire
was to become the father of a man like himself,
and it held
him with a grip he only partially understood,
for it was
the first great desire, the first great passion
of his
life. Falling in love was a mere
physical
triviality,
like warm sun or cool water, beside this divine
hope of
immortality: "I continue." He
gave candles to Santa
Deodata,
for he was always religious at a crisis, and
sometimes
he went to her himself and prayed the crude
uncouth
demands of the simple. Impetuously he
summoned all
his
relatives back to bear him company in his time of need,
and Lilia
saw strange faces flitting past her in the
darkened
room.
"My
love!" he would say, "my dearest Lilia! Be calm.
I
have never
loved any one but you."
She,
knowing everything, would only smile gently, too
broken by
suffering to make sarcastic repartees.
Before the
child was born he gave her a kiss, and said,
"I
have prayed all night for a boy."
Some
strangely tender impulse moved her, and she said
faintly,
"You are a boy yourself, Gino."
He
answered, "Then we shall be brothers."
He lay
outside the room with his head against the door
like a
dog. When they came to tell him the glad
news they
found him
half unconscious, and his face was wet with tears.
As for
Lilia, some one said to her, "It is a beautiful
boy!" But she had died in giving birth to him.
Chapter 5
At the time
of Lilia's death Philip Herriton was just
twenty-four
years of age--indeed the news reached Sawston on
his
birthday. He was a tall, weakly-built
young man, whose
clothes had
to be judiciously padded on the shoulders in
order to
make him pass muster. His face was plain
rather
than not,
and there was a curious mixture in it of good and
bad. He had a fine forehead and a good large nose,
and both
observation
and sympathy were in his eyes. But below
the
nose and
eyes all was confusion, and those people who
believe
that destiny resides in the mouth and chin shook
their heads
when they looked at him.
Philip
himself, as a boy, had been keenly conscious of
these
defects. Sometimes when he had been
bullied or
hustled
about at school he would retire to his cubicle and
examine his
features in a looking-glass, and he would sigh
and say,
"It is a weak face. I shall never
carve a place
for myself
in the world." But as years went on
he became
either less
self-conscious or more self-satisfied. The
world, he
found, made a niche for him as it did for every
one. Decision of character might come later--or he
might
have it
without knowing. At all events he had
got a sense
of beauty
and a sense of humour, two most desirable gifts.
The sense
of beauty developed first. It caused him
at the
age of
twenty to wear parti-coloured ties and a squashy hat,
to be late
for dinner on account of the sunset, and to catch
art from
Burne-Jones to Praxiteles. At twenty-two
he went
to Italy with
some cousins, and there he absorbed into one
aesthetic
whole olive-trees, blue sky, frescoes, country
inns,
saints, peasants, mosaics, statues, beggars.
He came
back with
the air of a prophet who would either remodel
Sawston
or reject it. All the energies and
enthusiasms of a
rather
friendless life had passed into the championship of beauty.
In a short
time it was over. Nothing had happened
either in Sawston or within himself.
He had shocked
half-a-dozen
people, squabbled with his sister, and bickered
with his
mother. He concluded that nothing could
happen,
not knowing
that human love and love of truth sometimes
conquer
where love of beauty fails.
A little
disenchanted, a little tired, but aesthetically
intact, he
resumed his placid life, relying more and more on
his second
gift, the gift of humour. If he could
not reform
the world,
he could at all events laugh at it, thus
attaining
at least an intellectual superiority. Laughter,
he read and
believed, was a sign of good moral health, and
he laughed
on contentedly, till Lilia's marriage toppled
contentment
down for ever. Italy, the land of
beauty, was
ruined for
him. She had no power to change men and
things
who dwelt
in her. She, too, could produce avarice,
brutality,
stupidity--and, what was worse, vulgarity.
It was
on her soil
and through her influence that a silly woman had
married a
cad. He hated Gino, the betrayer of his
life's
ideal, and
now that the sordid tragedy had come, it filled
him with
pangs, not of sympathy, but of final disillusion.
The
disillusion was convenient for Mrs. Herriton, who
saw a
trying little period ahead of her, and was glad to
have her
family united.
"Are
we to go into mourning, do you think?"
She always
asked her
children's advice where possible.
Harriet thought
that they should. She had been
detestable
to Lilia while she lived, but she always felt
that the
dead deserve attention and sympathy. "After
all
she has
suffered. That letter kept me awake for
nights.
The whole
thing is like one of those horrible modern plays
where no
one is in 'the right.' But if we have
mourning, it
will mean
telling Irma."
"Of
course we must tell Irma!" said Philip.
"Of
course," said his mother. "But
I think we can still
not tell
her about Lilia's marriage."
"I
don't think that. And she must have
suspected
something
by now."
"So
one would have supposed. But she never
cared for
her mother,
and little girls of nine don't reason clearly.
She looks
on it as a long visit. And it is
important, most
important,
that she should not receive a shock. All
a
child's
life depends on the ideal it has of its parents.
Destroy
that and everything goes--morals, behaviour,
everything. Absolute trust in some one else is the
essence
of
education. That is why I have been so
careful about
talking of
poor Lilia before her."
"But
you forget this wretched baby. Waters
and Adamson
write that
there is a baby."
"Mrs. Theobald must be told.
But she doesn't count.
She is
breaking up very quickly. She doesn't
even see Mr.
Kingcroft
now. He, thank goodness, I hear, has at
last
consoled
himself with someone else."
"The
child must know some time," persisted Philip, who
felt a
little displeased, though he could not tell with what.
"The
later the better. Every moment she is
developing."
"I
must say it seems rather hard luck, doesn't it?"
"On
Irma? Why?"
"On
us, perhaps. We have morals and
behaviour also, and
I don't
think this continual secrecy improves them."
"There's
no need to twist the thing round to that," said
Harriet,
rather disturbed.
"Of
course there isn't," said her mother.
"Let's keep
to the main
issue. This baby's quite beside the
point.
Mrs. Theobald will do nothing, and it's no concern of
ours."
"It
will make a difference in the money, surely," said he.
"No,
dear; very little. Poor Charles provided
for every
kind of
contingency in his will. The money will
come to you
and
Harriet, as Irma's guardians."
"Good. Does the Italian get anything?"
"He
will get all hers. But you know what
that is."
"Good. So those are our tactics--to tell no one
about
the baby,
not even Miss Abbott."
"Most
certainly this is the proper course," said Mrs.
Herriton,
preferring "course" to "tactics" for Harriet's
sake. "And why ever should we tell
Caroline?"
"She
was so mixed up in the affair."
"Poor
silly creature. The less she hears about
it the
better she
will be pleased. I have come to be very
sorry
for
Caroline. She, if any one, has suffered
and been
penitent. She burst into tears when I told her a
little,
only a
little, of that terrible letter. I never
saw such
genuine
remorse. We must forgive her and
forget. Let the
dead bury
their dead. We will not trouble her with
them."
Philip saw
that his mother was scarcely logical. But
there was
no advantage in saying so. "Here beginneth the
New Life,
then. Do you remember, mother, that was
what we
said when
we saw Lilia off?"
"Yes,
dear; but now it is really a New Life, because we
are all at
accord. Then you were still infatuated
with
Italy. It may be full of beautiful pictures and churches,
but we
cannot judge a country by anything but its men."
"That
is quite true," he said sadly. And
as the tactics
were now
settled, he went out and took an aimless and
solitary
walk.
By the time
he came back two important things had
happened. Irma had been told of her mother's death, and
Miss
Abbott, who had called for a subscription, had been
told also.
Irma had
wept loudly, had asked a few sensible questions
and a good
many silly ones, and had been content with
evasive
answers. Fortunately the school
prize-giving was at
hand, and
that, together with the prospect of new black
clothes,
kept her from meditating on the fact that Lilia,
who had
been absent so long, would now be absent for ever.
"As
for Caroline," said Mrs. Herriton, "I was
almost
frightened. She broke down utterly. She cried even when
she left
the house. I comforted her as best I
could, and I
kissed
her. It is something that the breach
between her and
ourselves
is now entirely healed."
"Did
she ask no questions--as to the nature of Lilia's
death, I
mean?"
"She
did. But she has a mind of extraordinary
delicacy. She saw that I was reticent, and she did not
press
me. You see, Philip, I can say to you
what I could
not say
before Harriet. Her ideas are so
crude. Really we
do not want
it known in Sawston that there is a baby. All
peace and
comfort would be lost if people came inquiring
after
it."
His mother
knew how to manage him. He agreed
enthusiastically. And a few days later, when he chanced to
travel up
to London with Miss Abbott, he had all the time
the
pleasant thrill of one who is better informed.
Their
last
journey together had been from Monteriano back across
Europe. It had been a ghastly journey, and Philip,
from the
force of
association, rather expected something ghastly now.
He was
surprised. Miss Abbott, between Sawston and
Charing
Cross, revealed qualities which he had never guessed
her to
possess. Without being exactly original,
she did
show a
commendable intelligence, and though at times she was
gauche and
even uncourtly, he felt that here was a person
whom it
might be well to cultivate.
At first
she annoyed him. They were talking, of
course,
about
Lilia, when she broke the thread of vague
commiseration
and said abruptly, "It is all so strange as
well as so
tragic. And what I did was as strange as
anything."
It was the
first reference she had ever made to her
contemptible
behaviour. "Never mind," he
said. "It's all
over
now. Let the dead bury their dead. It's fallen out of
our
lives."
"But
that's why I can talk about it and tell you
everything
I have always wanted to. You thought me
stupid
and
sentimental and wicked and mad, but you never really
knew how
much I was to blame."
"Indeed
I never think about it now," said Philip
gently. He knew that her nature was in the main
generous
and
upright: it was unnecessary for her to reveal her thoughts.
"The
first evening we got to Monteriano," she
persisted,
"Lilia
went out for a walk alone, saw that Italian in a
picturesque
position on a wall, and fell in love. He
was
shabbily
dressed, and she did not even know he was the son
of a
dentist. I must tell you I was used to
this sort of
thing. Once or twice before I had had to send people
about
their
business."
"Yes;
we counted on you," said Philip, with sudden
sharpness. After all, if she would reveal her thoughts,
she
must take
the consequences.
"I
know you did," she retorted with equal sharpness.
"Lilia
saw him several times again, and I knew I ought to
interfere. I called her to my bedroom one night. She was
very
frightened, for she knew what it was about and how
severe I
could be. 'Do you love this man?' I
asked. 'Yes
or no?' She
said 'Yes.' And I said, 'Why don't you marry him
if you
think you'll be happy?' "
"Really--really,"
exploded Philip, as exasperated as if
the thing
had happened yesterday. "You knew
Lilia all your
life. Apart from everything else--as if she could
choose
what could
make her happy!"
"Had
you ever let her choose?" she flashed out.
"I'm
afraid
that's rude," she added, trying to calm herself.
"Let
us rather say unhappily expressed," said Philip,
who always
adopted a dry satirical manner when he was puzzled.
"I
want to finish. Next morning I found
Signor Carella
and said
the same to him. He--well, he was
willing. That's all."
"And
the telegram?" He looked scornfully
out of the window.
Hitherto
her voice had been hard, possibly in
self-accusation,
possibly in defiance. Now it became
unmistakably
sad. "Ah, the telegram! That was wrong.
Lilia there
was more cowardly than I was. We should
have
told the
truth. It lost me my nerve, at all
events. I came
to the
station meaning to tell you everything then.
But we
had started
with a lie, and I got frightened. And at
the
end, when
you left, I got frightened again and came with
you."
"Did
you really mean to stop?"
"For a
time, at all events."
"Would
that have suited a newly married pair?"
"It
would have suited them. Lilia needed
me. And as
for him--I
can't help feeling I might have got influence over
him."
"I am
ignorant of these matters," said Philip; "but I
should have
thought that would have increased the difficulty
of the
situation."
The crisp
remark was wasted on her. She looked
hopelessly
at the raw over-built country, and said, "Well, I
have
explained."
"But
pardon me, Miss Abbott; of most of your conduct you
have given
a description rather than an explanation."
He had
fairly caught her, and expected that she would
gape and
collapse. To his surprise she answered
with some
spirit,
"An explanation may bore you, Mr. Herriton: it
drags
in other
topics."
"Oh,
never mind."
"I
hated Sawston, you see."
He was
delighted. "So did and do I. That's
splendid.
Go
on."
"I
hated the idleness, the stupidity, the
respectability,
the petty unselfishness."
"Petty
selfishness," he corrected. Sawston psychology
had long
been his specialty.
"Petty
unselfishness," she repeated.
"I had got an idea
that every
one here spent their lives in making little
sacrifices
for objects they didn't care for, to please
people they
didn't love; that they never learnt to be
sincere--and,
what's as bad, never learnt how to enjoy
themselves. That's what I thought--what I thought at Monteriano."
"Why,
Miss Abbott," he cried, "you should have told me
this
before! Think it still! I agree with lots of it.
Magnificent!"
"Now
Lilia," she went on, "though there were things
about her I
didn't like, had somehow kept the power of
enjoying
herself with sincerity. And Gino, I
thought, was
splendid,
and young, and strong not only in body, and
sincere as
the day. If they wanted to marry, why
shouldn't
they do
so? Why shouldn't she break with the
deadening life
where she
had got into a groove, and would go on in it,
getting
more and more--worse than unhappy--apathetic till she
died? Of course I was wrong. She only changed one groove
for
another--a worse groove. And as for
him--well, you know
more about
him than I do. I can never trust myself
to judge
characters
again. But I still feel he cannot have
been
quite bad
when we first met him. Lilia--that I
should dare
to say it!
--must have been cowardly. He was only a
boy--just
going to
turn into something fine, I thought--and she must
have
mismanaged him. So that is the one time
I have gone
against
what is proper, and there are the results.
You have
an
explanation now."
"And
much of it has been most interesting, though I
don't
understand everything. Did you never
think of the
disparity
of their social position?"
"We
were mad--drunk with rebellion. We had
no
common-sense. As soon as you came, you saw and foresaw
everything."
"Oh, I
don't think that." He was vaguely
displeased at
being
credited with common-sense. For a moment
Miss Abbott
had seemed
to him more unconventional than himself.
"I
hope you see," she concluded, "why I have troubled
you with
this long story. Women--I heard you say
the other
day--are
never at ease till they tell their faults out loud.
Lilia is
dead and her husband gone to the bad--all through
me. You see, Mr. Herriton,
it makes me specially unhappy;
it's the
only time I've ever gone into what my father calls
'real
life'--and look what I've made of it! All
that winter
I seemed to
be waking up to beauty and splendour and I don't
know what;
and when the spring came, I wanted to fight
against the
things I hated--mediocrity and dulness and
spitefulness
and society. I actually hated society
for a
day or two
at Monteriano.
I didn't see that all these
things are
invincible, and that if we go against them they
will break
us to pieces. Thank you for listening to
so much
nonsense."
"Oh, I
quite sympathize with what you say," said Philip
encouragingly;
"it isn't nonsense, and a year or two ago I
should have
been saying it too. But I feel
differently now,
and I hope
that you also will change. Society is
invincible--to
a certain degree. But your real life is
your
own, and
nothing can touch it. There is no power
on earth
that can
prevent your criticizing and despising
mediocrity--nothing
that can stop you retreating into
splendour
and beauty--into the thoughts and beliefs that make
the real
life--the real you."
"I
have never had that experience yet. Surely
I and my
life must
be where I live."
Evidently
she had the usual feminine incapacity for
grasping
philosophy. But she had developed quite
a
personality,
and he must see more of her. "There
is another
great
consolation against invincible mediocrity," he
said--"the
meeting a fellow-victim. I hope that
this is only
the first
of many discussions that we shall have together."
She made a
suitable reply. The train reached Charing
Cross, and
they parted,--he to go to a matinee, she to buy
petticoats
for the corpulent poor. Her thoughts
wandered as
she bought
them: the gulf between herself and Mr. Herriton,
which she
had always known to be great, now seemed to her
immeasurable.
These
events and conversations took place at
Christmas-time. The New Life initiated by them lasted some
seven
months. Then a little incident--a mere
little
vexatious
incident--brought it to its close.
Irma
collected picture post-cards, and Mrs. Herriton or
Harriet
always glanced first at all that came, lest the
child
should get hold of something vulgar. On
this occasion
the subject
seemed perfectly inoffensive--a lot of ruined
factory
chimneys--and Harriet was about to hand it to her
niece when
her eye was caught by the words on the margin.
She gave a
shriek and flung the card into the grate.
Of
course no
fire was alight in July, and Irma only had to run
and pick it
out again.
"How
dare you!" screamed her aunt. "You
wicked girl!
Give it
here!"
Unfortunately
Mrs. Herriton was out of the room. Irma,
who was not
in awe of Harriet, danced round the table,
reading as
she did so, "View of the superb city of
Monteriano--from
your lital brother."
Stupid
Harriet caught her, boxed her ears, and tore the
post-card
into fragments. Irma howled with pain,
and began
shouting
indignantly, "Who is my little brother?
Why have I
never heard
of him before? Grandmamma! Grandmamma!
Who is
my little
brother? Who is my--"
Mrs. Herriton swept into the room, saying, "Come with
me, dear,
and I will tell you. Now it is time for
you to know."
Irma
returned from the interview sobbing, though, as a
matter of
fact, she had learnt very little. But
that little
took hold
of her imagination. She had promised
secrecy--she
knew not
why. But what harm in talking of the
little
brother to
those who had heard of him already?
"Aunt
Harriet!" she would say. "Uncle
Phil!
Grandmamma! What do you suppose my little brother is
doing
now? Has he begun to play? Do Italian babies talk sooner
than us, or
would he be an English baby born abroad?
Oh, I
do long to
see him, and be the first to teach him the Ten
Commandments
and the Catechism."
The last
remark always made Harriet look grave.
"Really,"
exclaimed Mrs. Herriton, "Irma is getting too
tiresome. She forgot poor Lilia soon enough."
"A
living brother is more to her than a dead mother,"
said Philip
dreamily. "She can knit him
socks."
"I
stopped that. She is bringing him in
everywhere. It
is most
vexatious. The other night she asked if
she might
include him
in the people she mentions specially in her prayers."
"What
did you say?"
"Of
course I allowed her," she replied coldly.
"She has
a right to
mention any one she chooses. But I was
annoyed
with her
this morning, and I fear that I showed it."
"And
what happened this morning?"
"She
asked if she could pray for her 'new father'--for
the
Italian!"
"Did
you let her?"
"I got
up without saying anything."
"You
must have felt just as you did when I wanted to
pray for
the devil."
"He is
the devil," cried Harriet.
"No,
Harriet; he is too vulgar."
"I
will thank you not to scoff against religion!" was
Harriet's
retort. "Think of that poor
baby. Irma is right
to pray for
him. What an entrance into life for an
English
child!"
"My
dear sister, I can reassure you. Firstly,
the
beastly
baby is Italian. Secondly, it was
promptly
christened
at Santa Deodata's, and a powerful combination of
saints
watch over--"
"Don't,
dear. And, Harriet, don't be so
serious--I mean
not so serious
when you are with Irma. She will be
worse
than ever
if she thinks we have something to hide."
Harriet's
conscience could be quite as tiresome as
Philip's
unconventionality. Mrs. Herriton soon made it easy
for her
daughter to go for six weeks to the Tirol.
Then she
and Philip
began to grapple with Irma alone.
Just as
they had got things a little quiet the beastly
baby sent
another picture post-card--a comic one, not
particularly
proper. Irma received it while they were
out,
and all the
trouble began again.
"I
cannot think," said Mrs. Herriton, "what
his motive
is in
sending them."
Two years
before, Philip would have said that the motive
was to give
pleasure. Now he, like his mother, tried
to
think of
something sinister and subtle.
"Do
you suppose that he guesses the situation--how
anxious we
are to hush the scandal up?"
"That
is quite possible. He knows that Irma
will worry
us about
the baby. Perhaps he hopes that we shall
adopt it
to quiet
her."
"Hopeful
indeed."
"At
the same time he has the chance of corrupting the
child's
morals." She unlocked a drawer,
took out the
post-card,
and regarded it gravely. "He
entreats her to
send the
baby one," was her next remark.
"She
might do it too!"
"I
told her not to; but we must watch her carefully,
without, of
course, appearing to be suspicious."
Philip was
getting to enjoy his mother's diplomacy.
He
did not
think of his own morals and behaviour any more.
"Who's
to watch her at school, though? She may
bubble
out any
moment."
"We
can but trust to our influence," said Mrs. Herriton.
Irma did
bubble out, that very day. She was proof
against a
single post-card, not against two. A new
little
brother is
a valuable sentimental asset to a school-girl,
and her
school was then passing through an acute phase of
baby-worship. Happy the girl who had her quiver full of
them, who
kissed them when she left home in the morning, who
had the
right to extricate them from mail-carts in the
interval,
who dangled them at tea ere they retired to rest!
That one might
sing the unwritten song of Miriam, blessed
above all
school-girls, who was allowed to hide her baby
brother in
a squashy place, where none but herself could
find him!
How could
Irma keep silent when pretentious girls spoke
of baby
cousins and baby visitors--she who had a baby
brother,
who wrote her post-cards through his dear papa?
She had
promised not to tell about him--she knew not why--and
she
told. And one girl told another, and one
girl told her
mother, and
the thing was out.
"Yes,
it is all very sad," Mrs. Herriton kept saying.
"My
daughter-in-law made a very unhappy marriage, as I dare
say you
know. I suppose that the child will be
educated in
Italy. Possibly his grandmother may be doing
something, but
I have not
heard of it. I do not expect that she
will have
him
over. She disapproves of the
father. It is altogether
a painful
business for her."
She was
careful only to scold Irma for disobedience--that
eighth
deadly sin, so convenient to parents and guardians.
Harriet
would have plunged into needless explanations and
abuse. The child was ashamed, and talked about the
baby
less. The end of the school year was at hand, and
she hoped
to get
another prize. But she also had put her
hand to the wheel.
It was
several days before they saw Miss Abbott.
Mrs.
Herriton
had not come across her much since the kiss of
reconciliation,
nor Philip since the journey to London. She
had,
indeed, been rather a disappointment to him.
Her
creditable
display of originality had never been repeated:
he feared
she was slipping back. Now she came
about the
Cottage
Hospital--her life was devoted to dull acts of
charity--and
though she got money out of him and out of his
mother, she
still sat tight in her chair, looking graver and
more wooden
than ever.
"I dare
say you have heard," said Mrs. Herriton, well
knowing
what the matter was.
"Yes,
I have. I came to ask you; have any
steps been taken?"
Philip was
astonished. The question was impertinent
in
the
extreme. He had a regard for Miss
Abbott, and regretted
that she
had been guilty of it.
"About
the baby?" asked Mrs. Herriton pleasantly.
"Yes."
"As
far as I know, no steps. Mrs. Theobald may have
decided on
something, but I have not heard of it."
"I was
meaning, had you decided on anything?"
"The
child is no relation of ours," said Philip. "It is
therefore
scarcely for us to interfere."
His mother
glanced at him nervously. "Poor
Lilia was
almost a
daughter to me once. I know what Miss
Abbott
means. But now things have altered. Any initiative would
naturally
come from Mrs. Theobald."
"But
does not Mrs. Theobald always take any initiative
from
you?" asked Miss Abbott.
Mrs. Herriton could not help colouring. "I sometimes
have given
her advice in the past. I should not
presume to
do so
now."
"Then
is nothing to be done for the child at all?"
"It is
extraordinarily good of you to take this
unexpected
interest," said Philip.
"The
child came into the world through my negligence,"
replied
Miss Abbott. "It is natural I
should take an
interest in
it."
"My
dear Caroline," said Mrs. Herriton, "you
must not
brood over
the thing. Let bygones be bygones. The child
should
worry you even less than it worries us. We
never
even
mention it. It belongs to another
world."
Miss Abbott
got up without replying and turned to go.
Her extreme
gravity made Mrs. Herriton uneasy. "Of course,"
she added,
"if Mrs. Theobald decides on any plan that seems
at all
practicable--I must say I don't see any such--I shall
ask if I
may join her in it, for Irma's sake, and share in
any
possible expenses."
"Please
would you let me know if she decides on
anything. I should like to join as well."
"My
dear, how you throw about your money! We
would
never allow
it."
"And
if she decides on nothing, please also let me
know. Let me know in any case."
Mrs. Herriton made a point of kissing her.
"Is
the young person mad?" burst out Philip as soon as
she had
departed. "Never in my life have I
seen such
colossal
impertinence. She ought to be well
smacked, and
sent back
to Sunday-school."
His mother
said nothing.
"But
don't you see--she is practically threatening us?
You can't
put her off with Mrs. Theobald; she knows as well
as we do
that she is a nonentity. If we don't do
anything
she's going
to raise a scandal--that we neglect our
relatives,
&c., which is, of course, a lie. Still
she'll
say
it. Oh, dear, sweet, sober Caroline
Abbott has a screw
loose! We knew it at Monteriano. I had my suspicions last
year one
day in the train; and here it is again. The
young
person is
mad."
She still
said nothing.
"Shall
I go round at once and give it her well?
I'd
really
enjoy it."
In a low,
serious voice--such a voice as she had not used
to him for
months--Mrs. Herriton said, "Caroline has been
extremely
impertinent. Yet there may be something
in what
she says
after all. Ought the child to grow up in
that
place--and
with that father?"
Philip
started and shuddered. He saw that his
mother
was not
sincere. Her insincerity to others had
amused him,
but it was
disheartening when used against himself.
"Let
us admit frankly," she continued, "that after all
we may have
responsibilities."
"I
don't understand you, Mother. You are
turning
absolutely
round. What are you up to?"
In one
moment an impenetrable barrier had been erected
between them. They were no longer in smiling confidence.
Mrs. Herriton was off on tactics of her own--tactics which
might be
beyond or beneath him.
His remark
offended her. "Up to? I am wondering
whether I
ought not to adopt the child. Is that
sufficiently
plain?"
"And
this is the result of half-a-dozen idiocies of Miss
Abbott?"
"It
is. I repeat, she has been extremely
impertinent.
None the
less she is showing me my duty. If I can
rescue
poor
Lilia's baby from that horrible man, who will bring it
up either
as Papist or infidel--who will certainly bring it
up to be
vicious--I shall do it."
"You
talk like Harriet."
"And
why not?" said she, flushing at what she knew to be
an
insult. "Say, if you choose, that I
talk like Irma.
That child
has seen the thing more clearly than any of us.
She longs
for her little brother. She shall have
him. I
don't care
if I am impulsive."
He was sure
that she was not impulsive, but did not dare
to say
so. Her ability frightened him. All his life he had
been her
puppet. She let him worship Italy, and
reform
Sawston--just
as she had let Harriet be Low Church. She
had
let him
talk as much as he liked. But when she
wanted a
thing she
always got it.
And though
she was frightening him, she did not inspire
him with
reverence. Her life, he saw, was without
meaning.
To what
purpose was her diplomacy, her insincerity, her
continued
repression of vigour? Did they make any
one
better or
happier? Did they even bring happiness
to
herself? Harriet with her gloomy peevish creed, Lilia
with
her
clutches after pleasure, were after all more divine than
this
well-ordered, active, useless machine.
Now that
his mother had wounded his vanity he could
criticize
her thus. But he could not rebel. To the end of
his days he
could probably go on doing what she wanted.
He
watched
with a cold interest the duel between her and Miss
Abbott. Mrs. Herriton's
policy only appeared gradually. It
was to
prevent Miss Abbott interfering with the child at all
costs, and
if possible to prevent her at a small cost.
Pride was
the only solid element in her disposition.
She
could not
bear to seem less charitable than others.
"I am
planning what can be done," she would tell people,
"and
that kind Caroline Abbott is helping me.
It is no
business of
either of us, but we are getting to feel that
the baby
must not be left entirely to that horrible man.
It
would be
unfair to little Irma; after all, he is her
half-brother. No, we have come to nothing definite."
Miss Abbott
was equally civil, but not to be appeased by
good
intentions. The child's welfare was a
sacred duty to
her, not a
matter of pride or even of sentiment. By
it
alone, she
felt, could she undo a little of the evil that
she had
permitted to come into the world. To her
imagination
Monteriano had become a magic city of vice,
beneath
whose towers no person could grow up happy or pure.
Sawston,
with its semi-detached houses and snobby schools,
its book
teas and bazaars, was certainly petty and dull; at
times she
found it even contemptible. But it was
not a
place of
sin, and at Sawston, either with the Herritons or
with
herself, the baby should grow up.
As soon as
it was inevitable, Mrs. Herriton wrote a
letter for
Waters and Adamson to send to Gino--the oddest
letter;
Philip saw a copy of it afterwards. Its
ostensible
purpose was
to complain of the picture postcards. Right
at
the end, in
a few nonchalant sentences, she offered to adopt
the child,
provided that Gino would undertake never to come
near it,
and would surrender some of Lilia's money for its
education.
"What
do you think of it?" she asked her son.
"It would
not do to
let him know that we are anxious for it."
"Certainly
he will never suppose that."
"But
what effect will the letter have on him?"
"When
he gets it he will do a sum. If it is
less
expensive
in the long run to part with a little money and to
be clear of
the baby, he will part with it. If he
would
lose, he
will adopt the tone of the loving father."
"Dear,
you're shockingly cynical." After a
pause she
added,
"How would the sum work out?"
"I
don't know, I'm sure. But if you wanted
to ensure
the baby
being posted by return, you should have sent a
little sum
to HIM. Oh, I'm not cynical--at least I
only go
by what I
know of him. But I am weary of the whole
show.
Weary of
Italy. Weary, weary, weary. Sawston's a kind,
pitiful
place, isn't it? I will go walk in it
and seek comfort."
He smiled
as he spoke, for the sake of not appearing
serious. When he had left her she began to smile also.
It was to
the Abbotts' that he walked. Mr. Abbott
offered him
tea, and Caroline, who was keeping up her
Italian in
the next room, came in to pour it out. He
told
them that
his mother had written to Signor Carella, and they
both
uttered fervent wishes for her success.
"Very
fine of Mrs. Herriton, very fine indeed," said
Mr.
Abbott,
who, like every one else, knew nothing of his
daughter's
exasperating behaviour. "I'm afraid
it will mean
a lot of
expense. She will get nothing out of
Italy without
paying."
"There
are sure to be incidental expenses," said Philip
cautiously. Then he turned to Miss Abbott and said,
"Do you
suppose we
shall have difficulty with the man?"
"It
depends," she replied, with equal caution.
"From
what you saw of him, should you conclude that he
would make
an affectionate parent?"
"I
don't go by what I saw of him, but by what I know of him."
"Well,
what do you conclude from that?"
"That
he is a thoroughly wicked man."
"Yet
thoroughly wicked men have loved their children.
Look at
Rodrigo Borgia, for example."
"I
have also seen examples of that in my district."
With this
remark the admirable young woman rose, and
returned to
keep up her Italian. She puzzled Philip
extremely. He could understand enthusiasm, but she did
not
seem the
least enthusiastic. He could understand
pure
cussedness,
but it did not seem to be that either.
Apparently
she was deriving neither amusement nor profit
from the
struggle. Why, then, had she undertaken
it?
Perhaps she
was not sincere. Perhaps, on the whole,
that
was most
likely. She must be professing one thing
and
aiming at
another. What the other thing could be
he did not
stop to
consider. Insincerity was becoming his
stock
explanation
for anything unfamiliar, whether that thing was
a kindly
action or a high ideal.
"She
fences well," he said to his mother afterwards.
"What
had you to fence about?" she said suavely.
Her
son might
know her tactics, but she refused to admit that he
knew. She still pretended to him that the baby was
the one
thing she
wanted, and had always wanted, and that Miss
Abbott was
her valued ally.
And when,
next week, the reply came from Italy, she
showed him
no face of triumph. "Read the
letters," she
said. "We have failed."
Gino wrote
in his own language, but the solicitors had
sent a laborious
English translation, where "Preghiatissima
Signora"
was rendered as "Most Praiseworthy Madam," and
every
delicate compliment and superlative--superlatives are
delicate in
Italian--would have felled an ox. For a moment
Philip
forgot the matter in the manner; this grotesque
memorial of
the land he had loved moved him almost to
tears. He knew the originals of these lumbering
phrases; he
also had
sent "sincere auguries"; he also had addressed
letters--who
writes at home? --from the Caffe Garibaldi. "I
didn't know
I was still such an ass," he thought.
"Why
can't I
realize that it's merely tricks of expression?
A
bounder's a
bounder, whether he lives in Sawston or Monteriano."
"Isn't
it disheartening?" said his mother.
He then
read that Gino could not accept the generous
offer. His paternal heart would not permit him to
abandon
this symbol
of his deplored spouse. As for the
picture
post-cards,
it displeased him greatly that they had been
obnoxious. He would send no more. Would Mrs. Herriton,
with her
notorious kindness, explain this to Irma, and thank
her for
those which Irma (courteous Miss!) had sent to him?
"The
sum works out against us," said Philip.
"Or
perhaps he
is putting up the price."
"No,"
said Mrs. Herriton decidedly. "It is not that.
For some
perverse reason he will not part with the child. I
must go and
tell poor Caroline. She will be equally
distressed."
She
returned from the visit in the most extraordinary
condition. Her face was red, she panted for breath,
there
were dark
circles round her eyes.
"The
impudence!" she shouted. "The
cursed impudence!
Oh, I'm
swearing. I don't care. That beastly woman--how
dare she
interfere--I'll--Philip, dear, I'm sorry.
It's no
good. You must go."
"Go
where? Do sit down. What's happened?" This
outburst of
violence from his elegant ladylike mother pained
him
dreadfully. He had not known that it was
in her.
"She
won't accept--won't accept the letter as final.
You
must go to Monteriano!"
"I
won't!" he shouted back. "I've
been and I've
failed. I'll never see the place again. I hate Italy."
"If
you don't go, she will."
"Abbott?"
"Yes. Going alone; would start this evening. I offered
to write;
she said it was 'too late!' Too late!
The child,
if you
please--Irma's brother--to live with her, to be brought
up by her
and her father at our very gates, to go to school
like a
gentleman, she paying. Oh, you're a
man! It doesn't
matter for
you. You can laugh. But I know what people say;
and that
woman goes to Italy this evening."
He seemed
to be inspired. "Then let her
go! Let her
mess with
Italy by herself. She'll come to grief
somehow.
Italy's too
dangerous, too--"
"Stop
that nonsense, Philip. I will not be
disgraced by
her. I WILL have the child. Pay all we've got for it. I
will have
it."
"Let
her go to Italy!" he cried. "Let
her meddle with
what she
doesn't understand! Look at this
letter! The man
who wrote
it will marry her, or murder her, or do for her
somehow. He's a bounder, but he's not an English
bounder.
He's
mysterious and terrible. He's got a
country behind him
that's
upset people from the beginning of the world."
"Harriet!"
exclaimed his mother. "Harriet
shall go
too. Harriet, now, will be invaluable!" And before Philip
had stopped
talking nonsense, she had planned the whole
thing and
was looking out the trains.
Chapter 6
Italy,
Philip had always maintained, is only her true self
in the
height of the summer, when the tourists have left
her, and
her soul awakes under the beams of a vertical sun.
He now had
every opportunity of seeing her at her best, for
it was
nearly the middle of August before he went out to
meet
Harriet in the Tirol.
He found
his sister in a dense cloud five thousand feet
above the
sea, chilled to the bone, overfed, bored, and not
at all
unwilling to be fetched away.
"It
upsets one's plans terribly," she remarked, as she
squeezed
out her sponges, "but obviously it is my duty."
"Did
mother explain it all to you?" asked Philip.
"Yes,
indeed! Mother has written me a really
beautiful
letter. She describes how it was that she gradually
got to
feel that
we must rescue the poor baby from its terrible
surroundings,
how she has tried by letter, and it is no
good--nothing
but insincere compliments and hypocrisy came
back. Then she says, 'There is nothing like
personal
influence;
you and Philip will succeed where I have failed.'
She says,
too, that Caroline Abbott has been wonderful."
Philip
assented.
"Caroline
feels it as keenly almost as us. That is
because she
knows the man. Oh, he must be loathsome!
Goodness
me! I've forgotten to pack the
ammonia! . . . It
has been a
terrible lesson for Caroline, but I fancy it is
her
turning-point. I can't help liking to
think that out of
all this
evil good will come."
Philip saw
no prospect of good, nor of beauty either.
But the
expedition promised to be highly comic. He
was not
averse to
it any longer; he was simply indifferent to all in
it except
the humours. These would be
wonderful. Harriet,
worked by
her mother; Mrs. Herriton, worked by Miss Abbott;
Gino,
worked by a cheque--what better entertainment could he
desire? There was nothing to distract him this time;
his
sentimentality
had died, so had his anxiety for the family
honour. He might be a puppet's puppet, but he knew
exactly
the
disposition of the strings.
They
travelled for thirteen hours down-hill, whilst the
streams
broadened and the mountains shrank, and the
vegetation
changed, and the people ceased being ugly and
drinking
beer, and began instead to drink wine and to be
beautiful. And the train which had picked them at
sunrise
out of a
waste of glaciers and hotels was waltzing at sunset
round the
walls of Verona.
"Absurd
nonsense they talk about the heat," said Philip,
as they
drove from the station. "Supposing
we were here for
pleasure,
what could be more pleasurable than this?"
"Did
you hear, though, they are remarking on the cold?"
said
Harriet nervously. "I should never
have thought it cold."
And on the
second day the heat struck them, like a hand
laid over
the mouth, just as they were walking to see the
tomb of
Juliet. From that moment everything went
wrong.
They fled
from Verona. Harriet's sketch-book was
stolen,
and the
bottle of ammonia in her trunk burst over her
prayer-book,
so that purple patches appeared on all her
clothes. Then, as she was going through Mantua at four
in
the
morning, Philip made her look out of the window because
it was
Virgil's birthplace, and a smut flew in her eye, and
Harriet
with a smut in her eye was notorious. At
Bologna
they stopped
twenty-four hours to rest. It was a
FESTA, and
children
blew bladder whistles night and day. "What
a
religion!"
said Harriet. The hotel smelt, two
puppies were
asleep on
her bed, and her bedroom window looked into a
belfry,
which saluted her slumbering form every quarter of
an
hour. Philip left his walking-stick, his
socks, and the
Baedeker at
Bologna; she only left her sponge-bag. Next
day
they
crossed the Apennines with a train-sick child and a hot
lady, who
told them that never, never before had she sweated
so
profusely. "Foreigners are a filthy
nation," said
Harriet. "I don't care if there are tunnels; open
the
windows." He obeyed, and she got another smut in her
eye.
Nor did
Florence improve matters. Eating,
walking, even a
cross word
would bathe them both in boiling water. Philip,
who was
slighter of build, and less conscientious, suffered
less. But Harriet had never been to Florence, and
between
the hours
of eight and eleven she crawled like a wounded
creature
through the streets, and swooned before various
masterpieces
of art. It was an irritable couple who
took
tickets to Monteriano.
"Singles
or returns?" said he.
"A
single for me," said Harriet peevishly; "I shall
never get
back alive."
"Sweet
creature!" said her brother, suddenly breaking
down. "How helpful you will be when we come to
Signor Carella!"
"Do
you suppose," said Harriet, standing still among a
whirl of
porters--"do you suppose I am going to enter that
man's
house?"
"Then
what have you come for, pray? For
ornament?"
"To
see that you do your duty."
"Oh,
thanks!"
"So
mother told me. For goodness sake get
the tickets;
here comes
that hot woman again! She has the
impudence to bow."
"Mother
told you, did she?" said Philip wrathfully, as
he went to
struggle for tickets at a slit so narrow that
they were
handed to him edgeways. Italy was
beastly, and
Florence
station is the centre of beastly Italy. But
he had
a strange
feeling that he was to blame for it all; that a
little
influx into him of virtue would make the whole land
not beastly
but amusing. For there was enchantment,
he was
sure of
that; solid enchantment, which lay behind the
porters and
the screaming and the dust. He could see
it in
the
terrific blue sky beneath which they travelled, in the
whitened
plain which gripped life tighter than a frost, in
the
exhausted reaches of the Arno, in the ruins of brown
castles
which stood quivering upon the hills. He
could see
it, though
his head ached and his skin was twitching, though
he was here
as a puppet, and though his sister knew how he
was
here. There was nothing pleasant in that
journey to
Monteriano
station. But nothing--not even the
discomfort--was
commonplace.
"But
do people live inside?" asked Harriet.
They had
exchanged
railway-carriage for the legno, and the legno had
emerged
from the withered trees, and had revealed to them
their
destination. Philip, to be annoying,
answered "No."
"What
do they do there?" continued Harriet, with a frown.
"There
is a caffe. A
prison. A theatre. A church.
Walls. A view."
"Not
for me, thank you," said Harriet, after a weighty pause.
"Nobody
asked you, Miss, you see. Now Lilia was
asked
by such a
nice young gentleman, with curls all over his
forehead,
and teeth just as white as father makes them."
Then his
manner changed. "But, Harriet, do
you see nothing
wonderful
or attractive in that place--nothing at all?"
"Nothing
at all. It's frightful."
"I
know it is. But it's old--awfully
old."
"Beauty
is the only test," said Harriet. "At
least so
you told me
when I sketched old buildings--for the sake, I
suppose, of
making yourself unpleasant."
"Oh,
I'm perfectly right. But at the same
time--I don't
know--so
many things have happened here--people have lived so
hard and so
splendidly--I can't explain."
"I
shouldn't think you could. It doesn't
seem the best
moment to
begin your Italy mania. I thought you
were cured
of it by
now. Instead, will you kindly tell me
what you are
going to do
when you arrive. I do beg you will not
be taken
unawares
this time."
"First,
Harriet, I shall settle you at the Stella
d'Italia,
in the comfort that befits your sex and
disposition. Then I shall make myself some tea. After tea
I shall
take a book into Santa Deodata's, and read there.
It is
always fresh and cool."
The martyred
Harriet exclaimed, "I'm not clever,
Philip. I don't go in for it, as you know. But I know
what's
rude. And I know what's wrong."
"Meaning--?"
"You!"
she shouted, bouncing on the cushions of the
legno and
startling all the fleas. "What's
the good of
cleverness
if a man's murdered a woman?"
"Harriet,
I am hot. To whom do you refer?"
"He. Her.
If you don't look out he'll murder you.
I
wish he
would."
"Tut tut, tutlet! You'd find a corpse extraordinarily
inconvenient." Then he tried to be less aggravating. "I
heartily
dislike the fellow, but we know he didn't murder
her. In that letter, though she said a lot, she
never said
he was
physically cruel."
"He
has murdered her. The things he
did--things one
can't even
mention--"
"Things
which one must mention if one's to talk at all.
And things
which one must keep in their proper place.
Because he
was unfaithful to his wife, it doesn't follow
that in
every way he's absolutely vile." He
looked at the
city. It seemed to approve his remark.
"It's
the supreme test. The man who is unchivalrous to
a
woman--"
"Oh,
stow it! Take it to the Back
Kitchen. It's no
more a
supreme test than anything else. The
Italians never
were
chivalrous from the first. If you
condemn him for
that,
you'll condemn the whole lot."
"I
condemn the whole lot."
"And
the French as well?"
"And
the French as well."
"Things
aren't so jolly easy," said Philip, more to
himself
than to her.
But for
Harriet things were easy, though not jolly, and
she turned
upon her brother yet again. "What
about the
baby,
pray? You've said a lot of smart things
and whittled
away
morality and religion and I don't know what; but what
about the
baby? You think me a fool, but I've been
noticing
you all
today, and you haven't mentioned the baby once.
You
haven't
thought about it, even. You don't
care. Philip! I
shall not
speak to you. You are intolerable."
She kept
her promise, and never opened her lips all the
rest of the
way. But her eyes glowed with anger and
resolution. For she was a straight, brave woman, as well
as
a peevish
one.
Philip
acknowledged her reproof to be true. He
did not
care about
the baby one straw. Nevertheless, he
meant to do
his duty,
and he was fairly confident of success. If
Gino
would have
sold his wife for a thousand lire, for how much
less would
he not sell his child? It was just a
commercial
transaction. Why should it interfere with other things?
His eyes
were fixed on the towers again, just as they had
been fixed
when he drove with Miss Abbott. But this
time
his
thoughts were pleasanter, for he had no such grave
business on
his mind. It was in the spirit of the
cultivated
tourist that he approached his destination.
One of the
towers, rough as any other, was topped by a
cross--the
tower of the Collegiate Church of Santa Deodata.
She was a
holy maiden of the Dark Ages, the city's patron
saint, and
sweetness and barbarity mingle strangely in her
story. So holy was she that all her life she lay
upon her
back in the
house of her mother, refusing to eat, refusing
to play,
refusing to work. The devil, envious of
such
sanctity,
tempted her in various ways. He dangled
grapes
above her,
he showed her fascinating toys, he pushed soft
pillows
beneath her aching head. When all proved
vain he
tripped up
the mother and flung her downstairs before her
very
eyes. But so holy was the saint that she
never picked
her mother
up, but lay upon her back through all, and thus
assured her
throne in Paradise. She was only fifteen
when
she died,
which shows how much is within the reach of any
school-girl. Those who think her life was unpractical need
only think
of the victories upon Poggibonsi, San Gemignano,
Volterra,
Siena itself--all gained through the invocation of
her name;
they need only look at the church which rose over
her
grave. The grand schemes for a marble
facade were never
carried
out, and it is brown unfinished stone until this
day. But for the inside Giotto was summoned to
decorate the
walls of
the nave. Giotto came--that is to say,
he did not
come,
German research having decisively proved--but at all
events the
nave is covered with frescoes, and so are two
chapels in
the left transept, and the arch into the choir,
and there
are scraps in the choir itself. There
the
decoration
stopped, till in the full spring of the
Renaissance
a great painter came to pay a few weeks' visit
to his
friend the Lord of Monteriano. In the intervals
between the
banquets and the discussions on Latin etymology
and the
dancing, he would stroll over to the church, and
there in
the fifth chapel to the right he has painted two
frescoes of
the death and burial of Santa Deodata. That is
why
Baedeker gives the place a star.
Santa Deodata was better company than Harriet, and she
kept Philip
in a pleasant dream until the legno drew up at
the
hotel. Every one there was asleep, for
it was still the
hour when
only idiots were moving. There were not
even any
beggars
about. The cabman put their bags down in
the
passage--they
had left heavy luggage at the station--and
strolled
about till he came on the landlady's room and woke
her, and
sent her to them.
Then
Harriet pronounced the monosyllable "Go!"
"Go
where?" asked Philip, bowing to the landlady, who
was
swimming down the stairs.
"To the Italian. Go."
"Buona sera, signora padrona. Si ritorna volontieri a
Monteriano!" (Don't be a goose. I'm not going now. You're
in the way,
too.) "Vorrei due camere--"
"Go. This instant.
Now. I'll stand it no
longer. Go!"
"I'm
damned if I'll go. I want my tea."
"Swear
if you like!" she cried. "Blaspheme! Abuse me!
But
understand, I'm in earnest."
"Harriet,
don't act. Or act better."
"We've
come here to get the baby back, and for nothing
else. I'll not have this levity and slackness, and
talk
about
pictures and churches. Think of mother; did
she send
you out for
THEM?"
"Think
of mother and don't straddle across the stairs.
Let the
cabman and the landlady come down, and let me go up
and choose
rooms."
"I
shan't."
"Harriet,
are you mad?"
"If
you like. But you will not come up till
you have
seen the
Italian."
"La signorina si sente
male," said Philip, "C' e il sole."
"Poveretta!" cried the landlady and the cabman.
"Leave
me alone!" said Harriet, snarling round at them.
"I
don't care for the lot of you. I'm
English, and neither
you'll come
down nor he up till he goes for the baby."
"La prego-piano-piano-c e un' altra signorina che dorme--"
"We
shall probably be arrested for brawling, Harriet.
Have you
the very slightest sense of the ludicrous?"
Harriet had
not; that was why she could be so powerful.
She had
concocted this scene in the carriage, and nothing
should
baulk her of it. To the abuse in front and the
coaxing
behind she was equally indifferent. How
long she
would have
stood like a glorified Horatius, keeping the
staircase
at both ends, was never to be known. For
the
young lady,
whose sleep they were disturbing, awoke and
opened her
bedroom door, and came out on to the landing.
She was
Miss Abbott.
Philip's
first coherent feeling was one of indignation.
To be run
by his mother and hectored by his sister was as
much as he
could stand. The intervention of a third
female
drove him
suddenly beyond politeness. He was about
to say
exactly
what he thought about the thing from beginning to
end. But before he could do so Harriet also had
seen Miss
Abbott. She uttered a shrill cry of joy.
"You,
Caroline, here of all people!" And
in spite of
the heat
she darted up the stairs and imprinted an
affectionate
kiss upon her friend.
Philip had
an inspiration. "You will have a
lot to tell
Miss
Abbott, Harriet, and she may have as much to tell you.
So I'll pay
my call on Signor Carella, as you suggested, and
see how
things stand."
Miss Abbott
uttered some noise of greeting or alarm.
He
did not
reply to it or approach nearer to her. Without
even
paying the
cabman, he escaped into the street.
"Tear
each other's eyes out!" he cried, gesticulating at
the facade
of the hotel. "Give it to her,
Harriet! Teach
her to
leave us alone. Give it to her,
Caroline! Teach her
to be
grateful to you. Go it, ladies; go
it!"
Such people
as observed him were interested, but did not
conclude
that he was mad. This aftermath of
conversation is
not unknown
in Italy.
He tried to
think how amusing it was; but it would not
do--Miss
Abbott's presence affected him too personally.
Either she
suspected him of dishonesty, or else she was
being
dishonest herself. He preferred to
suppose the
latter. Perhaps she had seen Gino, and they had
prepared
some
elaborate mortification for the Herritons. Perhaps
Gino had
sold the baby cheap to her for a joke: it was just
the kind of
joke that would appeal to him. Philip
still
remembered
the laughter that had greeted his fruitless
journey,
and the uncouth push that had toppled him on to the
bed. And whatever it might mean, Miss Abbott's
presence
spoilt the
comedy: she would do nothing funny.
During this
short meditation he had walked through the
city, and
was out on the other side. "Where
does Signor
Carella
live?" he asked the men at the Dogana.
"I'll
show you," said a little girl, springing out of
the ground
as Italian children will.
"She
will show you," said the Dogana men, nodding
reassuringly. "Follow her always, always, and you will
come
to no
harm. She is a trustworthy guide. She is my
daughter."
cousin."
sister."
Philip knew
these relatives well: they ramify, if need
be, all
over the peninsula.
"Do
you chance to know whether Signor Carella is
in?" he
asked her.
She had
just seen him go in. Philip nodded. He was
looking
forward to the interview this time: it would be an
intellectual
duet with a man of no great intellect. What
was Miss
Abbott up to? That was one of the things
he was
going to
discover. While she had it out with
Harriet, he
would have
it out with Gino. He followed the Dogana's
relative
softly, like a diplomatist.
He did not
follow her long, for this was the Volterra
gate, and
the house was exactly opposite to it. In
half a
minute they
had scrambled down the mule-track and reached
the only
practicable entrance. Philip laughed,
partly at
the thought
of Lilia in such a building, partly in the
confidence
of victory. Meanwhile the Dogana's relative
lifted up
her voice and gave a shout.
For an
impressive interval there was no reply. Then
the
figure of a
woman appeared high up on the loggia.
"That
is Perfetta," said the girl.
"I
want to see Signor Carella," cried Philip.
"Out!"
"Out,"
echoed the girl complacently.
"Why
on earth did you say he was in?" He
could have
strangled
her for temper. He had been just ripe
for an
interview--just
the right combination of indignation and
acuteness:
blood hot, brain cool. But nothing ever
did go
right in Monteriano. "When
will he be back?" he called to
Perfetta. It really was too bad.
She did not
know. He was away on business. He might be
back this
evening, he might not. He had gone to Poggibonsi.
At the
sound of this word the little girl put her
fingers to
her nose and swept them at the plain. She
sang
as she did
so, even as her foremothers had sung seven
hundred
years back--
Poggibonizzi, fatti in la,
Che Monteriano si fa citta!
Then she
asked Philip for a halfpenny. A German
lady,
friendly to
the Past, had given her one that very spring.
"I
shall have to leave a message," he called.
"Now Perfetta has gone for her basket," said the little
girl. "When she returns she will lower
it--so. Then you
will put
your card into it. Then she will raise
it--thus.
By this
means--"
When Perfetta returned, Philip remembered to ask after
the
baby. It took longer to find than the
basket, and he
stood
perspiring in the evening sun, trying to avoid the
smell of
the drains and to prevent the little girl from
singing
against Poggibonsi.
The olive-trees beside him were
draped with
the weekly--or more probably the monthly--wash.
What a
frightful spotty blouse! He could not
think where he
had seen
it. Then he remembered that it was Lilia's.
She
had brought
it "to hack about in" at Sawston, and had
taken
it to Italy
because "in Italy anything does."
He had
rebuked her
for the sentiment.
"Beautiful
as an angel!" bellowed Perfetta, holding out
something
which must be Lilia's baby. "But
who am I addressing?"
"Thank
you--here is my card." He had
written on it a
civil
request to Gino for an interview next morning.
But
before he
placed it in the basket and revealed his identity,
he wished
to find something out. "Has a young
lady happened
to call
here lately--a young English lady?"
Perfetta
begged his pardon: she was a little deaf.
"A
young lady--pale, large, tall."
She did not
quite catch.
"A
YOUNG LADY!"
"Perfetta is deaf when she chooses," said the Dogana's
relative. At last Philip admitted the peculiarity and
strode
away. He paid off the detestable child
at the
Volterra
gate. She got two nickel pieces and was
not
pleased, partly
because it was too much, partly because he
did not
look pleased when he gave it to her. He
caught her
fathers and
cousins winking at each other as he walked past
them. Monteriano seemed
in one conspiracy to make him look
a
fool. He felt tired and anxious and
muddled, and not sure
of anything
except that his temper was lost. In this
mood
he returned
to the Stella d'Italia, and there, as he was
ascending
the stairs, Miss Abbott popped out of the
dining-room
on the first floor and beckoned to him mysteriously.
"I was
going to make myself some tea," he said, with his
hand still
on the banisters.
"I
should be grateful--"
So he
followed her into the dining-room and shut the door.
"You
see," she began, "Harriet knows nothing."
"No
more do I. He was out."
"But
what's that to do with it?"
He
presented her with an unpleasant smile. She
fenced
well, as he
had noticed before. "He was
out. You find me
as ignorant
as you have left Harriet."
"What
do you mean? Please, please Mr. Herriton, don't
be mysterious:
there isn't the time. Any moment Harriet
may
be down,
and we shan't have decided how to behave to her.
Sawston
was different: we had to keep up appearances.
But
here we
must speak out, and I think I can trust you to do
it. Otherwise we'll never start clear."
"Pray
let us start clear," said Philip, pacing up and
down the
room. "Permit me to begin by asking
you a
question. In which capacity have you come to Monteriano--spy
or
traitor?"
"Spy!"
she answered, without a moment's hesitation.
She
was
standing by the little Gothic window as she spoke--the
hotel had
been a palace once--and with her finger she was
following
the curves of the moulding as if they might feel
beautiful
and strange. "Spy," she
repeated, for Philip was
bewildered
at learning her guilt so easily, and could not
answer a
word. "Your mother has behaved
dishonourably all
through. She never wanted the child; no harm in that;
but
she is too
proud to let it come to me. She has done
all she
could to
wreck things; she did not tell you everything; she
has told
Harriet nothing at all; she has lied or acted lies
everywhere. I cannot trust your mother. So I have come
here
alone--all across Europe; no one knows it; my father
thinks I am
in Normandy--to spy on Mrs. Herriton. Don't
let's
argue!" for he had begun, almost mechanically, to
rebuke her
for impertinence. "If you are here
to get the
child, I
will help you; if you are here to fail, I shall get
it instead
of you."
"It is
hopeless to expect you to believe me," he
stammered. "But I can assert that we are here to
get the
child, even
if it costs us all we've got. My mother
has
fixed no
money limit whatever. I am here to carry
out her
instructions. I think that you will approve of them, as you
have
practically dictated them. I do not
approve of them.
They are
absurd."
She nodded
carelessly. She did not mind what he
said.
All she
wanted was to get the baby out of Monteriano.
"Harriet
also carries out your instructions," he
continued. "She, however, approves of them, and
does not
know that
they proceed from you. I think, Miss
Abbott, you
had better
take entire charge of the rescue party. I
have
asked for
an interview with Signor Carella tomorrow
morning. Do you acquiesce?"
She nodded
again.
"Might
I ask for details of your interview with him?
They might
be helpful to me."
He had
spoken at random. To his delight she
suddenly
collapsed. Her hand fell from the window. Her face was red
with more
than the reflection of evening.
"My
interview--how do you know of it?"
"From Perfetta, if it interests you."
"Who
ever is Perfetta?"
"The
woman who must have let you in."
"In
where?"
"Into
Signor Carella's house."
"Mr. Herriton!" she exclaimed. "How could you believe
her? Do you suppose that I would have entered that
man's
house,
knowing about him all that I do? I think
you have
very odd
ideas of what is possible for a lady. I
hear you
wanted
Harriet to go. Very properly she
refused. Eighteen
months ago
I might have done such a thing. But I
trust I
have learnt
how to behave by now."
Philip
began to see that there were two Miss Abbotts--the
Miss Abbott
who could travel alone to Monteriano, and the
Miss Abbott
who could not enter Gino's house when she got
there. It was an amusing discovery. Which of them would
respond to
his next move?
"I
suppose I misunderstood Perfetta. Where did you have
your
interview, then?"
"Not
an interview--an accident--I am very sorry--I meant
you to have
the chance of seeing him first. Though
it is
your
fault. You are a day late. You were due here
yesterday. So I came yesterday, and, not finding you,
went
up to the Rocca--you know that kitchen-garden where they let
you in, and
there is a ladder up to a broken tower, where
you can
stand and see all the other towers below you and the
plain and
all the other hills?"
"Yes,
yes. I know the Rocca;
I told you of it."
"So I
went up in the evening for the sunset: I had
nothing to
do. He was in the garden: it belongs to
a friend
of
his."
"And
you talked."
"It
was very awkward for me. But I had to
talk: he
seemed to
make me. You see he thought I was here as a
tourist; he
thinks so still. He intended to be
civil, and I
judged it
better to be civil also."
"And
of what did you talk?"
"The
weather--there will be rain, he says, by tomorrow
evening--the
other towns, England, myself, about you a
little, and
he actually mentioned Lilia. He was
perfectly
disgusting;
he pretended he loved her; he offered to show me
her
grave--the grave of the woman he has murdered!"
"My
dear Miss Abbott, he is not a murderer. I
have just
been
driving that into Harriet. And when you
know the
Italians as
well as I do, you will realize that in all that
he said to
you he was perfectly sincere. The
Italians are
essentially
dramatic; they look on death and love as
spectacles. I don't doubt that he persuaded himself, for
the moment,
that he had behaved admirably, both as husband
and
widower."
"You
may be right," said Miss Abbott, impressed for the
first
time. "When I tried to pave the
way, so to speak--to
hint that
he had not behaved as he ought--well, it was no
good at
all. He couldn't or wouldn't
understand."
There was
something very humorous in the idea of Miss
Abbott
approaching Gino, on the Rocca, in the spirit of a
district
visitor. Philip, whose temper was returning,
laughed.
"Harriet
would say he has no sense of sin."
"Harriet
may be right, I am afraid."
"If
so, perhaps he isn't sinful!"
Miss Abbott
was not one to encourage levity. "I
know
what he has
done," she said. "What he says
and what he
thinks is of
very little importance."
Philip
smiled at her crudity. "I should
like to hear,
though,
what he said about me. Is he preparing a
warm reception?"
"Oh,
no, not that. I never told him that you
and
Harriet
were coming. You could have taken him by
surprise
if you
liked. He only asked for you, and wished
he hadn't
been so
rude to you eighteen months ago."
"What
a memory the fellow has for little things!" He
turned away
as he spoke, for he did not want her to see his
face. It was suffused with pleasure. For an apology, which
would have
been intolerable eighteen months ago, was
gracious
and agreeable now.
She would
not let this pass. "You did not
think it a
little
thing at the time. You told me he had
assaulted you."
"I
lost my temper," said Philip lightly.
His vanity had
been
appeased, and he knew it. This tiny
piece of civility
had changed
his mood. "Did he really--what
exactly did he
say?"
"He
said he was sorry--pleasantly, as Italians do say
such
things. But he never mentioned the baby
once."
What did
the baby matter when the world was suddenly
right way
up? Philip smiled, and was shocked at
himself for
smiling,
and smiled again. For romance had come
back to
Italy;
there were no cads in her; she was beautiful,
courteous,
lovable, as of old. And Miss
Abbott--she, too,
was
beautiful in her way, for all her gaucheness and
conventionality. She really cared about life, and tried to
live it
properly. And Harriet--even Harriet
tried.
This
admirable change in Philip proceeds from nothing
admirable,
and may therefore provoke the gibes of the
cynical. But angels and other practical people will
accept
it
reverently, and write it down as good.
"The
view from the Rocca (small gratuity) is finest at
sunset,"
he murmured, more to himself than to her.
"And
he never mentioned the baby once," Miss Abbott
repeated. But she had returned to the window, and again
her
finger
pursued the delicate curves. He watched
her in
silence,
and was more attracted to her than he had ever been
before. She really was the strangest mixture.
"The
view from the Rocca--wasn't it fine?"
"What
isn't fine here?" she answered gently, and then
added,
"I wish I was Harriet," throwing an extraordinary
meaning
into the words.
"Because
Harriet--?"
She would
not go further, but he believed that she had
paid homage
to the complexity of life. For her, at
all
events, the
expedition was neither easy nor jolly. Beauty,
evil,
charm, vulgarity, mystery--she also acknowledged this
tangle, in
spite of herself. And her voice thrilled
him
when she
broke silence with "Mr. Herriton--come
here--look at
this!"
She removed
a pile of plates from the Gothic window, and
they leant
out of it. Close opposite, wedged
between mean
houses,
there rose up one of the great towers. It
is your
tower: you
stretch a barricade between it and the hotel, and
the traffic
is blocked in a moment. Farther up,
where the
street
empties out by the church, your connections, the
Merli and
the Capocchi, do likewise. They command the
Piazza, you
the Siena gate. No one can move in
either but
he shall be
instantly slain, either by bows or by crossbows,
or by Greek
fire. Beware, however, of the back
bedroom
windows. For they are menaced by the tower of the
Aldobrandeschi, and before now arrows have stuck quivering
over the
washstand. Guard these windows well,
lest there be
a
repetition of the events of February 1338, when the hotel
was
surprised from the rear, and your dearest friend--you
could just
make out that it was he--was thrown at you over
the stairs.
"It
reaches up to heaven," said Philip, "and down to the
other
place." The summit of the tower was
radiant in the
sun, while
its base was in shadow and pasted over with
advertisements. "Is it to be a symbol of the town?"
She gave no
hint that she understood him. But they
remained
together at the window because it was a little
cooler and
so pleasant. Philip found a certain
grace and
lightness
in his companion which he had never noticed in
England. She was appallingly narrow, but her
consciousness
of wider
things gave to her narrowness a pathetic charm.
He
did not
suspect that he was more graceful too. For
our
vanity is
such that we hold our own characters immutable,
and we are
slow to acknowledge that they have changed, even
for the
better.
Citizens
came out for a little stroll before dinner.
Some of
them stood and gazed at the advertisements on the tower.
"Surely
that isn't an opera-bill?" said Miss Abbott.
Philip put
on his pince-nez. " 'Lucia di Lammermoor.
By the
Master Donizetti. Unique representation. This evening.'
"But
is there an opera? Right up here?"
"Why,
yes. These people know how to live. They would
sooner have
a thing bad than not have it at all. That
is
why they
have got to have so much that is good. However
bad
the
performance is tonight, it will be alive.
Italians
don't love
music silently, like the beastly Germans.
The
audience
takes its share--sometimes more."
"Can't
we go?"
He turned
on her, but not unkindly. "But
we're here to
rescue a
child!"
He cursed
himself for the remark. All the pleasure
and
the light
went out of her face, and she became again Miss
Abbott of Sawston--good, oh, most undoubtedly good, but most
appallingly
dull. Dull and remorseful: it is a
deadly
combination,
and he strove against it in vain till he was
interrupted
by the opening of the dining-room door.
They
started as guiltily as if they had been flirting.
Their
interview had taken such an unexpected course.
Anger,
cynicism,
stubborn morality--all had ended in a feeling of
good-will
towards each other and towards the city which had
received
them. And now Harriet was here--acrid,
indissoluble,
large; the same in Italy as in
England--changing
her disposition never, and her atmosphere
under
protest.
Yet even
Harriet was human, and the better for a little
tea. She did not scold Philip for finding Gino
out, as she
might
reasonably have done. She showered
civilities on Miss
Abbott,
exclaiming again and again that Caroline's visit was
one of the
most fortunate coincidences in the world.
Caroline
did not contradict her.
"You
see him tomorrow at ten, Philip. Well,
don't
forget the
blank cheque. Say an hour for the
business. No,
Italians
are so slow; say two. Twelve
o'clock. Lunch.
Well--then
it's no good going till the evening train.
I can
manage the
baby as far as Florence--"
"My
dear sister, you can't run on like that.
You don't
buy a pair
of gloves in two hours, much less a baby."
"Three
hours, then, or four; or make him learn English
ways. At Florence we get a nurse--"
"But,
Harriet," said Miss Abbott, "what if at first he
was to
refuse?"
"I
don't know the meaning of the word," said Harriet
impressively. "I've told the landlady that Philip and
I
only want
our rooms one night, and we shall keep to it."
"I
dare say it will be all right. But, as I
told you, I
thought the
man I met on the Rocca a strange, difficult
man."
"He's
insolent to ladies, we know. But my
brother can
be trusted
to bring him to his senses. That woman,
Philip,
whom you
saw will carry the baby to the hotel. Of
course
you must
tip her for it. And try, if you can, to
get poor
Lilia's
silver bangles. They were nice quiet
things, and
will do for
Irma. And there is an inlaid box I lent
her--lent,
not gave--to keep her handkerchiefs in. It's
of no
real value;
but this is our only chance. Don't ask
for it;
but if you
see it lying about, just say--"
"No,
Harriet; I'll try for the baby, but for nothing
else. I promise to do that tomorrow, and to do it
in the
way you
wish. But tonight, as we're all tired,
we want a
change of
topic. We want relaxation. We want to go to the
theatre."
"Theatres
here? And at such a moment?"
"We
should hardly enjoy it, with the great interview
impending,"
said Miss Abbott, with an anxious glance at Philip.
He did not
betray her, but said, "Don't you think it's
better than
sitting in all the evening and getting nervous?"
His sister
shook her head. "Mother wouldn't
like it.
It would be
most unsuitable--almost irreverent. Besides
all
that,
foreign theatres are notorious. Don't
you remember
those
letters in the 'Church Family Newspaper'?"
"But
this is an opera--'Lucia di Lammermoor'--Sir Walter
Scott--classical,
you know."
Harriet's
face grew resigned. "Certainly one
has so few
opportunities
of hearing music. It is sure to be very
bad.
But it
might be better than sitting idle all the evening.
We have no
book, and I lost my crochet at Florence."
"Good. Miss Abbott, you are coming too?"
"It is
very kind of you, Mr. Herriton. In some ways I
should
enjoy it; but--excuse the suggestion--I don't think we
ought to go
to cheap seats."
"Good
gracious me!" cried Harriet, "I should never have
thought of
that. As likely as not, we should have
tried to
save money
and sat among the most awful people. One
keeps
on
forgetting this is Italy."
"Unfortunately
I have no evening dress; and if the seats--"
"Oh,
that'll be all right," said Philip, smiling at his
timorous,
scrupulous women-kind. "We'll go as
we are, and
buy the
best we can get. Monteriano
is not formal."
So this
strenuous day of resolutions, plans, alarms,
battles,
victories, defeats, truces, ended at the opera.
Miss Abbott
and Harriet were both a little shame-faced.
They
thought of their friends at Sawston, who were
supposing
them to be
now tilting against the powers of evil. What
would Mrs. Herriton, or Irma, or the curates at the Back
Kitchen say
if they could see the rescue party at a place of
amusement
on the very first day of its mission? Philip,
too,
marvelled at his wish to go. He began to
see that he
was
enjoying his time in Monteriano, in spite of the
tiresomeness
of his companions and the occasional
contrariness
of himself.
He had been
to this theatre many years before, on the
occasion of
a performance of "
it had been
thoroughly done up, in the tints of the
beet-root
and the tomato, and was in many other ways a
credit to
the little town. The orchestra had been
enlarged,
some of the
boxes had terra-cotta draperies, and over each
box was now
suspended an enormous tablet, neatly framed,
bearing
upon it the number of that box. There
was also a
drop-scene,
representing a pink and purple landscape,
wherein
sported many a lady lightly clad, and two more
ladies lay
along the top of the proscenium to steady a large
and pallid
clock. So rich and so appalling was the
effect,
that Philip
could scarcely suppress a cry. There is
something
majestic in the bad taste of Italy; it is not the
bad taste
of a country which knows no better; it has not the
nervous
vulgarity of England, or the blinded vulgarity of
Germany. It observes beauty, and chooses to pass it
by.
But it
attains to beauty's confidence. This
tiny theatre of
Monteriano
spraddled and swaggered with the best of them,
and these
ladies with their clock would have nodded to the
young men
on the ceiling of the Sistine.
Philip had
tried for a box, but all the best were taken:
it was
rather a grand performance, and he had to be content
with
stalls. Harriet was fretful and
insular. Miss Abbott
was
pleasant, and insisted on praising everything: her only
regret was
that she had no pretty clothes with her.
"We do
all right," said Philip, amused at her unwonted vanity.
"Yes,
I know; but pretty things pack as easily as ugly
ones. We had no need to come to Italy like
guys."
This time
he did not reply, "But we're here to rescue a
baby." For he saw a charming picture, as charming a
picture
as he had
seen for years--the hot red theatre; outside the
theatre,
towers and dark gates and mediaeval walls; beyond
the walls
olive-trees in the starlight and white winding
roads and
fireflies and untroubled dust; and here in the
middle of
it all, Miss Abbott, wishing she had not come
looking
like a guy. She had made the right
remark. Most
undoubtedly
she had made the right remark. This
stiff
suburban
woman was unbending before the shrine.
"Don't
you like it at all?" he asked her.
"Most
awfully." And by this bald
interchange they
convinced
each other that Romance was here.
Harriet,
meanwhile, had been coughing ominously at the
drop-scene,
which presently rose on the grounds of
Ravenswood,
and the chorus of Scotch retainers burst into
cry. The audience accompanied with tappings and drummings,
swaying in
the melody like corn in the wind. Harriet,
though she
did not care for music, knew how to listen to
it. She uttered an acid "Shish!"
"Shut
it," whispered her brother.
"We
must make a stand from the beginning. They're
talking."
"It is
tiresome," murmured Miss Abbott; "but perhaps it
isn't for
us to interfere."
Harriet
shook her head and shished again. The people
were quiet,
not because it is wrong to talk during a chorus,
but because
it is natural to be civil to a visitor. For
a
little time
she kept the whole house in order, and could
smile at
her brother complacently.
Her success
annoyed him. He had grasped the
principle
of opera in
Italy--it aims not at illusion but at
entertainment--and
he did not want this great evening-party
to turn
into a prayer-meeting. But soon the
boxes began to
fill, and
Harriet's power was over. Families
greeted each
other
across the auditorium. People in the pit
hailed their
brothers
and sons in the chorus, and told them how well they
were
singing. When Lucia appeared by the
fountain there was
loud
applause, and cries of "Welcome to Monteriano!"
"Ridiculous
babies!" said Harriet, settling down in her stall.
"Why,
it is the famous hot lady of the Apennines," cried
Philip;
"the one who had never, never before--"
"Ugh! Don't.
She will be very vulgar. And I'm
sure
it's even
worse here than in the tunnel. I wish
we'd never--"
Lucia began
to sing, and there was a moment's silence.
She was
stout and ugly; but her voice was still beautiful,
and as she
sang the theatre murmured like a hive of happy
bees. All through the coloratura she was
accompanied by
sighs, and
its top note was drowned in a shout of universal joy.
So the
opera proceeded. The singers drew
inspiration
from the
audience, and the two great sextettes were rendered
not
unworthily. Miss Abbott fell into the
spirit of the
thing. She, too, chatted and laughed and applauded
and
encored,
and rejoiced in the existence of beauty.
As for
Philip, he
forgot himself as well as his mission. He
was
not even an
enthusiastic visitor. For he had been in
this
place
always. It was his home.
Harriet,
like M. Bovary on a more famous occasion, was
trying to
follow the plot. Occasionally she nudged
her
companions,
and asked them what had become of Walter Scott.
She looked
round grimly. The audience sounded
drunk, and
even
Caroline, who never took a drop, was swaying oddly.
Violent
waves of excitement, all arising from very little,
went
sweeping round the theatre. The climax
was reached in
the mad
scene. Lucia, clad in white, as befitted
her
malady,
suddenly gathered up her streaming hair and bowed
her
acknowledgment to the audience. Then
from the back of
the
stage--she feigned not to see it--there advanced a kind of
bamboo
clothes-horse, stuck all over with bouquets.
It was
very ugly,
and most of the flowers in it were false. Lucia
knew this,
and so did the audience; and they all knew that
the
clothes-horse was a piece of stage property, brought in
to make the
performance go year after year. None the
less
did it
unloose the great deeps. With a scream
of amazement
and joy she
embraced the animal, pulled out one or two
practicable
blossoms, pressed them to her lips, and flung
them into
her admirers. They flung them back, with
loud
melodious
cries, and a little boy in one of the stageboxes
snatched up
his sister's carnations and offered them.
"Che
carino!"
exclaimed the singer. She darted at the
little boy
and kissed
him. Now the noise became tremendous.
"Silence! silence!" shouted many old gentlemen
behind.
"Let
the divine creature continue!" But
the young men in
the
adjacent box were imploring Lucia to extend her civility
to
them. She refused, with a humorous,
expressive gesture.
One of them
hurled a bouquet at her. She spurned it
with
her
foot. Then, encouraged by the roars of
the audience,
she picked
it up and tossed it to them. Harriet was
always
unfortunate. The bouquet struck her full in the chest, and
a little
billet-doux fell out of it into her lap.
"Call
this classical!" she cried, rising from her seat.
"It's
not even respectable! Philip! take me out at once."
"Whose
is it?" shouted her brother, holding up the
bouquet in
one hand and the billet-doux in the other.
"Whose
is it?"
The house
exploded, and one of the boxes was violently
agitated,
as if some one was being hauled to the front.
Harriet
moved down the gangway, and compelled Miss Abbott to
follow
her. Philip, still laughing and calling
"Whose is
it?"
brought up the rear. He was drunk with
excitement.
The heat,
the fatigue, and the enjoyment had mounted into
his head.
"To
the left!" the people cried. "The
innamorato is to
the
left."
He deserted
his ladies and plunged towards the box. A
young man
was flung stomach downwards across the
balustrade. Philip handed him up the bouquet and the
note.
Then his
own hands were seized affectionately. It
all
seemed
quite natural.
"Why
have you not written?" cried the young man. "Why
do you take
me by surprise?"
"Oh,
I've written," said Philip hilariously.
"I left a
note this
afternoon."
"Silence! silence!" cried the audience, who were
beginning
to have enough. "Let the divine
creature
continue." Miss Abbott and Harriet had disappeared.
"No! no!" cried the young man. "You don't escape me
now." For Philip was trying feebly to disengage his
hands.
Amiable
youths bent out of the box and invited him to enter it.
"Gino's
friends are ours--"
"Friends?"
cried Gino. "A relative! A brother!
Fra
Filippo,
who has come all the way from England and never written."
"I
left a message."
The
audience began to hiss.
"Come
in to us."
"Thank
you--ladies--there is not time--"
The next
moment he was swinging by his arms. The
moment
after he
shot over the balustrade into the box. Then
the
conductor,
seeing that the incident was over, raised his
baton. The house was hushed, and Lucia di Lammermoor
resumed her
song of madness and death.
Philip had
whispered introductions to the pleasant
people who
had pulled him in--tradesmen's sons perhaps they
were, or
medical students, or solicitors' clerks, or sons of
other
dentists. There is no knowing who is who
in Italy.
The guest
of the evening was a private soldier. He
shared
the honour
now with Philip. The two had to stand
side by
side in the
front, and exchange compliments, whilst Gino
presided,
courteous, but delightfully familiar. Philip
would have
a spasm of horror at the muddle he had made.
But
the spasm
would pass, and again he would be enchanted by the
kind,
cheerful voices, the laughter that was never vapid,
and the
light caress of the arm across his back.
He could
not get away till the play was nearly finished,
and Edgardo was singing amongst the tombs of ancestors. His
new friends
hoped to see him at the Garibaldi tomorrow
evening. He promised; then he remembered that if they
kept
to
Harriet's plan he would have left Monteriano. "At ten
o'clock,
then," he said to Gino. "I
want to speak to you
alone. At ten."
"Certainly!"
laughed the other.
Miss Abbott
was sitting up for him when he got back.
Harriet, it
seemed, had gone straight to bed.
"That
was he, wasn't it?" she asked.
"Yes,
rather."
"I
suppose you didn't settle anything?"
"Why,
no; how could I? The fact is--well, I
got taken by
surprise,
but after all, what does it matter? There's
no
earthly
reason why we shouldn't do the business pleasantly.
He's a
perfectly charming person, and so are his friends.
I'm his
friend now--his long-lost brother. What's
the harm?
I tell you,
Miss Abbott, it's one thing for England and
another for
Italy. There we plan and get on high
moral
horses. Here we find what asses we are, for things go
off
quite
easily, all by themselves. My hat, what
a night! Did
you ever
see a really purple sky and really silver stars
before? Well, as I was saying, it's absurd to worry;
he's
not a porky
father. He wants that baby as little as
I do.
He's been
ragging my dear mother--just as he ragged me
eighteen
months ago, and I've forgiven him. Oh,
but he has
a sense of
humour!"
Miss
Abbott, too, had a wonderful evening, nor did she
ever
remember such stars or such a sky. Her
head, too, was
full of
music, and that night when she opened the window her
room was
filled with warm, sweet air. She was
bathed in
beauty
within and without; she could not go to bed for
happiness. Had she ever been so happy before? Yes, once
before, and
here, a night in March, the night Gino and Lilia
had told
her of their love--the night whose evil she had come
now to
undo.
She gave a
sudden cry of shame. "This
time--the same
place--the
same thing"--and she began to beat down her
happiness,
knowing it to be sinful. She was here to
fight
against
this place, to rescue a little soul--who was innocent
as
yet. She was here to champion morality
and purity, and
the holy
life of an English home. In the spring
she had
sinned
through ignorance; she was not ignorant now.
"Help
me!"
she cried, and shut the window as if there was magic in
the
encircling air. But the tunes would not
go out of her
head, and
all night long she was troubled by torrents of
music, and
by applause and laughter, and angry young men who
shouted the
distich out of Baedeker:--
Poggibonizzi fatti in la,
Che Monteriano si fa citta!
Poggibonsi
was revealed to her as they sang--a joyless,
straggling
place, full of people who pretended. When
she
woke up she
knew that it had been Sawston.
Chapter 7
At about
nine o'clock next morning Perfetta went out on to
the loggia,
not to look at the view, but to throw some dirty
water at
it. "Scusi
tanto!" she wailed, for the water
spattered a
tall young lady who had for some time been
tapping at
the lower door.
"Is
Signor Carella in?" the young lady asked. It was no
business of
Perfetta's to be shocked, and the style of the
visitor
seemed to demand the reception-room. Accordingly
she opened
its shutters, dusted a round patch on one of the
horsehair
chairs, and bade the lady do herself the
inconvenience
of sitting down. Then she ran into Monteriano
and shouted
up and down its streets until such time as her
young
master should hear her.
The
reception-room was sacred to the dead wife.
Her
shiny
portrait hung upon the wall--similar, doubtless, in all
respects to
the one which would be pasted on her tombstone.
A little
piece of black drapery had been tacked above the
frame to
lend a dignity to woe. But two of the
tacks had
fallen out,
and the effect was now rakish, as of a
drunkard's
bonnet. A coon song lay open on the
piano, and
of the two
tables one supported Baedeker's "Central Italy,"
the other
Harriet's inlaid box. And over
everything there
lay a
deposit of heavy white dust, which was only blown off
one moment
to thicken on another. It is well to be
remembered
with love. It is not so very dreadful to
be
forgotten
entirely. But if we shall resent
anything on
earth at
all, we shall resent the consecration of a deserted
room.
Miss Abbott
did not sit down, partly because the
antimacassars
might harbour fleas, partly because she had
suddenly
felt faint, and was glad to cling on to the funnel
of the
stove. She struggled with herself, for
she had need
to be very
calm; only if she was very calm might her
behaviour
be justified. She had broken faith with
Philip
and
Harriet: she was going to try for the baby before they
did. If she failed she could scarcely look them in
the face
again.
"Harriet
and her brother," she reasoned, "don't realize
what is
before them. She would bluster and be
rude; he
would be
pleasant and take it as a joke. Both of
them--even
if they
offered money--would fail. But I begin
to understand
the man's
nature; he does not love the child, but he will be
touchy
about it--and that is quite as bad for us.
He's
charming,
but he's no fool; he conquered me last year; he
conquered
Mr. Herriton yesterday, and if I am not careful he
will
conquer us all today, and the baby will grow up in
Monteriano. He is terribly strong; Lilia found that out,
but only I
remember it now."
This
attempt, and this justification of it, were the
results of
the long and restless night. Miss Abbott
had
come to
believe that she alone could do battle with Gino,
because she
alone understood him; and she had put this, as
nicely as
she could, in a note which she had left for
Philip. It distressed her to write such a note,
partly
because her
education inclined her to reverence the male,
partly
because she had got to like Philip a good deal after
their last
strange interview. His pettiness would
be
dispersed,
and as for his "unconventionality," which was so
much
gossiped about at Sawston, she began to see that it
did
not differ
greatly from certain familiar notions of her
own. If only he would forgive her for what she was
doing
now, there
might perhaps be before them a long and
profitable
friendship. But she must succeed. No one would
forgive her
if she did not succeed. She prepared to
do
battle with
the powers of evil.
The voice
of her adversary was heard at last, singing
fearlessly
from his expanded lungs, like a professional.
Herein he
differed from Englishmen, who always have a little
feeling
against music, and sing only from the throat,
apologetically. He padded upstairs, and looked in at the
open door
of the reception-room without seeing her.
Her
heart leapt
and her throat was dry when he turned away and
passed,
still singing, into the room opposite. It
is
alarming
not to be seen.
He had left
the door of this room open, and she could
see into
it, right across the landing. It was in
a shocking
mess. Food, bedclothes, patent-leather boots, dirty
plates,
and knives
lay strewn over a large table and on the floor.
But it was
the mess that comes of life, not of desolation.
It was
preferable to the charnel-chamber in which she was
standing
now, and the light in it was soft and large, as
from some
gracious, noble opening.
He stopped
singing, and cried "Where is Perfetta?"
His back
was turned, and he was lighting a cigar.
He
was not
speaking to Miss Abbott. He could not
even be
expecting
her. The vista of the landing and the
two open
doors made
him both remote and significant, like an actor on
the stage,
intimate and unapproachable at the same time.
She could
no more call out to him than if he was Hamlet.
"You
know!" he continued, "but you will not tell me.
Exactly
like you." He reclined on the table
and blew a fat
smoke-ring. "And why won't you tell me the
numbers? I have
dreamt of a
red hen--that is two hundred and five, and a
friend
unexpected--he means eighty-two. But I
try for the
Terno
this week. So tell me another number."
Miss Abbott
did not know of the Tombola. His speech
terrified
her. She felt those subtle restrictions
which
come upon
us in fatigue. Had she slept well she
would have
greeted him
as soon as she saw him. Now it was
impossible.
He had got
into another world.
She watched
his smoke-ring. The air had carried it
slowly away
from him, and brought it out intact upon the landing.
"Two
hundred and five--eighty-two. In any
case I shall
put them on
Bari, not on Florence. I cannot tell you
why; I
have a feeling
this week for Bari." Again she
tried to
speak. But the ring mesmerized her. It had become vast and
elliptical,
and floated in at the reception-room door.
"Ah! you don't care if you get the profits. You won't
even say
'Thank you, Gino.' Say it, or I'll drop hot,
red-hot
ashes on you. 'Thank you, Gino--'"
The ring
had extended its pale blue coils towards her.
She lost
self-control. It enveloped her. As if it was a
breath from
the pit, she screamed.
There he
was, wanting to know what had frightened her,
how she had
got here, why she had never spoken. He
made her
sit
down. He brought her wine, which she
refused. She had
not one
word to say to him.
"What
is it?" he repeated. "What has
frightened you?"
He, too,
was frightened, and perspiration came starting
through the
tan. For it is a serious thing to have
been
watched. We all radiate something curiously intimate
when
we believe
ourselves to be alone.
"Business--"
she said at last.
"Business
with me?"
"Most
important business." She was lying,
white and
limp, in
the dusty chair.
"Before
business you must get well; this is the best wine."
She refused
it feebly. He poured out a glass. She
drank
it. As she did so she became
self-conscious. However
important
the business, it was not proper of her to have
called on
him, or to accept his hospitality.
"Perhaps
you are engaged," she said. "And
as I am not
very
well--"
"You
are not well enough to go back. And I am
not engaged."
She looked
nervously at the other room.
"Ah,
now I understand," he exclaimed. "Now
I see what
frightened
you. But why did you never
speak?" And taking
her into
the room where he lived, he pointed to--the baby.
She had
thought so much about this baby, of its welfare,
its soul,
its morals, its probable defects. But,
like most
unmarried
people, she had only thought of it as a word--just
as the
healthy man only thinks of the word death, not of
death
itself. The real thing, lying asleep on
a dirty rug,
disconcerted
her. It did not stand for a principle
any
longer. It was so much flesh and blood, so many
inches and
ounces of
life--a glorious, unquestionable fact, which a man
and another
woman had given to the world. You could
talk to
it; in time
it would answer you; in time it would not answer
you unless
it chose, but would secrete, within the compass
of its
body, thoughts and wonderful passions of its own.
And this
was the machine on which she and Mrs. Herriton and
Philip and
Harriet had for the last month been exercising
their
various ideals--had determined that in time it should
move this
way or that way, should accomplish this and not
that. It was to be Low Church, it was to be
high-principled,
it was to be tactful, gentlemanly,
artistic--excellent
things all. Yet now that she saw this
baby, lying
asleep on a dirty rug, she had a great
disposition
not to dictate one of them, and to exert no more
influence
than there may be in a kiss or in the vaguest of
the
heartfelt prayers.
But she had
practised self-discipline, and her thoughts
and actions
were not yet to correspond. To recover
her
self-esteem
she tried to imagine that she was in her
district,
and to behave accordingly.
"What
a fine child, Signor Carella. And how nice of you
to talk to
it. Though I see that the ungrateful little
fellow is
asleep! Seven months? No, eight; of course
eight. Still, he is a remarkably fine child for his
age."
Italian is
a bad medium for condescension. The
patronizing
words came out gracious and sincere, and he
smiled with
pleasure.
"You
must not stand. Let us sit on the
loggia, where it
is
cool. I am afraid the room is very
untidy," he added,
with the
air of a hostess who apologizes for a stray thread
on the
drawing-room carpet. Miss Abbott picked
her way to
the
chair. He sat near her, astride the
parapet, with one
foot in the
loggia and the other dangling into the view.
His face
was in profile, and its beautiful contours drove
artfully
against the misty green of the opposing hills.
"Posing!"
said Miss Abbott to herself. "A
born artist's model."
"Mr. Herriton called yesterday," she began, "but you
were
out."
He started
an elaborate and graceful explanation. He
had gone
for the day to Poggibonsi. Why had the Herritons
not written
to him, so that he could have received them
properly? Poggibonsi would
have done any day; not but what
his
business there was fairly important. What
did she
suppose
that it was?
Naturally
she was not greatly interested. She had
not
come from Sawston to guess why he had been to Poggibonsi.
She
answered politely that she had no idea, and returned to
her
mission.
"But
guess!" he persisted, clapping the balustrade
between his
hands.
She
suggested, with gentle sarcasm, that perhaps he had
gone to Poggibonsi to find something to do.
He
intimated that it was not as important as all that.
Something
to do--an almost hopeless quest! "E
manca
questo!" He rubbed his thumb and forefinger together,
to
indicate
that he had no money. Then he sighed,
and blew
another
smoke-ring. Miss Abbott took heart and
turned
diplomatic.
"This
house," she said, "is a large house."
"Exactly,"
was his gloomy reply. "And when my
poor wife
died--" He got up, went in, and walked across the
landing to
the
reception-room door, which he closed reverently. Then
he shut the
door of the living-room with his foot, returned
briskly to
his seat, and continued his sentence. "When
my
poor wife
died I thought of having my relatives to live
here. My father wished to give up his practice at Empoli;
my mother
and sisters and two aunts were also willing.
But
it was impossible. They have their ways of doing things,
and when I
was younger I was content with them. But
now I
am a
man. I have my own ways. Do you understand?"
"Yes,
I do," said Miss Abbott, thinking of her own dear
father,
whose tricks and habits, after twenty-five years
spent in
their company, were beginning to get on her
nerves. She remembered, though, that she was not here
to
sympathize
with Gino--at all events, not to show that she
sympathized. She also reminded herself that he was not
worthy of
sympathy. "It is a large
house," she repeated.
"Immense;
and the taxes! But it will be better
when--Ah! but you have never guessed why I went to
Poggibonsi--why
it was that I was out when he called."
"I
cannot guess, Signor Carella. I am here on business."
"But
try."
"I
cannot; I hardly know you."
"But
we are old friends," he said, "and your approval
will be
grateful to me. You gave it me once
before. Will
you give it
now?"
"I
have not come as a friend this time," she answered
stiffly. "I am not likely, Signor Carella, to approve of
anything
you do."
"Oh, Signorina!" He
laughed, as if he found her piquant
and
amusing. "Surely you approve of
marriage?"
"Where
there is love," said Miss Abbott, looking at him
hard. His face had altered in the last year, but
not for
the worse,
which was baffling.
"Where
there is love," said he, politely echoing the
English
view. Then he smiled on her, expecting
congratulations.
"Do I
understand that you are proposing to marry again?"
He nodded.
"I
forbid you, then!"
He looked
puzzled, but took it for some foreign banter,
and
laughed.
"I
forbid you!" repeated Miss Abbott, and all the
indignation
of her sex and her nationality went thrilling
through the
words.
"But
why?" He jumped up, frowning. His voice was
squeaky and
petulant, like that of a child who is suddenly
forbidden a
toy.
"You
have ruined one woman; I forbid you to ruin
another. It is not a year since Lilia died. You pretended
to me the
other day that you loved her. It is a
lie. You
wanted her money. Has this woman money too?"
"Why,
yes!" he said irritably. "A
little."
"And I
suppose you will say that you love her."
"I
shall not say it. It will be
untrue. Now my poor
wife--" He stopped, seeing that the comparison would
involve
him in difficulties. And indeed he had often found Lilia as
agreeable
as any one else.
Miss Abbott
was furious at this final insult to her dead
acquaintance. She was glad that after all she could be so
angry with
the boy. She glowed and throbbed; her
tongue
moved
nimbly. At the finish, if the real
business of the
day had
been completed, she could have swept majestically
from the
house. But the baby still remained,
asleep on a
dirty rug.
Gino was
thoughtful, and stood scratching his head.
He
respected
Miss Abbott. He wished that she would
respect
him. "So you do not advise me?" he said
dolefully. "But
why should
it be a failure?"
Miss Abbott
tried to remember that he was really a child
still--a
child with the strength and the passions of a
disreputable
man. "How can it succeed," she
said solemnly,
"where
there is no love?"
"But
she does love me! I forgot to tell you
that."
"Indeed."
"Passionately." He laid his hand upon his own heart.
"Then
God help her!"
He stamped
impatiently. "Whatever I say displeases
you,
Signorina. God help you, for you are most unfair. You say
that I
ill-treated my dear wife. It is not
so. I have
never
ill-treated any one. You complain that
there is no
love in
this marriage. I prove that there is,
and you
become
still more angry. What do you want? Do you suppose
she will
not be contented? Glad enough she is to
get me,
and she
will do her duty well."
"Her
duty!" cried Miss Abbott, with all the bitterness
of which
she was capable.
"Why,
of course. She knows why I am marrying
her."
"To
succeed where Lilia failed! To be your
housekeeper,
your slave,
you--" The words she would like to
have said
were too
violent for her.
"To
look after the baby, certainly," said he.
"The
baby--?" She had forgotten it.
"It is
an English marriage," he said proudly.
"I do not
care about
the money. I am having her for my
son. Did you
not
understand that?"
"No,"
said Miss Abbott, utterly bewildered. Then,
for a
moment, she
saw light. "It is not necessary,
Signor
Carella. Since you are tired of the baby--"
Ever after
she remembered it to her credit that she saw
her mistake
at once. "I don't mean that,"
she added quickly.
"I
know," was his courteous response. "Ah,
in a foreign
language
(and how perfectly you speak Italian) one is
certain to
make slips."
She looked
at his face. It was apparently innocent
of satire.
"You
meant that we could not always be together yet, he
and I. You are right. What is to be done? I cannot afford
a nurse,
and Perfetta is too rough. When he was ill I dare
not let her
touch him. When he has to be washed,
which
happens now
and then, who does it? I. I feed him, or
settle
what he
shall have. I sleep with him and comfort
him when
he is
unhappy in the night. No one talks, no
one may sing
to him but I.
Do not be unfair this time; I like to do these
things. But nevertheless (his voice became pathetic)
they
take up a
great deal of time, and are not all suitable for a
young
man."
"Not
at all suitable," said Miss Abbott, and closed her
eyes
wearily. Each moment her difficulties
were
increasing. She wished that she was not so tired, so open
to
contradictory impressions. She longed
for Harriet's
burly
obtuseness or for the soulless diplomacy of Mrs. Herriton.
"A
little more wine?" asked Gino kindly.
"Oh,
no, thank you! But marriage, Signor Carella, is a
very
serious step. Could you not manage more
simply? Your
relative,
for example--"
"Empoli! I would as
soon have him in England!"
"England,
then--"
He laughed.
"He
has a grandmother there, you know--Mrs. Theobald."
"He
has a grandmother here. No, he is
troublesome, but
I must have
him with me. I will not even have my
father and
mother
too. For they would separate us,"
he added.
"How?"
"They
would separate our thoughts."
She was
silent. This cruel, vicious fellow knew
of
strange
refinements. The horrible truth, that
wicked people
are capable
of love, stood naked before her, and her moral
being was
abashed. It was her duty to rescue the
baby, to
save it
from contagion, and she still meant to do her duty.
But the
comfortable sense of virtue left her. She
was in
the
presence of something greater than right or wrong.
Forgetting
that this was an interview, he had strolled
back into
the room, driven by the instinct she had aroused
in
him. "Wake up!" he cried to
his baby, as if it was some
grown-up
friend. Then he lifted his foot and trod
lightly
on its
stomach.
Miss Abbott
cried, "Oh, take care!" She
was
unaccustomed
to this method of awakening the young.
"He is
not much longer than my boot, is he? Can
you
believe
that in time his own boots will be as large?
And
that he
also--"
"But
ought you to treat him like that?"
He stood
with one foot resting on the little body,
suddenly
musing, filled with the desire that his son should
be like him,
and should have sons like him, to people the
earth. It is the strongest desire that can come to a
man--if
it comes to
him at all--stronger even than love or the desire
for
personal immortality. All men vaunt it,
and declare
that it is
theirs; but the hearts of most are set
elsewhere. It is the exception who comprehends that
physical
and spiritual life may stream out of him for ever.
Miss
Abbott, for all her goodness, could not comprehend it,
though such
a thing is more within the comprehension of
women. And when Gino pointed first to himself and
then to
his baby
and said "father-son," she still took it as a piece
of nursery
prattle, and smiled mechanically.
The child,
the first fruits, woke up and glared at her.
Gino did
not greet it, but continued the exposition of his policy.
"This
woman will do exactly what I tell her. She
is
fond of
children. She is clean; she has a
pleasant voice.
She is not
beautiful; I cannot pretend that to you for a
moment. But she is what I require."
The baby
gave a piercing yell.
"Oh,
do take care!" begged Miss Abbott. "You
are
squeezing
it."
"It is
nothing. If he cries silently then you
may be
frightened. He thinks I am going to wash him, and he is
quite
right."
"Wash
him!" she cried. "You? Here?"
The homely piece
of news
seemed to shatter all her plans. She had
spent a
long
half-hour in elaborate approaches, in high moral
attacks;
she had neither frightened her enemy nor made him
angry, nor
interfered with the least detail of his domestic life.
"I had
gone to the Farmacia," he continued, "and
was
sitting
there comfortably, when suddenly I remembered that
Perfetta
had heated water an hour ago--over there, look,
covered
with a cushion. I came away at once, for
really he
must be
washed. You must excuse me. I can put it off no longer."
"I
have wasted your time," she said feebly.
He walked
sternly to the loggia and drew from it a large
earthenware
bowl. It was dirty inside; he dusted it
with a
tablecloth. Then he fetched the hot water, which was in a
copper
pot. He poured it out. He added cold. He felt in
his pocket
and brought out a piece of soap. Then he
took up
the baby,
and, holding his cigar between his teeth, began to
unwrap
it. Miss Abbott turned to go.
"But
why are you going? Excuse me if I wash
him while
we
talk."
"I
have nothing more to say," said Miss Abbott. All she
could do
now was to find Philip, confess her miserable
defeat, and
bid him go in her stead and prosper better.
She
cursed her
feebleness; she longed to expose it, without
apologies
or tears.
"Oh,
but stop a moment!" he cried. "You
have not seen
him
yet."
"I
have seen as much as I want, thank you."
The last
wrapping slid off. He held out to her in
his
two hands a
little kicking image of bronze.
"Take
him!"
She would not
touch the child.
"I
must go at once," she cried; for the tears--the wrong
tears--were
hurrying to her eyes.
"Who
would have believed his mother was blonde?
For he
is brown
all over--brown every inch of him. Ah,
but how
beautiful
he is! And he is mine; mine for
ever. Even if he
hates me he
will be mine. He cannot help it; he is
made out
of me; I am
his father."
It was too
late to go. She could not tell why, but
it
was too
late. She turned away her head when Gino
lifted his
son to his
lips. This was something too remote from
the
prettiness
of the nursery. The man was majestic; he
was a
part of
Nature; in no ordinary love scene could he ever be
so
great. For a wonderful physical tie
binds the parents to
the
children; and--by some sad, strange irony--it does not
bind us
children to our parents. For if it did,
if we could
answer
their love not with gratitude but with equal love,
life would
lose much of its pathos and much of its squalor,
and we
might be wonderfully happy. Gino
passionately
embracing,
Miss Abbott reverently averting her eyes--both of
them had
parents whom they did not love so very much.
"May I
help you to wash him?" she asked humbly.
He gave her
his son without speaking, and they knelt
side by
side, tucking up their sleeves. The
child had
stopped
crying, and his arms and legs were agitated by some
overpowering
joy. Miss Abbott had a woman's pleasure
in
cleaning
anything--more especially when the thing was human.
She
understood little babies from long experience in a
district, and
Gino soon ceased to give her directions, and
only gave
her thanks.
"It is
very kind of you," he murmured, "especially in
your
beautiful dress. He is nearly clean
already. Why, I
take the
whole morning! There is so much more of
a baby
than one
expects. And Perfetta
washes him just as she
washes
clothes. Then he screams for hours. My wife is to
have a
light hand. Ah, how he kicks! Has he splashed you?
I am very
sorry."
"I am
ready for a soft towel now," said Miss Abbott, who
was
strangely exalted by the service.
"Certainly! certainly!" He strode in a knowing way to
a
cupboard. But he had no idea where the
soft towel was.
Generally
he dabbed the baby on the first dry thing he found.
"And
if you had any powder."
He struck
his forehead despairingly. Apparently
the
stock of
powder was just exhausted.
She
sacrificed her own clean handkerchief. He
put a
chair for
her on the loggia, which faced westward, and was
still
pleasant and cool. There she sat, with
twenty miles
of view
behind her, and he placed the dripping baby on her
knee. It shone now with health and beauty: it
seemed to
reflect
light, like a copper vessel. Just such a
baby
Bellini
sets languid on his mother's lap, or Signorelli
flings
wriggling on pavements of marble, or Lorenzo di
Credi,
more reverent but less divine, lays carefully among
flowers,
with his head upon a wisp of golden straw.
For a
time Gino
contemplated them standing. Then, to get
a better
view, he
knelt by the side of the chair, with his hands
clasped
before him.
So they
were when Philip entered, and saw, to all
intents and
purposes, the Virgin and Child, with Donor.
"Hullo!"
he exclaimed; for he was glad to find things in
such
cheerful trim.
She did not
greet him, but rose up unsteadily and handed
the baby to
his father.
"No,
do stop!" whispered Philip. "I
got your note. I'm
not
offended; you're quite right. I really
want you; I
could never
have done it alone."
No words
came from her, but she raised her hands to her
mouth, like
one who is in sudden agony.
"Signorina, do stop a little--after all your kindness."
She burst
into tears.
"What
is it?" said Philip kindly.
She tried
to speak, and then went away weeping bitterly.
The two men
stared at each other. By a common
impulse
they ran on
to the loggia. They were just in time to
see
Miss Abbott
disappear among the trees.
"What
is it?" asked Philip again. There
was no answer,
and somehow
he did not want an answer. Some strange
thing
had
happened which he could not presume to understand. He
would find out
from Miss Abbott, if ever he found out at all.
"Well,
your business," said Gino, after a puzzled sigh.
"Our
business--Miss Abbott has told you of that."
"No."
"But
surely--"
"She
came for business. But she forgot about
it; so did I."
Perfetta,
who had a genius for missing people, now
returned,
loudly complaining of the size of Monteriano and
the
intricacies of its streets. Gino told
her to watch the
baby. Then he offered Philip a cigar, and they
proceeded to
the
business.
Chapter 8
"Mad!"
screamed Harriet,--"absolutely stark, staring, raving mad!"
Philip
judged it better not to contradict her.
"What's
she here for? Answer me that. What's she doing
in Monteriano in August?
Why isn't she in Normandy? Answer
that. She won't.
I can: she's come to thwart us; she's
betrayed
us--got hold of mother's plans. Oh,
goodness, my head!"
He was
unwise enough to reply, "You mustn't accuse her
of
that. Though she is exasperating, she
hasn't come here
to betray
us."
"Then
why has she come here? Answer me
that."
He made no
answer. But fortunately his sister was
too
much
agitated to wait for one. "Bursting
in on me--crying
and looking
a disgusting sight--and says she has been to see
the
Italian. Couldn't even talk properly;
pretended she had
changed her
opinions. What are her opinions to
us? I was
very
calm. I said: 'Miss Abbott, I think
there is a little
misapprehension
in this matter. My mother, Mrs. Herriton--'
Oh,
goodness, my head! Of course you've
failed--don't
trouble to
answer--I know you've failed. Where's
the baby,
pray? Of course you haven't got it. Dear sweet Caroline
won't let
you. Oh, yes, and we're to go away at
once and
trouble the
father no more. Those are her commands.
Commands! COMMANDS!" And Harriet also burst into tears.
Philip
governed his temper. His sister was
annoying,
but quite
reasonable in her indignation. Moreover,
Miss
Abbott had
behaved even worse than she supposed.
"I've
not got the baby, Harriet, but at the same time I
haven't
exactly failed. I and Signor Carella are to have
another
interview this afternoon, at the Caffe Garibaldi.
He is
perfectly reasonable and pleasant. Should
you be
disposed to
come with me, you would find him quite willing
to discuss
things. He is desperately in want of
money, and
has no
prospect of getting any. I discovered
that. At the
same time,
he has a certain affection for the child."
For
Philip's
insight, or perhaps his opportunities, had not been
equal to
Miss Abbott's.
Harriet
would only sob, and accuse her brother of
insulting
her; how could a lady speak to such a horrible
man? That, and nothing else, was enough to stamp
Caroline.
Oh, poor
Lilia!
Philip
drummed on the bedroom window-sill. He
saw no
escape from
the deadlock. For though he spoke
cheerfully
about his
second interview with Gino, he felt at the bottom
of his
heart that it would fail. Gino was too
courteous: he
would not
break off negotiations by sharp denial; he loved
this civil,
half-humorous bargaining. And he loved
fooling
his
opponent, and did it so nicely that his opponent did not
mind being
fooled.
"Miss
Abbott has behaved extraordinarily," he said at
last;
"but at the same time--"
His sister
would not hear him. She burst forth
again on
the
madness, the interference, the intolerable duplicity of
Caroline.
"Harriet,
you must listen. My dear, you must stop
crying. I have something quite important to
say."
"I
shall not stop crying," said she. But
in time,
finding
that he would not speak to her, she did stop.
"Remember
that Miss Abbott has done us no harm. She
said
nothing to him about the matter. He
assumes that she
is working
with us: I gathered that."
"Well,
she isn't."
"Yes;
but if you're careful she may be. I
interpret her
behaviour
thus: She went to see him, honestly intending to
get the
child away. In the note she left me she
says so,
and I don't
believe she'd lie."
"I
do."
"When
she got there, there was some pretty domestic
scene
between him and the baby, and she has got swept off in
a gush of
sentimentalism. Before very long, if I
know
anything
about psychology, there will be a reaction.
She'll
be swept
back."
"I
don't understand your long words. Say
plainly--"
"When
she's swept back, she'll be invaluable. For
she
has made
quite an impression on him. He thinks
her so nice
with the
baby. You know, she washed it for
him."
"Disgusting!"
Harriet's
ejaculations were more aggravating than the
rest of
her. But Philip was averse to losing his
temper.
The access
of joy that had come to him yesterday in the
theatre
promised to be permanent. He was more
anxious than
heretofore
to be charitable towards the world.
"If
you want to carry off the baby, keep your peace with
Miss
Abbott. For if she chooses, she can help
you better
than I
can."
"There
can be no peace between me and her," said Harriet
gloomily.
"Did
you--"
"Oh,
not all I wanted. She went away before I
had
finished
speaking--just like those cowardly people! --into the
church."
"Into
Santa Deodata's?"
"Yes;
I'm sure she needs it. Anything more
unchristian--"
In time
Philip went to the church also, leaving his
sister a
little calmer and a little disposed to think over
his
advice. What had come over Miss
Abbott? He had always
thought her
both stable and sincere. That
conversation he
had had
with her last Christmas in the train to Charing
Cross--that
alone furnished him with a parallel. For
the
second
time, Monteriano must have turned her head. He was
not angry
with her, for he was quite indifferent to the
outcome of
their expedition. He was only extremely
interested.
It was now
nearly midday, and the streets were
clearing. But the intense heat had broken, and there
was a
pleasant
suggestion of rain. The Piazza, with its
three
great
attractions--the Palazzo Pubblico, the Collegiate
Church, and
the Caffe Garibaldi: the intellect, the soul,
and the
body--had never looked more charming. For
a moment
Philip
stood in its centre, much inclined to be dreamy, and
thinking
how wonderful it must feel to belong to a city,
however
mean. He was here, however, as an emissary
of
civilization
and as a student of character, and, after a
sigh, he
entered Santa Deodata's to continue his mission.
There had
been a FESTA two days before, and the church
still smelt
of incense and of garlic. The little son
of the
sacristan
was sweeping the nave, more for amusement than for
cleanliness,
sending great clouds of dust over the frescoes
and the
scattered worshippers. The sacristan
himself had
propped a
ladder in the centre of the Deluge--which fills one
of the nave
spandrels--and was freeing a column from its
wealth of
scarlet calico. Much scarlet calico also
lay upon
the
floor--for the church can look as fine as any theatre--and
the
sacristan's little daughter was trying to fold it up.
She was
wearing a tinsel crown. The crown really
belonged
to St.
Augustine. But it had been cut too big:
it fell down
over his
cheeks like a collar: you never saw anything so
absurd. One of the canons had unhooked it just before
the
FIESTA
began, and had given it to the sacristan's daughter.
"Please,"
cried Philip, "is there an English lady here?"
The man's
mouth was full of tin-tacks, but he nodded
cheerfully
towards a kneeling figure. In the midst
of this
confusion
Miss Abbott was praying.
He was not
much surprised: a spiritual breakdown was
quite to be
expected. For though he was growing more
charitable
towards mankind, he was still a little jaunty,
and too apt
to stake out beforehand the course that will be
pursued by
the wounded soul. It did not surprise
him,
however,
that she should greet him naturally, with none of
the sour
self-consciousness of a person who had just risen
from her
knees. This was indeed the spirit of
Santa
Deodata's,
where a prayer to God is thought none the worse
of because
it comes next to a pleasant word to a neighbour.
"I am
sure that I need it," said she; and he, who had
expected
her to be ashamed, became confused, and knew not
what to
reply.
"I've
nothing to tell you," she continued.
"I have
simply
changed straight round. If I had planned
the whole
thing out,
I could not have treated you worse. I
can talk
it over
now; but please believe that I have been crying."
"And
please believe that I have not come to scold you,"
said
Philip. "I know what has
happened."
"What?"
asked Miss Abbott. Instinctively she led
the
way to the
famous chapel, the fifth chapel on the right,
wherein
Giovanni da Empoli has
painted the death and burial
of the
saint. Here they could sit out of the
dust and the
noise, and
proceed with a discussion which promised to be important.
"What
might have happened to me--he had made you believe
that he
loved the child."
"Oh,
yes; he has. He will never give it
up."
"At
present it is still unsettled."
"It
will never be settled."
"Perhaps
not. Well, as I said, I know what has
happened,
and I am not here to scold you. But I
must ask
you to
withdraw from the thing for the present.
Harriet is
furious. But she will calm down when she realizes that
you
have done
us no harm, and will do none."
"I can
do no more," she said. "But I
tell you plainly I
have
changed sides."
"If
you do no more, that is all we want. You
promise
not to
prejudice our cause by speaking to Signor Carella?"
"Oh,
certainly. I don't want to speak to him
again; I
shan't ever
see him again."
"Quite
nice, wasn't he?"
"Quite."
"Well,
that's all I wanted to know. I'll go and
tell
Harriet of
your promise, and I think things'll quiet down
now."
But he did
not move, for it was an increasing pleasure
to him to
be near her, and her charm was at its strongest
today. He thought less of psychology and feminine
reaction. The gush of sentimentalism which had carried
her
away had
only made her more alluring. He was
content to
observe her
beauty and to profit by the tenderness and the
wisdom that
dwelt within her.
"Why
aren't you angry with me?" she asked, after a pause.
"Because
I understand you--all sides, I think,--Harriet,
Signor Carella, even my mother."
"You
do understand wonderfully. You are the
only one of
us who has
a general view of the muddle."
He smiled
with pleasure. It was the first time she
had
ever
praised him. His eyes rested agreeably
on Santa
Deodata,
who was dying in full sanctity, upon her back.
There was a
window open behind her, revealing just such a
view as he
had seen that morning, and on her widowed
mother's
dresser there stood just such another copper pot.
The saint
looked neither at the view nor at the pot, and at
her widowed
mother still less. For lo! she had a vision:
the head
and shoulders of St. Augustine were sliding like
some
miraculous enamel along the rough-cast wall.
It is a
gentle
saint who is content with half another saint to see
her
die. In her death, as in her life, Santa
Deodata did
not
accomplish much.
"So
what are you going to do?" said Miss Abbott.
Philip
started, not so much at the words as at the
sudden
change in the voice. "Do?" he
echoed, rather
dismayed. "This afternoon I have another
interview."
"It
will come to nothing. Well?"
"Then
another. If that fails I shall wire home
for
instructions. I dare say we may fail altogether, but we
shall fail
honourably."
She had
often been decided. But now behind her
decision
there was a
note of passion. She struck him not as
different,
but as more important, and he minded it very much
when she
said--
"That's
not doing anything! You would be doing
something
if you kidnapped the baby, or if you went straight
away. But that!
To fail honourably! To come out
of the
thing as
well as you can! Is that all you are
after?"
"Why,
yes," he stammered. "Since we
talk openly, that
is all I am
after just now. What else is there? If I can
persuade
Signor Carella to give in, so much the better. If
he won't, I
must report the failure to my mother and then go
home. Why, Miss Abbott, you can't expect me to
follow you
through all
these turns--"
"I
don't! But I do expect you to settle
what is right
and to
follow that. Do you want the child to
stop with his
father, who
loves him and will bring him up badly, or do you
want him to
come to Sawston, where no one loves him, but
where he
will be brought up well? There is the
question put
dispassionately
enough even for you. Settle it. Settle
which side
you'll fight on. But don't go talking
about an
'honourable
failure,' which means simply not thinking and
not acting
at all."
"Because
I understand the position of Signor Carella and
of you,
it's no reason that--"
"None
at all. Fight as if you think us
wrong. Oh,
what's the
use of your fair-mindedness if you never decide
for
yourself? Any one gets hold of you and
makes you do
what they
want. And you see through them and laugh
at
them--and
do it. It's not enough to see clearly;
I'm
muddle-headed
and stupid, and not worth a quarter of you,
but I have
tried to do what seemed right at the time.
And
you--your
brain and your insight are splendid. But
when you
see what's
right you're too idle to do it. You told
me once
that we
shall be judged by our intentions, not by our
accomplishments. I thought it a grand remark. But we must
intend to
accomplish--not sit intending on a chair."
"You
are wonderful!" he said gravely.
"Oh,
you appreciate me!" she burst out again.
"I wish
you
didn't. You appreciate us all--see good
in all of us.
And all the
time you are dead--dead--dead. Look, why
aren't
you
angry?" She came up to him, and
then her mood suddenly
changed,
and she took hold of both his hands. "You
are so
splendid,
Mr. Herriton, that I can't bear to see you
wasted. I can't bear--she has not been good to
you--your
mother."
"Miss
Abbott, don't worry over me. Some people
are born
not to do
things. I'm one of them; I never did
anything at
school or
at the Bar. I came out to stop Lilia's
marriage,
and it was
too late. I came out intending to get
the baby,
and I shall
return an 'honourable failure.' I never expect
anything to
happen now, and so I am never disappointed.
You
would be
surprised to know what my great events are.
Going
to the
theatre yesterday, talking to you now--I don't suppose
I shall
ever meet anything greater. I seem fated
to pass
through the
world without colliding with it or moving it--and
I'm sure I
can't tell you whether the fate's good or evil.
I don't
die--I don't fall in love. And if other
people die
or fall in
love they always do it when I'm just not there.
You are
quite right; life to me is just a spectacle,
which--thank
God, and thank Italy, and thank you--is now more
beautiful
and heartening than it has ever been before."
She said
solemnly, "I wish something would happen to
you, my
dear friend; I wish something would happen to you."
"But
why?" he asked, smiling. "Prove
to me why I don't
do as I
am."
She also
smiled, very gravely. She could not
prove it.
No argument
existed. Their discourse, splendid as it
had
been,
resulted in nothing, and their respective opinions and
policies
were exactly the same when they left the church as
when they
had entered it.
Harriet was
rude at lunch. She called Miss Abbott a
turncoat
and a coward to her face. Miss Abbott
resented
neither
epithet, feeling that one was justified and the
other not
unreasonable. She tried to avoid even
the
suspicion
of satire in her replies. But Harriet
was sure
that she
was satirical because she was so calm. She
got
more and
more violent, and Philip at one time feared that
she would
come to blows.
"Look
here!" he cried, with something of the old manner,
"it's
too hot for this. We've been talking and
interviewing
each other
all the morning, and I have another interview
this
afternoon. I do stipulate for
silence. Let each lady
retire to
her bedroom with a book."
"I
retire to pack," said Harriet. "Please
remind Signor
Carella,
Philip, that the baby is to be here by half-past
eight this
evening."
"Oh,
certainly, Harriet. I shall make a point
of
reminding
him."
"And
order a carriage to take us to the evening train."
"And
please," said Miss Abbott, "would you order a
carriage
for me too?"
"You
going?" he exclaimed.
"Of
course," she replied, suddenly flushing.
"Why not?"
"Why,
of course you would be going. Two
carriages,
then. Two carriages for the evening
train." He looked at
his sister
hopelessly. "Harriet, whatever are
you up to?
We shall
never be ready."
"Order
my carriage for the evening train," said Harriet,
and
departed.
"Well,
I suppose I shall. And I shall also have
my
interview
with Signor Carella."
Miss Abbott
gave a little sigh.
"But
why should you mind? Do you suppose that
I shall
have the
slightest influence over him?"
"No. But--I can't repeat all that I said in the
church.
You ought
never to see him again. You ought to
bundle
Harriet
into a carriage, not this evening, but now, and
drive her
straight away."
"Perhaps
I ought. But it isn't a very big
'ought.'
Whatever
Harriet and I do the issue is the same. Why,
I can
see the
splendour of it--even the humour. Gino
sitting up
here on the
mountain-top with his cub. We come and
ask for
it. He welcomes us. We ask for it again. He is equally
pleasant. I'm agreeable to spend the whole week
bargaining
with
him. But I know that at the end of it I
shall descend
empty-handed
to the plains. It might be finer of me
to make
up my
mind. But I'm not a fine character. And nothing
hangs on
it."
"Perhaps
I am extreme," she said humbly. "I've
been
trying to
run you, just like your mother. I feel
you ought
to fight it
out with Harriet. Every little trifle,
for some
reason,
does seem incalculably important today, and when you
say of a
thing that 'nothing hangs on it,' it sounds like
blasphemy. There's never any knowing--(how am I to put
it?)--which
of our actions, which of our idlenesses won't
have things
hanging on it for ever."
He
assented, but her remark had only an aesthetic value.
He was not
prepared to take it to his heart. All
the
afternoon
he rested--worried, but not exactly despondent.
The thing
would jog out somehow. Probably Miss
Abbott was
right. The baby had better stop where it was
loved. And
that,
probably, was what the fates had decreed.
He felt
little
interest in the matter, and he was sure that he had
no
influence.
It was not
surprising, therefore, that the interview at
the Caffe Garibaldi came to nothing. Neither of them took
it very
seriously. And before long Gino had
discovered how
things lay,
and was ragging his companion hopelessly.
Philip
tried to look offended, but in the end he had to
laugh. "Well, you are right," he
said. "This affair is
being
managed by the ladies."
"Ah,
the ladies--the ladies!" cried the other, and then
he roared
like a millionaire for two cups of black coffee,
and
insisted on treating his friend, as a sign that their
strife was
over.
"Well,
I have done my best," said Philip, dipping a long
slice of
sugar into his cup, and watching the brown liquid
ascend into
it. "I shall face my mother with a
good
conscience. Will you bear me witness that I've done my
best?"
"My
poor fellow, I will!" He laid a
sympathetic hand on
Philip's
knee.
"And
that I have--" The sugar was now
impregnated with
coffee, and
he bent forward to swallow it. As he did
so his
eyes swept
the opposite of the Piazza, and he saw there,
watching
them, Harriet. "Mia sorella!" he exclaimed. Gino,
much
amused, laid his hand upon the little table, and beat
the marble
humorously with his fists. Harriet
turned away
and began
gloomily to inspect the Palazzo Pubblico.
"Poor
Harriet!" said Philip, swallowing the sugar. "One
more wrench
and it will all be over for her; we are leaving
this
evening."
Gino was
sorry for this. "Then you will not
be here
this
evening as you promised us. All three
leaving?"
"All
three," said Philip, who had not revealed the
secession
of Miss Abbott; "by the night train; at least,
that is my
sister's plan. So I'm afraid I shan't be
here."
They
watched the departing figure of Harriet, and then
entered
upon the final civilities. They shook
each other
warmly by
both hands. Philip was to come again
next year,
and to
write beforehand. He was to be
introduced to Gino's
wife, for
he was told of the marriage now. He was
to be
godfather
to his next baby. As for Gino, he would
remember
some time
that Philip liked vermouth. He begged
him to give
his love to
Irma. Mrs. Herriton--should
he send her his
sympathetic
regards? No; perhaps that would hardly
do.
So the two
young men parted with a good deal of genuine
affection. For the barrier of language is sometimes a
blessed
barrier, which only lets pass what is good.
Or--to
put the
thing less cynically--we may be better in new clean
words,
which have never been tainted by our pettiness or
vice. Philip, at all events, lived more graciously
in
Italian,
the very phrases of which entice one to be happy
and
kind. It was horrible to think of the
English of
Harriet,
whose every word would be as hard, as distinct, and
as
unfinished as a lump of coal.
Harriet,
however, talked little. She had seen
enough to
know that
her brother had failed again, and with unwonted
dignity she
accepted the situation. She did her
packing,
she wrote
up her diary, she made a brown paper cover for the
new
Baedeker. Philip, finding her so
amenable, tried to
discuss
their future plans. But she only said
that they
would sleep
in Florence, and told him to telegraph for
rooms. They had supper alone. Miss Abbott did not come
down. The landlady told them that Signor Carella had called
on Miss
Abbott to say good-bye, but she, though in, had not
been able
to see him. She also told them that it
had begun
to
rain. Harriet sighed, but indicated to
her brother that
he was not
responsible.
The
carriages came round at a quarter past eight.
It
was not
raining much, but the night was extraordinarily
dark, and
one of the drivers wanted to go slowly to the
station. Miss Abbott came down and said that she was
ready,
and would
start at once.
"Yes,
do," said Philip, who was standing in the hall.
"Now
that we have quarrelled we scarcely want to travel in
procession
all the way down the hill. Well,
good-bye; it's
all over at
last; another scene in my pageant has shifted."
"Good-bye;
it's been a great pleasure to see you. I
hope that
won't shift, at all events." She
gripped his hand.
"You
sound despondent," he said, laughing.
"Don't
forget that
you return victorious."
"I
suppose I do," she replied, more despondently than
ever, and
got into the carriage. He concluded that
she was
thinking of
her reception at Sawston, whither her fame would
doubtless
precede her. Whatever would Mrs. Herriton do?
She could
make things quite unpleasant when she thought it
right. She might think it right to be silent, but
then
there was
Harriet. Who would bridle Harriet's
tongue?
Between the
two of them Miss Abbott was bound to have a bad
time. Her reputation, both for consistency and for
moral
enthusiasm,
would be lost for ever.
"It's
hard luck on her," he thought. "She
is a good
person. I must do for her anything I can." Their intimacy
had been
very rapid, but he too hoped that it would not
shift. He believed that he understood her, and that
she, by
now, had
seen the worst of him. What if after a
long
time--if
after all--he flushed like a boy as he looked after
her
carriage.
He went
into the dining-room to look for Harriet.
Harriet was
not to be found. Her bedroom, too, was
empty.
All that
was left of her was the purple prayer-book which
lay open on
the bed. Philip took it up aimlessly,
and
saw--"Blessed
be the Lord my God who teacheth my hands to war
and my
fingers to fight." He put the book
in his pocket,
and began
to brood over more profitable themes.
Santa Deodata gave out half past eight. All the luggage
was on, and
still Harriet had not appeared. "Depend
upon
it,"
said the landlady, "she has gone to Signor Carella's
to
say
good-bye to her little nephew." Philip
did not think it
likely. They shouted all over the house and still
there was
no
Harriet. He began to be uneasy. He was helpless without
Miss
Abbott; her grave, kind face had cheered him
wonderfully,
even when it looked displeased. Monteriano was
sad without
her; the rain was thickening; the scraps of
Donizetti
floated tunelessly out of the wineshops, and of
the great
tower opposite he could only see the base, fresh
papered
with the advertisements of quacks.
A man came
up the street with a note. Philip read,
"Start
at once. Pick me up outside the
gate. Pay the
bearer. H. H."
"Did
the lady give you this note?" he cried.
The man was
unintelligible.
"Speak
up!" exclaimed Philip. "Who
gave it you--and where?"
Nothing but
horrible sighings and bubblings
came out of
the man.
"Be
patient with him," said the driver, turning round on
the
box. "It is the poor
idiot." And the landlady came out
of the
hotel and echoed "The poor idiot. He
cannot speak.
He takes
messages for us all."
Philip then
saw that the messenger was a ghastly
creature,
quite bald, with trickling eyes and grey twitching
nose. In another country he would have been shut
up; here
he was
accepted as a public institution, and part of
Nature's
scheme.
"Ugh!"
shuddered the Englishman. "Signora padrona, find
out from
him; this note is from my sister. What
does it
mean? Where did he see her?"
"It is
no good," said the landlady. "He
understands
everything
but he can explain nothing."
"He
has visions of the saints," said the man who drove
the cab.
"But
my sister--where has she gone? How has
she met him?"
"She
has gone for a walk," asserted the landlady. It
was a nasty
evening, but she was beginning to understand the
English. "She has gone for a walk--perhaps to
wish good-bye
to her
little nephew. Preferring to come back
another way,
she has
sent you this note by the poor idiot and is waiting
for you
outside the Siena gate. Many of my
guests do this."
There was
nothing to do but to obey the message. He
shook hands
with the landlady, gave the messenger a nickel
piece, and
drove away. After a dozen yards the
carriage
stopped. The poor idiot was running and whimpering
behind.
"Go
on," cried Philip. "I have
paid him plenty."
A horrible
hand pushed three soldi into his lap. It was
part of the
idiot's malady only to receive what was just for
his
services. This was the change out of the
nickel piece.
"Go
on!" shouted Philip, and flung the money into the
road. He was frightened at the episode; the whole
of life
had become
unreal. It was a relief to be out of the
Siena
gate. They drew up for a moment on the
terrace. But there
was no sign
of Harriet. The driver called to the Dogana
men. But they had seen no English lady pass.
"What
am I to do?" he cried; "it is not like the lady to
be
late. We shall miss the train."
"Let
us drive slowly," said the driver, "and you shall
call her by
name as we go."
So they
started down into the night, Philip calling
"Harriet! Harriet!
Harriet!" And there she was,
waiting
for them in
the wet, at the first turn of the zigzag.
"Harriet,
why don't you answer?"
"I
heard you coming," said she, and got quickly in. Not
till then
did he see that she carried a bundle.
"What's
that?"
"Hush--"
"Whatever
is that?"
"Hush--sleeping."
Harriet had
succeeded where Miss Abbott and Philip had
failed. It was the baby.
She would
not let him talk. The baby, she
repeated, was
asleep, and
she put up an umbrella to shield it and her from
the
rain. He should hear all later, so he
had to conjecture
the course
of the wonderful interview--an interview between
the South
pole and the North. It was quite easy to
conjecture:
Gino crumpling up suddenly before the intense
conviction
of Harriet; being told, perhaps, to his face that
he was a
villain; yielding his only son perhaps for money,
perhaps for
nothing. "Poor Gino," he
thought. "He's no
greater
than I am, after all."
Then he
thought of Miss Abbott, whose carriage must be
descending
the darkness some mile or two below them, and his
easy
self-accusation failed. She, too, had
conviction; he
had felt
its force; he would feel it again when she knew
this day's
sombre and unexpected close.
"You
have been pretty secret," he said; "you might tell
me a little
now. What do we pay for him? All we've got?"
"Hush!"
answered Harriet, and dandled the bundle
laboriously,
like some bony prophetess--Judith, or Deborah,
or Jael. He had last
seen the baby sprawling on the knees
of Miss
Abbott, shining and naked, with twenty miles of view
behind him,
and his father kneeling by his feet. And
that
remembrance,
together with Harriet, and the darkness, and
the poor
idiot, and the silent rain, filled him with sorrow
and with
the expectation of sorrow to come.
Monteriano
had long disappeared, and he could see
nothing but
the occasional wet stem of an olive, which their
lamp
illumined as they passed it. They
travelled quickly,
for this
driver did not care how fast he went to the
station,
and would dash down each incline and scuttle
perilously
round the curves.
"Look
here, Harriet," he said at last, "I feel bad; I
want to see
the baby."
"Hush!"
"I
don't mind if I do wake him up. I want
to see him.
I've as
much right in him as you."
Harriet
gave in. But it was too dark for him to
see the
child's
face. "Wait a minute," he
whispered, and before she
could stop
him he had lit a match under the shelter of her
umbrella. "But he's awake!" he
exclaimed. The match went out.
"Good ickle quiet boysey, then."
Philip
winced. "His face, do you know,
struck me as all
wrong."
"All
wrong?"
"All
puckered queerly."
"Of
course--with the shadows--you couldn't see him."
"Well,
hold him up again." She did
so. He lit another
match. It went out quickly, but not before he had
seen that
the baby
was crying.
"Nonsense,"
said Harriet sharply. "We should
hear him
if he
cried."
"No,
he's crying hard; I thought so before, and I'm
certain
now."
Harriet
touched the child's face. It was bathed
in
tears. "Oh, the night air, I suppose," she
said, "or
perhaps the
wet of the rain."
"I
say, you haven't hurt it, or held it the wrong way,
or
anything; it is too uncanny--crying and no noise. Why
didn't you
get Perfetta to carry it to the hotel instead of
muddling
with the messenger? It's a marvel he
understood
about the
note."
"Oh,
he understands." And he could feel
her shudder.
"He
tried to carry the baby--"
"But
why not Gino or Perfetta?"
"Philip,
don't talk. Must I say it again? Don't talk.
The baby
wants to sleep." She crooned
harshly as they
descended,
and now and then she wiped up the tears which
welled
inexhaustibly from the little eyes. Philip
looked
away,
winking at times himself. It was as if
they were
travelling
with the whole world's sorrow, as if all the
mystery,
all the persistency of woe were gathered to a
single
fount. The roads were now coated with
mud, and the
carriage
went more quietly but not less swiftly, sliding by
long
zigzags into the night. He knew the
landmarks pretty
well: here
was the crossroad to Poggibonsi; and the last
view of Monteriano, if they had light, would be from here.
Soon they
ought to come to that little wood where violets
were so
plentiful in spring. He wished the
weather had not
changed; it
was not cold, but the air was extraordinarily
damp. It could not be good for the child.
"I
suppose he breathes, and all that sort of thing?" he said.
"Of
course," said Harriet, in an angry whisper. "You've
started him
again. I'm certain he was asleep. I do wish
you
wouldn't talk; it makes me so nervous."
"I'm
nervous too. I wish he'd scream. It's too
uncanny. Poor Gino!
I'm terribly sorry for Gino."
"Are
you?"
"Because
he's weak--like most of us. He doesn't
know
what he
wants. He doesn't grip on to life. But I like that
man, and
I'm sorry for him."
Naturally
enough she made no answer.
"You
despise him, Harriet, and you despise me.
But you
do us no
good by it. We fools want some one to
set us on
our
feet. Suppose a really decent woman had
set up Gino--I
believe
Caroline Abbott might have done it--mightn't he have
been
another man?"
"Philip,"
she interrupted, with an attempt at
nonchalance,
"do you happen to have those matches handy? We
might as
well look at the baby again if you have."
The first
match blew out immediately. So did the
second. He suggested that they should stop the
carriage and
borrow the
lamp from the driver.
"Oh, I
don't want all that bother. Try
again."
They
entered the little wood as he tried to strike the
third
match. At last it caught. Harriet poised the
umbrella
rightly, and for a full quarter minute they
contemplated
the face that trembled in the light of the
trembling
flame. Then there was a shout and a
crash. They
were lying
in the mud in darkness. The carriage had
overturned.
Philip was
a good deal hurt. He sat up and rocked
himself to
and fro, holding his arm. He could just
make out
the outline
of the carriage above him, and the outlines of
the
carriage cushions and of their luggage upon the grey
road. The accident had taken place in the wood,
where it
was even
darker than in the open.
"Are
you all right?" he managed to say. Harriet
was
screaming,
the horse was kicking, the driver was cursing
some other
man.
Harriet's
screams became coherent. "The
baby--the
baby--it
slipped--it's gone from my arms--I stole it!"
"God
help me!" said Philip. A cold
circle came round
his mouth,
and, he fainted.
When he
recovered it was still the same confusion. The
horse was
kicking, the baby had not been found, and Harriet
still
screamed like a maniac, "I stole it!
I stole it! I
stole
it! It slipped out of my arms!"
"Keep still!"
he commanded the driver. "Let no
one
move. We may tread on it. Keep still."
For a
moment they all obeyed him. He began to
crawl
through the
mud, touching first this, then that, grasping
the
cushions by mistake, listening for the faintest whisper
that might
guide him. He tried to light a match,
holding
the box in
his teeth and striking at it with the uninjured
hand. At last he succeeded, and the light fell upon
the
bundle
which he was seeking.
It had
rolled off the road into the wood a little way,
and had
fallen across a great rut. So tiny it
was that had
it fallen
lengthways it would have disappeared, and he might
never have
found it.
"I
stole it! I and the idiot--no one was
there." She
burst out
laughing.
He sat down
and laid it on his knee. Then he tried
to
cleanse the
face from the mud and the rain and the tears.
His arm, he
supposed, was broken, but he could still move it
a little,
and for the moment he forgot all pain. He
was
listening--not
for a cry, but for the tick of a heart or the
slightest
tremor of breath.
"Where
are you?" called a voice. It was
Miss Abbott,
against
whose carriage they had collided. She
had relit one
of the
lamps, and was picking her way towards him.
"Silence!"
he called again, and again they obeyed. He
shook the
bundle; he breathed into it; he opened his coat
and pressed
it against him. Then he listened, and
heard
nothing but
the rain and the panting horses, and Harriet,
who was
somewhere chuckling to herself in the dark.
Miss Abbott
approached, and took it gently from him.
The face
was already chilly, but thanks to Philip it was no
longer
wet. Nor would it again be wetted by any
tear.
Chapter 9
The details
of Harriet's crime were never known. In
her
illness she
spoke more of the inlaid box that she lent to
Lilia--lent,
not given--than of recent troubles. It
was clear
that she
had gone prepared for an interview with Gino, and
finding him
out, she had yielded to a grotesque temptation.
But how far
this was the result of ill-temper, to what
extent she
had been fortified by her religion, when and how
she had met
the poor idiot--these questions were never
answered,
nor did they interest Philip greatly. Detection
was
certain: they would have been arrested by the police of
Florence or
Milan, or at the frontier. As it was,
they had
been
stopped in a simpler manner a few miles out of the town.
As yet he
could scarcely survey the thing. It was
too
great. Round the Italian baby who had died in the
mud there
centred
deep passions and high hopes. People had
been
wicked or
wrong in the matter; no one save himself had been
trivial. Now the baby had gone, but there remained
this
vast
apparatus of pride and pity and love. For
the dead,
who seemed
to take away so much, really take with them
nothing
that is ours. The passion they have
aroused lives
after them,
easy to transmute or to transfer, but well-nigh
impossible
to destroy. And Philip knew that he was
still
voyaging on
the same magnificent, perilous sea, with the sun
or the
clouds above him, and the tides below.
The course
of the moment--that, at all events, was
certain. He and no one else must take the news to
Gino. It
was easy to
talk of Harriet's crime--easy also to blame the
negligent Perfetta or Mrs. Herriton at
home. Every one had
contributed--even
Miss Abbott and Irma. If one chose, one
might
consider the catastrophe composite or the work of
fate. But Philip did not so choose. It was his own fault,
due to
acknowledged weakness in his own character.
Therefore
he, and no one else, must take the news of it to Gino.
Nothing
prevented him. Miss Abbott was engaged
with
Harriet,
and people had sprung out of the darkness and were
conducting
them towards some cottage. Philip had
only to
get into
the uninjured carriage and order the driver to
return. He was back at Monteriano
after a two hours'
absence. Perfetta was in the
house now, and greeted him
cheerfully. Pain, physical and mental, had made him
stupid. It was some time before he realized that she
had
never
missed the child.
Gino was
still out. The woman took him to the
reception-room,
just as she had taken Miss Abbott in the
morning,
and dusted a circle for him on one of the horsehair
chairs. But it was dark now, so she left the guest a
little
lamp.
"I
will be as quick as I can," she told him.
"But there
are many
streets in Monteriano; he is sometimes difficult to
find. I could not find him this morning."
"Go
first to the Caffe Garibaldi," said Philip,
remembering
that this was the hour appointed by his friends
of
yesterday.
He occupied
the time he was left alone not in
thinking--there
was nothing to think about; he simply had to
tell a few
facts--but in trying to make a sling for his
broken
arm. The trouble was in the elbow-joint,
and as long
as he kept
this motionless he could go on as usual.
But
inflammation
was beginning, and the slightest jar gave him
agony. The sling was not fitted before Gino leapt up
the
stairs,
crying--
"So
you are back! How glad I am! We are all waiting--"
Philip had
seen too much to be nervous. In low,
even
tones he
told what had happened; and the other, also
perfectly
calm, heard him to the end. In the
silence
Perfetta
called up that she had forgotten the baby's evening
milk; she
must fetch it. When she had gone Gino
took up the
lamp
without a word, and they went into the other room.
"My
sister is ill," said Philip, "and Miss Abbott is
guiltless. I should be glad if you did not have to
trouble them."
Gino had
stooped down by the way, and was feeling the
place where
his son had lain. Now and then he
frowned a
little and
glanced at Philip.
"It is
through me," he continued. "It
happened because
I was
cowardly and idle. I have come to know
what you will do."
Gino had
left the rug, and began to pat the table from
the end, as
if he was blind. The action was so
uncanny that
Philip was
driven to intervene.
"Gently,
man, gently; he is not here."
He went up
and touched him on the shoulder.
He twitched
away, and began to pass his hands over
things more
rapidly--over the table, the chairs, the entire
floor, the
walls as high as he could reach them. Philip
had
not
presumed to comfort him. But now the
tension was too
great--he
tried.
"Break
down, Gino; you must break down. Scream
and
curse and
give in for a little; you must break down."
There was no
reply, and no cessation of the sweeping hands.
"It is
time to be unhappy. Break down or you
will be
ill like my
sister. You will go--"
The tour of
the room was over. He had touched
everything
in it except Philip. Now he approached
him. He
face was
that of a man who has lost his old reason for life
and seeks a
new one.
"Gino!"
He stopped
for a moment; then he came nearer. Philip
stood his
ground.
"You
are to do what you like with me, Gino. Your
son is
dead,
Gino. He died in my arms, remember. It does not
excuse me;
but he did die in my arms."
The left
hand came forward, slowly this time. It
hovered
before Philip like an insect. Then it
descended and
gripped him
by his broken elbow.
Philip
struck out with all the strength of his other
arm. Gino fell to the blow without a cry or a
word.
"You
brute!" exclaimed the Englishman. "Kill
me if you
like! But just you leave my broken arm alone."
Then he was
seized with remorse, and knelt beside his
adversary
and tried to revive him. He managed to
raise him
up, and
propped his body against his own. He
passed his arm
round
him. Again he was filled with pity and
tenderness.
He awaited
the revival without fear, sure that both of them
were safe
at last.
Gino
recovered suddenly. His lips moved. For one
blessed
moment it seemed that he was going to speak.
But he
scrambled
up in silence, remembering everything, and he made
not towards
Philip, but towards the lamp.
"Do
what you like; but think first--"
The lamp
was tossed across the room, out through the
loggia. It broke against one of the trees below. Philip
began to
cry out in the dark.
Gino
approached from behind and gave him a sharp pinch.
Philip spun
round with a yell. He had only been
pinched on
the back,
but he knew what was in store for him. He
struck
out,
exhorting the devil to fight him, to kill him, to do
anything
but this. Then he stumbled to the
door. It was
open. He lost his head, and, instead of turning
down the
stairs, he
ran across the landing into the room opposite.
There he
lay down on the floor between the stove and the
skirting-board.
His senses
grew sharper. He could hear Gino coming
in
on
tiptoe. He even knew what was passing in
his mind, how
now he was
at fault, now he was hopeful, now he was
wondering
whether after all the victim had not escaped down
the
stairs. There was a quick swoop above
him, and then a
low growl
like a dog's. Gino had broken his
finger-nails
against the
stove.
Physical
pain is almost too terrible to bear. We
can
just bear
it when it comes by accident or for our good--as it
generally
does in modern life--except at school. But
when it
is caused
by the malignity of a man, full grown, fashioned
like
ourselves, all our control disappears. Philip's
one
thought was
to get away from that room at whatever sacrifice
of nobility
or pride.
Gino was
now at the further end of the room, groping by
the little
tables. Suddenly the instinct came to
him. He
crawled
quickly to where Philip lay and had him clean by the
elbow.
The whole
arm seemed red-hot, and the broken bone grated
in the
joint, sending out shoots of the essence of pain.
His other
arm was pinioned against the wall, and Gino had
trampled in
behind the stove and was kneeling on his legs.
For the
space of a minute he yelled and yelled with all the
force of
his lungs. Then this solace was denied
him. The
other hand,
moist and strong, began to close round his throat.
At first he
was glad, for here, he thought, was death at
last. But it was only a new torture; perhaps Gino
inherited
the skill
of his ancestors--and childlike ruffians who flung
each other
from the towers. Just as the windpipe
closed,
the hand
fell off, and Philip was revived by the motion of
his
arm. And just as he was about to faint
and gain at last
one moment
of oblivion, the motion stopped, and he would
struggle
instead against the pressure on his throat.
Vivid
pictures were dancing through the pain--Lilia dying
some months
back in this very house, Miss Abbott bending
over the
baby, his mother at home, now reading evening
prayers to
the servants. He felt that he was
growing
weaker; his
brain wandered; the agony did not seem so
great. Not all Gino's care could indefinitely
postpone the
end. His yells and gurgles became
mechanical--functions of
the
tortured flesh rather than true notes of indignation and
despair. He was conscious of a horrid tumbling. Then his
arm was
pulled a little too roughly, and everything was
quiet at
last.
"But
your son is dead, Gino. Your son is
dead, dear
Gino. Your son is dead."
The room was
full of light, and Miss Abbott had Gino by
the
shoulders, holding him down in a chair. She
was
exhausted
with the struggle, and her arms were trembling.
"What
is the good of another death? What is
the good of
more
pain?"
He too
began to tremble. Then he turned and
looked
curiously
at Philip, whose face, covered with dust and foam,
was visible
by the stove. Miss Abbott allowed him to
get
up, though
she still held him firmly. He gave a
loud and
curious
cry--a cry of interrogation it might be called.
Below there
was the noise of Perfetta returning with the
baby's
milk.
"Go to
him," said Miss Abbott, indicating Philip.
"Pick
him
up. Treat him kindly."
She
released him, and he approached Philip slowly.
His
eyes were
filling with trouble. He bent down, as
if he
would
gently raise him up.
"Help! help!" moaned Philip. His body had suffered too
much from
Gino. It could not bear to be touched by
him.
Gino seemed
to understand. He stopped, crouched
above
him. Miss Abbott herself came forward and lifted
her friend
in her
arms.
"Oh,
the foul devil!" he murmured. "Kill
him! Kill him
for
me."
Miss Abbott
laid him tenderly on the couch and wiped his
face. Then she said gravely to them both,
"This thing stops
here."
"Latte! latte!" cried Perfetta,
hilariously ascending
the stairs.
"Remember,"
she continued, "there is to be no revenge.
I will have
no more intentional evil. We are not to
fight
with each
other any more."
"I
shall never forgive him," sighed Philip.
"Latte! latte freschissima! bianca come neve!"
Perfetta
came in with another lamp and a little jug.
Gino spoke
for the first time. "Put the milk
on the
table,"
he said. "It will not be wanted in
the other
room." The peril was over at last. A great sob shook the
whole body,
another followed, and then he gave a piercing
cry of woe,
and stumbled towards Miss Abbott like a child
and clung
to her.
All through
the day Miss Abbott had seemed to Philip
like a
goddess, and more than ever did she seem so now.
Many people
look younger and more intimate during great
emotion. But some there are who look older, and
remote, and
he could
not think that there was little difference in
years, and
none in composition, between her and the man
whose head
was laid upon her breast. Her eyes were
open,
full of
infinite pity and full of majesty, as if they
discerned
the boundaries of sorrow, and saw unimaginable
tracts
beyond. Such eyes he had seen in great
pictures but
never in a
mortal. Her hands were folded round the
sufferer,
stroking him lightly, for even a goddess can do no
more than
that. And it seemed fitting, too, that
she should
bend her
head and touch his forehead with her lips.
Philip
looked away, as he sometimes looked away from the
great
pictures where visible forms suddenly become
inadequate
for the things they have shown to us. He
was
happy; he
was assured that there was greatness in the
world. There came to him an earnest desire to be
good
through the
example of this good woman. He would try
henceforward
to be worthy of the things she had revealed.
Quietly,
without hysterical prayers or banging of drums, he
underwent
conversion. He was saved.
"That
milk," said she, "need not be wasted.
Take it,
Signor Carella, and persuade Mr. Herriton
to drink."
Gino obeyed
her, and carried the child's milk to
Philip. And Philip obeyed also and drank.
"Is
there any left?"
"A
little," answered Gino.
"Then
finish it." For she was determined
to use such
remnants as
lie about the world.
"Will
you not have some?"
"I do
not care for milk; finish it all."
"Philip,
have you had enough milk?"
"Yes,
thank you, Gino; finish it all."
He drank
the milk, and then, either by accident or in
some spasm
of pain, broke the jug to pieces. Perfetta
exclaimed
in bewilderment. "It does not
matter," he told
her. "It does not matter. It will never be wanted any
more."
Chapter 10
"He
will have to marry her," said Philip.
"I heard from him
this
morning, just as we left Milan. He finds
he has gone
too far to
back out. It would be expensive. I don't know
how much he
minds--not as much as we suppose, I think.
At
all events
there's not a word of blame in the letter.
I
don't
believe he even feels angry. I never was
so
completely
forgiven. Ever since you stopped him
killing me,
it has been
a vision of perfect friendship. He
nursed me,
he lied for
me at the inquest, and at the funeral, though he
was crying,
you would have thought it was my son who had
died. Certainly I was the only person he had to be
kind to;
he was so
distressed not to make Harriet's acquaintance, and
that he
scarcely saw anything of you. In his
letter he says
so
again."
"Thank
him, please, when you write," said Miss Abbott,
"and
give him my kindest regards."
"Indeed
I will." He was surprised that she
could slide
away from
the man so easily. For his own part, he
was bound
by ties of
almost alarming intimacy. Gino had the
southern
knack of
friendship. In the intervals of business
he would
pull out
Philip's life, turn it inside out, remodel it, and
advise him
how to use it for the best. The
sensation was
pleasant,
for he was a kind as well as a skilful operator.
But Philip
came away feeling that he had not a secret corner
left. In that very letter Gino had again implored
him, as a
refuge from
domestic difficulties, "to marry Miss Abbott,
even if her
dowry is small." And how Miss
Abbott herself,
after such
tragic intercourse, could resume the conventions
and send
calm messages of esteem, was more than he could
understand.
"When
will you see him again?" she asked.
They were
standing
together in the corridor of the train, slowly
ascending
out of Italy towards the San Gothard tunnel.
"I
hope next spring. Perhaps we shall paint
Siena red
for a day
or two with some of the new wife's money.
It was
one of the
arguments for marrying her."
"He
has no heart," she said severely. "He
does not
really mind
about the child at all."
"No;
you're wrong. He does. He is unhappy, like the
rest of
us. But he doesn't try to keep up
appearances as we
do. He knows that the things that have made him
happy once
will
probably make him happy again--"
"He
said he would never be happy again."
"In
his passion. Not when he was calm. We English say
it when we
are calm--when we do not really believe it any
longer. Gino is not ashamed of inconsistency. It is one of
the many
things I like him for."
"Yes;
I was wrong. That is so."
"He's
much more honest with himself than I am,"
continued
Philip, "and he is honest without an effort and
without
pride. But you, Miss Abbott, what about
you? Will
you be in
Italy next spring?"
"No."
"I'm
sorry. When will you come back, do you
think?"
"I
think never."
"For
whatever reason?" He stared at her
as if she were
some
monstrosity.
"Because
I understand the place. There is no
need."
"Understand
Italy!" he exclaimed.
"Perfectly."
"Well,
I don't. And I don't understand
you," he
murmured to
himself, as he paced away from her up the
corridor. By this time he loved her very much, and he
could
not bear to
be puzzled. He had reached love by the
spiritual
path: her thoughts and her goodness and her
nobility
had moved him first, and now her whole body and all
its
gestures had become transfigured by them.
The beauties
that are
called obvious--the beauties of her hair and her
voice and
her limbs--he had noticed these last; Gino, who
never
traversed any path at all, had commended them
dispassionately
to his friend.
Why was he
so puzzling? He had known so much about
her
once--what
she thought, how she felt, the reasons for her
actions. And now he only knew that he loved her, and
all
the other
knowledge seemed passing from him just as he
needed it
most. Why would she never come to Italy
again?
Why had she
avoided himself and Gino ever since the evening
that she
had saved their lives? The train was
nearly
empty. Harriet slumbered in a compartment by
herself. He
must ask
her these questions now, and he returned quickly to
her down
the corridor.
She greeted
him with a question of her own. "Are
your
plans
decided?"
"Yes. I can't live at Sawston."
"Have
you told Mrs. Herriton?"
"I
wrote from Monteriano. I tried to explain things;
but she
will never understand me. Her view will
be that the
affair is
settled--sadly settled since the baby is dead.
Still it's
over; our family circle need be vexed no more.
She won't
even be angry with you. You see, you
have done us
no harm in
the long run. Unless, of course, you
talk about
Harriet and
make a scandal. So that is my
plan--London and
work. What is yours?"
"Poor
Harriet!" said Miss Abbott. "As
if I dare judge
Harriet! Or anybody." And without replying to Philip's
question
she left him to visit the other invalid.
Philip
gazed after her mournfully, and then he looked
mournfully
out of the window at the decreasing streams.
All
the
excitement was over--the inquest, Harriet's short
illness,
his own visit to the surgeon. He was
convalescent,
both in
body and spirit, but convalescence brought no joy.
In the
looking-glass at the end of the corridor he saw his
face
haggard, and his shoulders pulled forward by the weight
of the
sling. Life was greater than he had
supposed, but it
was even
less complete. He had seen the need for
strenuous
work and
for righteousness. And now he saw what a
very
little way
those things would go.
"Is
Harriet going to be all right?" he asked.
Miss
Abbott had
come back to him.
"She
will soon be her old self," was the reply.
For
Harriet,
after a short paroxysm of illness and remorse, was
quickly
returning to her normal state. She had
been
"thoroughly
upset" as she phrased it, but she soon ceased to
realize
that anything was wrong beyond the death of a poor
little
child. Already she spoke of "this
unlucky accident,"
and
"the mysterious frustration of one's attempts to make
things
better." Miss Abbott had seen that
she was
comfortable,
and had given her a kind kiss. But she
returned
feeling that Harriet, like her mother, considered
the affair
as settled.
"I'm
clear enough about Harriet's future, and about
parts of my
own. But I ask again, What about
yours?"
"Sawston and work," said Miss Abbott.
"No."
"Why
not?" she asked, smiling.
"You've
seen too much. You've seen as much and
done
more than I
have."
"But
it's so different. Of course I shall go
to
Sawston. You forget my father; and even if he wasn't
there,
I've a
hundred ties: my district--I'm neglecting it
shamefully--my
evening classes, the St. James'--"
"Silly
nonsense!" he exploded, suddenly moved to have
the whole
thing out with her. "You're too
good--about a
thousand
times better than I am. You can't live
in that
hole; you
must go among people who can hope to understand
you. I mind for myself. I want to see you often--again
and
again."
"Of
course we shall meet whenever you come down; and I
hope that
it will mean often."
"It's
not enough; it'll only be in the old horrible way,
each with a
dozen relatives round us. No, Miss
Abbott; it's
not good
enough."
"We
can write at all events."
"You
will write?" he cried, with a flush of pleasure.
At times
his hopes seemed so solid.
"I
will indeed."
"But I
say it's not enough--you can't go back to the old
life if you
wanted to. Too much has happened."
"I
know that," she said sadly.
"Not
only pain and sorrow, but wonderful things: that
tower in
the sunlight--do you remember it, and all you said
to me? The theatre, even. And the next day--in the church;
and our
times with Gino."
"All
the wonderful things are over," she said.
"That is
just where
it is."
"I
don't believe it. At all events not for
me. The
most
wonderful things may be to come--"
"The
wonderful things are over," she repeated, and
looked at
him so mournfully that he dare not contradict
her. The train was crawling up the last ascent
towards the
Campanile
of Airolo and the entrance of the tunnel.
"Miss
Abbott," he murmured, speaking quickly, as if
their free
intercourse might soon be ended, "what is the
matter with
you? I thought I understood you, and I
don't.
All those
two great first days at Monteriano I read you as
clearly as
you read me still. I saw why you had
come, and
why you
changed sides, and afterwards I saw your wonderful
courage and
pity. And now you're frank with me one
moment,
as you used
to be, and the next moment you shut me up.
You
see I owe
too much to you--my life, and I don't know what
besides. I won't stand it. You've gone too far to turn
mysterious. I'll quote what you said to me: 'Don't be
mysterious;
there isn't the time.' I'll quote something
else: 'I
and my life must be where I live.' You can't live
at Sawston."
He had
moved her at last. She whispered to
herself
hurriedly. "It is tempting--" And those three words threw
him into a
tumult of joy. What was tempting to
her? After
all was the
greatest of things possible? Perhaps,
after
long
estrangement, after much tragedy, the South had brought
them
together in the end. That laughter in
the theatre,
those
silver stars in the purple sky, even the violets of a
departed
spring, all had helped, and sorrow had helped also,
and so had
tenderness to others.
"It is
tempting," she repeated, "not to be mysterious.
I've wanted
often to tell you, and then been afraid.
I
could never
tell any one else, certainly no woman, and I
think
you're the one man who might understand and not be
disgusted."
"Are
you lonely?" he whispered. "Is
it anything like that?"
"Yes." The train seemed to shake him towards
her. He
was
resolved that though a dozen people were looking, he
would yet
take her in his arms. "I'm terribly
lonely, or I
wouldn't
speak. I think you must know
already." Their
faces were
crimson, as if the same thought was surging
through
them both.
"Perhaps
I do." He came close to her. "Perhaps I could
speak
instead. But if you will say the word
plainly you'll
never be
sorry; I will thank you for it all my life."
She said
plainly, "That I love him." Then
she broke
down. Her body was shaken with sobs, and lest there
should
be any
doubt she cried between the sobs for Gino!
Gino! Gino!
He heard
himself remark "Rather! I love him
too! When
I can
forget how he hurt me that evening. Though
whenever
we shake
hands--" One of them must have
moved a step or two,
for when
she spoke again she was already a little way apart.
"You've
upset me." She stifled something
that was
perilously
near hysterics. "I thought I was
past all this.
You're
taking it wrongly. I'm in love with
Gino--don't pass
it off--I
mean it crudely--you know what I mean. So
laugh at me."
"Laugh
at love?" asked Philip.
"Yes. Pull it to pieces. Tell me I'm a fool or
worse--that
he's a cad. Say all you said when Lilia
fell in
love with
him. That's the help I want. I dare tell you
this
because I like you--and because you're without passion;
you look on
life as a spectacle; you don't enter it; you
only find
it funny or beautiful. So I can trust
you to cure
me. Mr. Herriton, isn't
it funny?" She tried to laugh
herself,
but became frightened and had to stop. "He's
not a
gentleman,
nor a Christian, nor good in any way. He's
never
flattered
me nor honoured me. But because he's
handsome,
that's been
enough. The son of an Italian dentist,
with a
pretty
face." She repeated the phrase as
if it was a charm
against
passion. "Oh, Mr. Herriton, isn't it funny!" Then,
to his
relief, she began to cry. "I love
him, and I'm not
ashamed of
it. I love him, and I'm going to Sawston, and if
I mayn't
speak about him to you sometimes, I shall die."
In that
terrible discovery Philip managed to think not
of himself
but of her. He did not lament. He did not even
speak to
her kindly, for he saw that she could not stand
it. A flippant reply was what she asked and
needed--something
flippant and a little cynical. And
indeed
it was the
only reply he could trust himself to make.
"Perhaps
it is what the books call 'a passing fancy'?"
She shook
her head. Even this question was too
pathetic. For as far as she knew anything about herself,
she knew
that her passions, once aroused, were sure.
"If I
saw him
often," she said, "I might remember what he is
like. Or he might grow old. But I dare not risk it, so
nothing can
alter me now."
"Well,
if the fancy does pass, let me know."
After all,
he could
say what he wanted.
"Oh,
you shall know quick enough--"
"But
before you retire to Sawston--are you so mighty
sure?"
"What
of?" She had stopped crying. He was treating her
exactly as
she had hoped.
"That
you and he--" He smiled bitterly at
the thought of
them
together. Here was the cruel antique
malice of the
gods, such
as they once sent forth against Pasiphae.
Centuries
of aspiration and culture--and the world could not
escape
it. "I was going to say--whatever
have you got in
common?"
"Nothing
except the times we have seen each other."
Again her
face was crimson. He turned his own face
away.
"Which--which
times?"
"The
time I thought you weak and heedless, and went
instead of
you to get the baby. That began it, as
far as I
know the
beginning. Or it may have begun when you
took us
to the
theatre, and I saw him mixed up with music and
light. But didn't understand till the morning. Then you
opened the
door--and I knew why I had been so happy.
Afterwards,
in the church, I prayed for us all; not for
anything
new, but that we might just be as we were--he with
the child
he loved, you and I and Harriet safe out of the
place--and
that I might never see him or speak to him again.
I could
have pulled through then--the thing was only coming
near, like
a wreath of smoke; it hadn't wrapped me round."
"But
through my fault," said Philip solemnly, "he is
parted from
the child he loves. And because my life
was in
danger you
came and saw him and spoke to him again."
For
the thing
was even greater than she imagined. Nobody
but
himself
would ever see round it now. And to see
round it he
was
standing at an immense distance. He
could even be glad
that she
had once held the beloved in her arms.
"Don't
talk of 'faults.' You're my friend for ever, Mr.
Herriton,
I think. Only don't be charitable and
shift or
take the
blame. Get over supposing I'm
refined. That's
what
puzzles you. Get over that."
As he spoke
she seemed to be transfigured, and to have
indeed no
part with refinement or unrefinement any longer.
Out of this
wreck there was revealed to him something
indestructible--something
which she, who had given it, could
never take
away.
"I say
again, don't be charitable. If he had
asked me,
I might
have given myself body and soul. That would
have
been the
end of my rescue party. But all through
he took me
for a
superior being--a goddess. I who was
worshipping every
inch of
him, and every word he spoke. And that
saved me."
Philip's
eyes were fixed on the Campanile of Airolo.
But he saw instead the fair myth of Endymion. This woman
was a
goddess to the end. For her no love
could be
degrading:
she stood outside all degradation. This
episode,
which she
thought so sordid, and which was so tragic for
him,
remained supremely beautiful. To such a
height was he
lifted,
that without regret he could now have told her that
he was her
worshipper too. But what was the use of
telling
her? For all the wonderful things had happened.
"Thank
you," was all that he permitted himself.
"Thank
you for
everything."
She looked
at him with great friendliness, for he had
made her
life endurable. At that moment the train
entered
the San Gothard tunnel. They
hurried back to the carriage
to close
the windows lest the smuts should get into
Harriet's eyes.
Denis P. Larionov
and Alexander A. Zhulin
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Academic year 2008/2009
© a.r.e.a./Dr.Vicente Forés López
© Mónica Panadero
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Universitat de Valčncia Press