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Chapter 6
I was extremely afraid
with him about the figure he would make in Virginia; but I found
he would do anything I desired, though he did not seem glad to have me
undervalue his plantations, so I turned my tale. I told him I had good
reason not to go there to live, because if his plantations were worth so
much there, I had not a fortune suitable to a gentleman of 1200 l
a year, as he said his estate would be.
He replied generously, he did
not ask what my fortune was; he had told me from the beginning he would
not, and he would be as good as his word; but whatever it was, he assured
me he would never desire me to go to Virginia with him, or go thither
himself without me, unless I was perfectly willing, and made it my choice.
All this, you may be sure, was
as I wished, and indeed nothing could have happened more perfectly agreeable.
I carried it on as far as this with a sort of indifferency that he often
wondered at, more than at first, but which was the only support of his
courtship; and I mention it the rather to intimate again to the ladies
that nothing but want of courage for such an indifferency makes our sex
so cheap, and prepares them to be ill-used as they are; would they venture
the loss of a pretending fop now and then, who carries it high upon the
point of his own merit, they would certainly be less slighted, and courted
more. Had I discovered really and truly what my great fortune was, and
that in all I had not full 500 l when he expected 1500 l,
yet I had hooked him so fast, and played him so long, that I was satisfied
he would have had me in my worst circumstances; and indeed it was less
a surprise to him when he learned the truth than it would have been, because
having not the least blame to lay on me, who had carried it with an air
of indifference to the last, he would not say one word, except that indeed
he thought it had been more, but that if it had been less he did not repent
his bargain; only that he should not be able to maintain me so well as
he intended.
In short, we were married, and
very happily married on my side, I assure you, as to the man; for
he was the best-humoured man that every woman had, but his circumstances
were not so good as I imagined, as, on the other hand, he had not bettered
himself by marrying so much as he expected.
When we were married, I was
shrewdly put to it to bring him that little stock I had, and to let him
see it was no more; but there was a necessity for it, so I took my opportunity
one day when we were alone, to enter into a short dialogue with him about
it. ‘My dear,’ said I, ‘we have been married a fortnight; is it
not time to let you know whether you have got a wife with something or
with nothing?’ ‘Your own time for that, my dear,’ says he; ‘I am
satisfied that I have got the wife I love; I have not troubled you much,’
says
he, ‘with my inquiry after it.’
‘That’s true,’ says I, ‘but I have a great difficulty
upon me about it, which I scarce know how to manage.’
‘What’s that, m dear?’ says he.
‘Why,’ says I, ‘’tis a little hard upon me, and
’tis harder upon you. I am told that Captain —’ (meaning my friend’s husband)
‘has told you I had a great deal more money than I ever pretended to have,
and I am sure I never employed him to do so.’
‘Well,’ says he, ‘Captain —may have told me so,
but what then? If you have not so much, that may lie at his door, but you
never told me what you had, so I have no reason to blame you if you have
nothing at all.’
‘That’s is so just,’ said I, ‘and so generous,
that it makes my having but a little a double affliction to me.’
‘The less you have, my dear,’ says he, ‘the worse
for us both; but I hope your affliction you speak of is not caused for
fear I should be unkind to you, for want of a portion. No, no, if you have
nothing, tell me plainly, and at once; I may perhaps tell the captain he
has cheated me, but I can never say you have cheated me, for did you not
give it under your hand that you were poor? and so I ought to expect you
to be.’
‘Well,’ said I, ‘my dear, I am glad I have not been
concerned in deceiving you before marriage. If I deceive you since, ’tis
ne’er the worse; that I am poor is too true, but not so poor as
to have nothing neither’; so I pulled out some bank bills, and gave him
about 160 l. ‘There’s something, my dear,’ said I, ‘and not
quite all neither.’
I had brought him so near to
expecting nothing, by what I had said before, that the money, though the
sum was small in itself, was doubly welcome to him; he owned it was more
than he looked for, and that he did not question by my discourse to him,
but that my fine clothes, gold watch, and a diamond ring or two, had been
all my fortune.
I let him please himself with
that 160 l two or three days, and then, having been abroad that
day, and as if I had been to fetch it, I brought him 100 l more
home in gold, and told him there was a little more portion for him; and,
in short, in about a week more I brought him 180 l more, and about
60 l in linen, which I made him believe I had been obliged to take
with the 100 l which I gave him in gold, as a composition for a
debt of 600 l, being little more than five shillings in the pound,
and overvalued too.
‘And now, my dear,’ says I to him, ‘I am very
sorry to tell you, that there is all, and that I have given you my whole
fortune.’ I added, that if the person who had my 600 l had not abused
me, I had been worth 1000 l to him, but that as it was, I had been
faithful to him, and reserved nothing to myself, but if it had been more
he should have had it.
He was so obliged by the manner,
and so pleased with the sum, for he had been in a terrible fright lest
it had been nothing at all, that he accepted it very thankfully. And thus
I got over the fraud of passing for a fortune without money, and
cheating a man into marrying me on pretence of a fortune; which, by the
way, I take to be one of the most dangerous steps a woman can take,
and in which she runs the most hazard of being ill-used afterwards.
My husband, to give him his
due, was a man of infinite good nature, but he was no fool; and finding
his income not suited to the manner of living which he had intended, if
I had brought him what he expected, and being under a disappointment in
his return of his plantations in Virginia, he discovered many times
his inclination of going over to Virginia, to live upon his own; and often
would be magnifying the way of living there, how cheap, how plentiful,
how pleasant, and the like.
I began presently to understand
this meaning, and I took him up very plainly one morning, and told him
that I did so; that I found his estate turned to no account at this distance,
compared to what it would do if he lived upon the spot, and that I found
he had a mind to go and live there; and I added, that I was sensible he
had been disappointed in a wife, and that finding his expectations not
answered that way, I could do no less, to make him amends, than tell him
that I was very willing to go over to Virginia with him and live
there.
He said a thousand kind things
to me upon the subject of my making such a proposal to him. He told me,
that however he was disappointed in his expectations of a fortune, he was
not disappointed in a wife, and that I was all to him that a wife could
be, and he was more than satisfied on the whole when the particulars were
put together, but that this offer was so kind, that it was more than he
could express.
To bring the story short, we
agreed to go. He told me that he had a very good house there, that
it was well furnished, that his mother was alive and lived in it, and one
sister, which was all the relations he had; that as soon as he came there,
his mother would remove to another house, which was her own for life, and
his after her decease; so that I should have all the house to myself; and
I found all this to be exactly as he had said.
To make this part of the story
short, we put on board the ship which we went in, a large quantity
of good furniture for our house, with stores of linen and other necessaries,
and a good cargo for sale, and away we went.
To give an account of the manner
of our voyage, which was long and full of dangers, is out of my way; I
kept no journal, neither did my husband. All that I can say is, that after
a terrible passage, frighted twice with dreadful storms, and once with
what was still more terrible, I mean a pirate who came on board and took
away almost all our provisions; and which would have been beyond all to
me, they had once taken my husband to go along with them, but by entreaties
were prevailed with to leave him;—I say, after all these terrible things,
we arrived in York River in Virginia, and coming to our plantation,
we were received with all the demonstrations of tenderness and affection,
by my husband’s mother, that were possible to be expressed.
We lived here all together,
my mother-in-law, at my entreaty, continuing in the house, for she
was too kind a mother to be parted with; my husband likewise continued
the same as at first, and I thought myself the happiest creature alive,
when an odd and surprising event put an end to all that felicity in a moment,
and rendered my condition the most uncomfortable, if not the most miserable,
in the world.
My mother was a mighty cheerful,
good-humoured old woman —I may call her old woman, for her son was above
thirty; I say she was very pleasant, good company, and used to entertain
me,
in particular, with abundance of stories to divert me, as well of the
country we were in as of the people.
Among the rest, she often told
me how the greatest part of the inhabitants of the colony came thither
in very indifferent circumstances from England; that, generally
speaking, they were of two sorts; either, first, such as were brought over
by masters of ships to be sold as servants. ‘Such as we call them,
my dear,’ says she, ‘but they are more properly called slaves.’
Or, secondly, such as are transported from Newgate and other prisons,
after having been found guilty of felony and other crimes punishable with
death.
‘When they come here,’ says she, ‘we make no
difference; the planters buy them, and they work together in the field
till their time is out. When ’tis expired,’ said she, ‘they have
encouragement given them to plant for themselves; for they have a certain
number of acres of land allotted them by the country, and they go to work
to clear and cure the land, and then to plant it with tobacco and corn
for their own use; and as the tradesmen and merchants will trust them with
tools and clothes and other necessaries, upon the credit of their crop
before it is grown, so they again plant every year a little more than the
year before, and so buy whatever they want with the crop that is before
them.
‘Hence, child,’ says she, ‘man a Newgate-bird
becomes a great man, and we have,’ continued she, ‘several justices
of the peace, officers of the trained bands, and magistrates of the towns
they live in, that have been burnt in the hand.’
She was going on with that part
of the story, when her own part in it interrupted her, and with a great
deal of good-humoured confidence she told me she was one of the second
sort of inhabitants herself; that she came away openly, having ventured
too far in a particular case, so that she was become a criminal. ‘And here’s
the mark of it, child,’ says she; and, pulling off her glove, ‘look
ye here,’ says she, turning up the palm of her hand, and showed
me a very fine white arm and hand, but branded in the inside of the hand,
as in such cases it must be.
This story was very moving to
me, but my mother, smiling, said, ‘You need not thing a thing strange,
daughter,
for as I told you, some of the best men in this country are burnt in the
hand, and they are not ashamed to own it. There’s Major —,’ says she,
‘he was an eminent pickpocket; there’s Justice Ba—r, was a shoplifter,
and both of them were burnt in the hand; and I could name you several such
as they are.’
We had frequent discourses of
this kind, and abundance of instances she gave me of the like. After some
time, as she was telling some stories of one that was transported but a
few weeks ago, I began in an intimate kind of way to ask her to tell me
something of her own story, which she did with the utmost plainness and
sincerity; how she had fallen into very ill company in London in
her young days, occasioned by her mother sending her frequently to carry
victuals and other relief to a kinswoman of hers who was a prisoner in
Newgate, and who lay in a miserable starving condition, was afterwards
condemned to be hanged, but having got respite by pleading her belly, dies
afterwards in the prison.
Here my mother-in-law ran out
in a long account of the wicked practices in that dreadful place, and how
it ruined more young people that all the town besides. ‘And child,’ says
my mother, ‘perhaps you may know little of it, or, it may be, have
heard nothing about it; but depend upon it,’ says she, ‘we all know
here that there are more thieves and rogues made by that one prison of
Newgate
than by all the clubs and societies of villains in the nation; ’tis that
cursed place,’ says my mother, ‘that half peopled this colony.’
Here she went on with her own
story so long, and in so particular.
