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Chapter 20
But my case was particular;
it was by no means proper to me to go thither without money or goods, and
for a poor convict, that was to be sold as soon as I came on shore, to
carry with me a cargo of goods would be to have notice taken of it, and
perhaps to have them seized by the public; so I took part of my stock with
me thus, and left the other part with my governess.
My governess brought me a great
many other things, but it was not proper for me to look too well provided
in the ship, at least till I knew what kind of a captain we should have.
When she came into the ship, I thought she would have died indeed; her
heart sank at the sight of me, and at the thoughts of parting with me in
that condition, and she cried so intolerably, I could not for a long time
have any talk with her.
I took that time to read my
fellow-prisoner’s letter, which, however, greatly perplexed me. He told
me was determined to go, but found it would be impossible for him to be
discharged time enough for going in the same ship, and which was more than
all, he began to question whether they would give him leave to go in what
ship he pleased, though he did voluntarily transport himself; but that
they would see him put on board such a ship as they should direct, and
that he would be charged upon the captain as other convict prisoners were;
so that he began to be in despair of seeing me till he came to Virginia,
which made him almost desperate; seeing that, on the other hand, if I should
not be there, if any accident of the sea or of mortality should take me
away, he should be the most undone creature there in the world.
This was very perplexing, and
I knew not what course to take. I told my Governess the story of the Boatswain,
and she was mighty eager with me treat with him; but I had no mind to it,
till I heard whether my husband, or fellow-prisoner, so she called him,
could be at liberty to go with me or no. At last I was forced to let her
into the whole matter, except only that of his being my husband. I told
her I had made a positive bargain or agreement with him to go, if he could
get the liberty of going in the same ship, and that I found he had money.
Then I read a long lecture to
her of what I proposed to do when we came there, how we could plant, settle,
and, in short, grow rich without any more adventures; and, as a great secret,
I told her that we were to marry as soon as he came on board.
She soon agreed cheerfully to
my going when she heard this, and she made it her business from that time
to get him out of the prison in time, so that he might go in the same ship
with me, which at last was brought to pass, though with great difficulty,
and not without all the forms of a transported prisoner-convict,
which he really was not yet, for he had not been tried, and which was a
great mortification to him. As our fate was now determined, and we were
both on board, actually bound to Virginia, in the despicable quality
of transported convicts destined to be sold for slaves, I for five years,
and he under bonds and security not to return to England any more,
as long as he lived, he was very much dejected and cast down; the mortification
of being brought on board, as he was, like a prisoner, piqued him very
much, since it was first told him he should transport himself, and so that
he might go as a gentleman at liberty. It is true he was not ordered to
be sold when he came there, as we were, and for that reason he was obliged
to pay for his passage to the captain, which we were not; as to the rest,
he was as much at a loss as a child what to do with himself, or with what
he had, but by directions.
Our first business was to compare
our stock. He was very honest to me, and told me his stock was pretty good
when he came into the prison, but the living there as he did in a figure
like a gentleman, and, which was ten times as much, the making of
friends, and soliciting his case, had been very expensive; and, in a word,
all his stock that he had left was 108 l, which he had about him
all in gold.
I gave him an account of my
stock as faithfully, that is to say, of what I had taken to carry with
me, for I was resolved, whatever should happen, to keep what I had left
with my governess in reserve; that in case I should die, what I had with
me was enough to give him, and that which was left in my governess’s hands
would be her own, which she had well deserved of me indeed.
My stock which I had with me
was 246 l some odd shillings; so that we had 354 l between
us, but a worse gotten estate was scarce ever put together to being the
world with.
Our greatest misfortune as to
our stock was that it was all in money, which every one knows is an unprofitable
cargo to be carried to the plantations. I believe his was really all he
had left in the world, as he told me it was; but I, who had between 700
l
and 800 l in bank when this disaster befell me, and who had one
of the faithfulest friends in the world to manage it for me, considering
she was a woman of manner of religious principles, had still 300 l
left in her hand, which I reserved as above; besides, some very valuable
things, as particularly two gold watches, some small pieces of plate, and
some rings—all stolen goods. The plate, rings, and watches were put in
my chest with the money, and with this fortune, and in the sixty-first
year of my age, I launched out into a new world, as I may call it, in the
condition (as to what appeared) only of a poor, naked convict, ordered
to be transported in respite from the gallows. My clothes were poor and
mean, but not ragged or dirty, and none knew in the whole ship that I had
anything of value about me.
However, as I had a great many
very good clothes and linen in abundance, which I had ordered to be packed
up in two great boxes, I had them shipped on board, not as my goods, but
as consigned to my real name in Virginia; and had the bills of loading
signed by a captain in my pocket; and in these boxes was my plate and watches,
and everything of value except my money, which I kept by itself in a private
drawer in my chest, which could not be found, or opened, if found, with
splitting the chest to pieces.
In this condition I lay for
three weeks in the ship, not knowing whether I should have my husband with
me or no, and therefore not resolving how or in what manner to receive
the honest Boatswain’s proposal, which indeed he thought a little strange
at first.
At the end of this time, behold
my husband came on board. He looked with a dejected, angry countenance,
his great heart was swelled with rage and disdain; to be dragged along
with three keepers of Newgate, and put on board like a convict,
when he had not so much as been brought to a trial. He made loud complaints
of it by his friends, for it seems he had some interest; but his friends
got some check in their application, and were told he had had Favour
enough, and that they had received such an account of him, since the
last grant of his transportation, that he ought to think himself very well
treated that he was not prosecuted anew. This answer quieted him at once,
for he knew too much what might have happened, and what he had room to
expect; and now he saw the goodness of the advice to him, which prevailed
with him to accept of the offer of a voluntary transportation. And after
this his chagrin at these hell-hounds, as he called them, was a
little over, he looked a little composed, began to be cheerful, and as
I was telling him how glad I was to have him once more out of their hands,
he took me in his arms, and acknowledged with great tenderness that I had
given him the best advice possible. ‘My dear,’ says he, ‘thou has twice
saved my life; from hence forward it shall be all employed for you, and
I’ll always take your Advice.’
The ship began now to fill;
several passengers came on board, who were embarked on no criminal account,
and these had accommodations assigned them in the great cabin, and other
parts of the ship, whereas we, as convicts, were thrust down below,
I know not where. But when my husband came on board, I spoke to the Boatswain,
who had so early given me hints of his friendship in carrying my letter.
I told him he had befriended me in many things, and I had not made any
suitable return to him, and with that I put a guinea into his hand. I told
him that my husband was now come on board; that though we were both under
the present misfortune, yet we had been persons of a different character
from the wretched crew that we came with, and desired to know of him, whether
the captain might not be moved to admit us to some conveniences in the
ship, for which we would make him what satisfaction he pleased, and that
we would gratify him for his pains in procuring this for us. He took the
guinea, as I could see, with great satisfaction, and assured me of his
Assistance.
Then he told us he did not doubt
but that the captain, who was one of the best humour’d gentlemen in the
world, would be easily brought to Accommodate us, as well as we could desire,
and, to make me easy, told me he would go up the next tide on purpose to
speak to the captain about it. The next morning, happening to sleep a little
longer than ordinary, when I got up, and began to look abroad, I saw the
Boatswain among the men in his ordinary business. I was a little melancholy
at seeing him there, and going forward to speak to him, he saw me, and
came towards me, but not giving him time to speak first, I said, smiling,
‘I
doubt, sir, you have forgot us, for I see you are very busy.’ He returned
presently, ‘Come along with me, and you shall see.’ So he took me into
the great cabin, and there sat a good sort of a gentlemanly man for a seaman,
writing, and with a great many papers before him.
‘Here,’ says the Boatswain to
him that was a-writing, ‘is the gentlewoman that the captain spoke to you
of’; and turning to me, he said, ‘I have been so far from forgetting your
business, that I have been up at the captain’s house, and have represented
faithfully to the captain what you said, relating to you being furnished
with better conveniences for yourself and your husband; and the captain
has sent this gentleman, who is made of the ship, down with me, on purpose
to show you everything, and to accommodate you fully to your content, and
bid me assure you that you shall not be treated like what you were at first
expected to be, but with the same respect as other passengers are treated.’
The mate then spoke to me, and,
not giving me time to thank the Boatswain for his kindness, confirmed what
the Boatswain had said, and added that it was the captain’s delight to
show himself kind and charitable, especially to those that were under any
misfortunes, and with that he showed me several cabins built up, some in
the great cabin, and some partitioned off, out of the steerage, but opening
into the great cabin on purpose for the accommodation of passengers, and
gave me leave to choose where I would. However, I chose a cabin which opened
into the steerage, in which was very good conveniences to set our chest
and boxes, and a table to eat on.
The Mate then told me that the
Boatswain had given so good a character of me and my husband, as to our
civil Behaviour, that he had orders to tell me we should eat with him,
if we thought fit, during the whole voyage, on the common terms of passengers;
that we might lay in some fresh provisions, if we pleased; or if not, he
should lay in his usual store, and we should have share with him. This
was very reviving news to me, after so many hardships and afflictions as
I had gone through of late. I thanked him, and told him the captain should
make his own terms with us, and asked him leave to go and tell my husband
of it, who was not very well, and was not yet out of his cabin. Accordingly
I went, and my husband, whose spirits were still so much sunk with the
indignity (as he understood it) offered him, that he was scare yet himself,
was so revived with the account that I gave him of the reception we were
like to have in the ship, that he was quite another man, and new vigour
and courage appeared in his very countenance. So true is it, that the greatest
of spirits, when overwhelmed by their afflictions, are subject to the greatest
dejections, and are the most apt to despair and give themselves up.
After some little pause to recover
himself, my husband came up with me, and gave the mate thanks for the kindness,
which he had expressed to us, and sent suitable acknowledgment by him to
the captain, offering to pay him by advance, whatever he demanded for our
passage, and for the conveniences he had helped us to. The mate told him
that the captain would be on board in the afternoon, and that he would
leave all that till he came. Accordingly, in the afternoon the captain
came, and we found him the same courteous, obliging man that the Boatswain
had represented him to be; and he was so well pleased with my husband’s
conversation, that, in short, he would not let us keep the cabin we had
chosen, but gave us one that, as I said before, opened into the great cabin.
Nor were his conditions exorbitant,
or the man craving and eager to make a prey of us, but for fifteen Guineas
we had our whole passage and provisions and cabin, ate at the captain’s
table, and were very handsomely entertained.
The captain lay himself in the
other part of the great cabin, having let his round house, as they call
it, to a rich planter who went over with his wife and three children,
who ate by themselves. He had some other ordinary passengers, who quartered
in the steerage, and as for our old fraternity, they were kept under the
hatches while the ship lay there, and came very little on the deck.
I could not refrain acquainting
my governess with what had happened; it was but just that she, who was
so really concerned for me, should have part in my good fortune. Besides,
I wanted her assistance to supply me with several necessaries, which before
I was shy of letting anybody see me have, that it might not be public;
but now I had a cabin and room to set things in, I ordered abundance of
good things for our comfort in the voyage, as brandy, sugar, lemons, etc.,
to make punch, and treat our benefactor, the captain; and abundance of
things for eating and drinking in the voyage; also a larger bed, and bedding
proportioned to it; so that, in a word, we resolved to want for nothing
in the voyage.
All this while I had provided
nothing for our assistance when we should come to the place and begin to
call ourselves planters; and I was far from being ignorant of what was
needful on that occasion; particularly all sorts of tools for the planter’s
work, and for building; and all kinds of furniture for our dwelling, which,
if to be bought in the country, must necessarily cost double the price.
So I discoursed that point with
my governess, and she went and waited upon the captain, and told him that
she hoped ways might be found out for her two unfortunate cousins, as
she called us, to obtain our freedom when we came into the country,
and so entered into a discourse with him about the means and terms also,
of which I shall say more in its place; and after thus sounding the captain,
she let him know, though we were unhappy in the circumstances that occasioned
our going, yet that we were not unfurnished to set ourselves to work in
the country, and we resolved to settle and live there as planters, if we
might be put in a way how to do it. The captain readily offered his assistance,
told her the method of entering upon such business, and how easy, nay,
how certain it was for industrious people to recover their fortunes in
such a manner. ‘Madam,’ says he, ‘’tis no reproach to any many in
that country to have been sent over in worse circumstances than I perceive
your cousins are in, provided they do but apply with diligence and good
judgment to the business of that place when they come there.’
She then inquired of him what
things it was necessary we should carry over with us, and he, like a very
honest as well as knowing man, told her thus: ‘Madam, your cousins in the
first place must procure somebody to buy them as servants, in conformity
to the conditions of their transportation, and then, in the name of that
person, they may go about what they will; they may either purchase some
plantations already begun, or they may purchase land of the Government
of the country, and begin where they please, and both will be done reasonably.’
She bespoke his Favour in the first article, which he promised to her to
take upon himself, and indeed faithfully performed it, and as to the rest,
he promised to recommend us to such as should give us the best advice,
and not to impose upon us, which was as much as could be desir’d.
She then asked him if it would
not be necessary to furnish us with a stock of tools and materials for
the business of planting, and he said, ‘Yes, by all means.’ And then she
begged his assistance in it. She told him she would furnish us with everything
that was convenient whatever it cost her. He accordingly gave her a long
particular of things necessary for a planter, which, by his account, came
to about fourscore or a hundred pounds. And, in short, she went about as
dexterously to buy them, as if she had been an old Virginia merchant;
only that she bought, by my direction, above twice as much of everything
as he had given her a list of.
These she put on board in her own name, took his bills
of loading for them, and endorsed those bills of loading to my husband,
insuring the cargo afterwards in her own name, by our order; so that we
were provided for all events, and for all disasters.
I should have told you that my husband gave her all
his whole stock of 108 l, which, as I have said, he had about him
in gold, to lay out thus, and I gave her a good sum besides; sot that I
did not break into the stock which I had left in her hands at all, but
after we had sorted out our whole cargo, we had yet near 200 l in
money, which was more than enough for our purpose.
In this condition, very cheerful, and indeed joyful
at being so happily accommodated as we were, we set sail from Bugby’s-Hole
to Gravesend, where the ship lay about ten more days, and where
the captain came on board for good and all. Here the captain offered us
a civility, which indeed we had no reason to expect, namely, to let us
go on shore and refresh ourselves, upon giving our words in a solemn manner
that we would not go from him, and that we would return peaceably on board
again. This was such an evidence of his confidence in us, that it overcame
my husband, who, in a mere principle of gratitude, told him, as he could
not be in any capacity to make a suitable return for such a Favour, so
he could not think of accepting of it, nor could he be easy that the captain
should run such a risk. After some mutual civilities, I gave my husband
a purse, in which was 80 Guineas, and he put in into the captain’s hand.
‘There, captain,’ says he, ‘there’s part of a pledge for our fidelity;
if we deal dishonestly with you on any account, ’tis your own.’ And on
this we went on shore.
Indeed, the captain had assurance enough of our resolutions
to go, for that having made such provision to settle there, it did not
seem rational that we would choose to remain here at the expense and peril
of life, for such it must have been if we had been taken again. In a word,
we went all on shore with the captain, and supped together in Gravesend,
where we were very merry, stayed all night, lay at the house where we supped,
and came all very honestly on board again with him in the morning. Here
we bought ten dozen bottles of good beer, some wine, some fowls, and such
things as we thought might be acceptable on board.
My governess was with us all this while, and went with
us round into the
Downs, as did also the captain’s wife, with whom
she went back. I was never so sorrowful at parting with my own mother as
I was at parting with her, and I never saw her more. We had a fair easterly
wind sprung up the third day after we came to the Downs, and we
sailed from thence the 10th of April. Nor did we touch any more
at any place, till, being driven on the coast of Ireland by a very
hard gale of wind, the ship came to an anchor in a little bay, near the
mouth of a river, whose name I remember not, but they said the river came
down from Limerick, and that it was the largest river in Ireland.
